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[03 Jul 2003|07:56pm] |
Aside from the crappiness that is me right now I do have good news. Danny asked me to be his "maid of honor" or whatever the equivilant is. That makes me feel so great. I love my Danny and Tom too.
Now if I could just get over my own shit and everything It would be perfect.
I think I may go see Hayden & Nat. I don't know. I'm just curlie up and cry in my bed girl.
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[02 Jul 2003|11:59am] |
I'm in a funk and I so want to get out of LA out of anywhere that reminds me of him. I don't know if i should go see Nat & hayden or what, but I need to get out of LA.
Road Trip anyone?
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I'm tired and being all contemplative, just about life in general and what I'm doing with mine. Not in the momment kind of thing cause I'm having a great time just taking things easy. Hanging out with friends, spending time with Shane.
Everything is really great.
I'm just thinking long term, like careerwise even. Music is my first love, everything in my life centers around it. It always has and it always will. Sure people thought I was this huge stuck up bitch when I got huffy about singing on Roswell. Sure the fans loved it, but they loved other people's music and my voice.
And my album, not exactly the type of thing you'll see on mainstream MTV, and I'm okay with that, my music is everything I want it to be. It's mine. And while other people may not like it, I could give a rats ass about that.
And now, my new songs have a whole different feel to them. I like it, but it's still strange territory for me. And before anyone asks, different doesn't mean popie, different means, different. ::laughs:: Who knows if I'll even be able to make another album, but at least I'm writing.
But back to my original point, Acting was always second cusp to me. It was a pay check. And it's really not like that anymore. Maybe not having it there made me realize how much I enjoy it. It's not like I want to act forever, but I don't want to give it up either.
I'm suddenly grasping at what my original point what suppose to be. I think that's a sign of too much thinking.
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[23 Jun 2003|11:37pm] |
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I went to Tobey's party with Shane, for a while. We left somewhere during the truth or dare. I'm so sorry I missed it all ::rolls eyes:: Only not. Ha ha.
Everyones in bad moods. Makes me all fiesty like. But I stay quiet and be supportive. Bad moods suck!
Ok. There. I'm going to be cryptic like everyone else. ::eyes james:: And just say I'm not in a bad mood. I'm in a good mood. And I love everybody! Well I guess that's impossible to love everybody. So there, not perfect ... big surprise.
But hey I have rocking friends (too many to list ok) and a KICK ASS SISTER! A great boyfriend, and I'm good for once in my life. So everyone else should get good too. Because I said so ok!
And if that's not enough incentive, you should get good because everyone deserves to be good. Everyone! Even people who may or may not seem to deserve it. Not our call. Everyone deserves it, and should be able to get it!!!
Alright. That's my postivity crap for today, ha ha! <3
Thanks. Bye. Bye.
<3 Maj
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[22 Jun 2003|12:29am] |
It's late and I'm unpopular. ::frown::
"Blah, blah, blah ... I ain't heard a word you say ... and the hupla ..."
Geez, I've been watching 8 Mile too much. But did everyone see Eminem's getting a journal. ::laughs:: I probably won't be getting rapping lesson's from him.
I had something substantial to say ... I think ... But it's gone now, and I'm tired, and no one wants to talk to me anyway.
Oh. Happy Birthday late ... Christina & Eric ... Hope your days were wonderful.
Ah hell, I'm going to bed now.
<3 Maj
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[19 Jun 2003|04:27pm] |
I'm so tired. I don't know why, I better not be getting sick. That would absolutely screw up my week. Not that I have big plans unless you count WANTING to be kidnapped by my incrediable boyfriend.
But alas, I'm going to lurk around a bit. I'll have my away message up, so If you want to talk to me IM me. I may not notice it though so don't get offended if I don't come around.
and this doesn't reflect my mood but I can't get this song out of my head "I find it kind of funny, yeah I find it kind of sad, that the dreams in which I'm dying are the best I ever had ..." you know from Donnie Darko. I haven't even watched that movie lately.
<3 Maj
( ooc )
Edit Ok, I'm around for a while. Blah ... ::smile::
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[18 Jun 2003|09:36pm] |
Damn I'm not on that list. Taryn, Eliza, Aly, Love, Alyssa, Britney, Jess, Holly and others are.
( FHM's 100 Sexiest Women )
Ok. That's my unsubstantial update for the day.
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[17 Jun 2003|03:37pm] |
NAT! I'm going to hurt you, you told after Tobey & me left. That's so unfair! You are lucky Hayden ended up telling me anyway. And I'd just like to firmly ::RAE:: and that is all ...
Julie is here! ::dances:: Sure she's part of the Buffy Cult, but she's part of the Roswell & Shriek cult too. So THERE!!! ::lovesherjules::
I'm tired, I need to stop staying up so late. I also have no idea where Shane is. Makes me sad. ::frowns and sighs:: Going *poof* is no good.
Eliza, Ste, Marieh & Andie are my gods! Just because!
Everyone needs to make friends with Tara, Michelle & Taryn. Make those girls not so shy! I'm giving you three hot women here! ::runs away so michelle doesn't kick her ass:: She can box you know, I bet she could beat me up if she wanted to. ::laughs::
Love and I are going to start our own advice column. "The Maj Love" cause we rock. Nat said so! By the way. Stay away from Starwars reunions, they are scary. I've never seen Hayden like that! He's not as shy and broody as he wants us to think.
Tobey is my new bestfriend. We had our bonding talk finally! Woot!
Shiri is the bestest person in the whole entire world and you should all bow to her.
I miss Marieh ::pouts:: come home oh gracious and lovely older sister, come home. Eric put the condoms on Love's lawn, we're going to get him! But shhhhhh ... ::sneaky grin:::
<3 to Tom & Danny.
::is THE Common Ro Ho::
<3, Maj
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1. Colin Is a freak
2. I'm obbsessed with 8 mile. I wanna be a rapper! ::loves on taryn:: cause she's in it. Props to Brittany Murphy too, I don't know you well but this movie is great!
3. Matt wants scooby to get a journal ::laughs:: Don't be mad at the Maj.
4. I <3 Mia.End Edit
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[16 Jun 2003|02:58am] |
Happy Birthday TOM!
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I'm tired, I got little sleep this morning, ::laughs:: or today whatever, and it's pushing 3 am. So I'm going to bed. As of now ... er ... when I upload the stuff, everything is up to date. So yay.
I <3 you guys.
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[15 Jun 2003|12:08am] |
Given the current situation and the moderators choice to close the community. I've started a new one.
 celebrity__skin
If you wish to be added, please comment here.
If you want to be a Co-mod, let me know and we'll talk.
Thanks,
Maj-Shaped
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[14 Jun 2003|02:50pm] |
I wanna be a Common Ro Ho ...
man dammit see that came out wrong. ::walks away shaking her head::
I MEAN I WANNA GET TO KNOW THE REST OF THEM BETTER!
and go see their shows, I can be a groupie!
<3
a substantial update shall come later
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[13 Jun 2003|11:56pm] |
I'm tired. I'll have an updated buddy list and all that stuff up for everyone in the morning. And where is my boyfriend?
Lunch with Shiri today was so great, just hanging out and everything. Muchly needed best friend time.
And then I spent some time with Marieh, since she's going out of the country. Oh and I had an Audition this morning, it went well. I was nervous, cause of what happened last weak. But I did well. I think anyway.
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1) I miss Shane.
2) Adam's Chest hair is his and/or Eric's!!!
3) STE is so cool
4) Nate is a freak
5) Michelle is shy, I can't believe it.
6) Hayden makes sexy icons of girls and guys but not me
7) Elijah needs to stop lurking
8) I still need to meet Nick & Michelle! So I can truly be a Buffy Cast Whore!
9) Marieh & Tobey have started the NKOTB trend.
10) Orlando is a strange strange man.
11) I <3 Eliza!!
12) Anger makes for good writing material.
13) I'm tired, and now going to sleep.
14) Everyone should buy boomkatalog.one by boomKAT cause Taryn rawks.
15)SHIRI IS MY BEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD AND EVERYONE SHOULD LOVE HER AND WORSHIP HER!
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[12 Jun 2003|08:21pm] |
Danny loves me but the rest of you don't!!
::cries dramatically::
Someone talk to me
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[11 Jun 2003|11:01pm] |
I need Shiri! I really really need to talk to my best friend right now. Marieh's trying to help but, Shiri please call me tommorrow.
My day has been ok. I keep hearing that fucking voice in my head. Plastic surgery! ugh!
Sometimes I feel so helpless. I did manage to write a whole angry song today. It's still got to have some tweaking but it's pretty good. I miss Shane. I saw him earlier today, but so what, I miss him.
Have you ever just felt like there was something else waiting out for you in the world, sure you could live without it and be happy, but to find it, really find it. Is like the last piece of the puzzel?
Everything you've done before, everyone you've been with, everyone you know makes up this puzzel but that last piece. That's him. Like in Shel Silverstien's (sp) "Missing Piece" I love that book. I lost my copy in the move from miami to here, and just never got around to getting it. Maybe I should go to the bookstore tommorrow.
Marieh's going to the UK this weekend. So I'm going to have the house to myself. Not that I plan on spending that time alone. -sighs-
Much love to Eliza, Danny, Tom, Adam, SHIRI, Colin, Hayden, Eric, Orli, Elijah, Tobey and all the rest of you!
<3
Maj
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[10 Jun 2003|01:02pm] |
Happy Birthday Shane
edit Ok an actual update.
I'm feeling a lot better, because I got some quality Shane time. Plus Marieh always does weird crazy things when I'm in a bad mood. Sisters. ::laughs::
Today is my baby's birthday. I want to take him out, but I think he has plans with his family. And I am so not getting in the way of family things. Family is like the most important thing to him.
On to why I think I've been so down in the dumps. I didn't tell anyone but I went for an audition last week, I was really excited because the roll was perfect for me, and I nailed the audition, and I don't mean I think I did well. I mean I nailed it. So I was excited, I've been itching to get some work. And I got the call, they pulled a simon on me (no offense simon btw) only much ruder. They said I had no talent, no emotion, no mystery, nothing in my audition was anything like the character they had envisioned. Not only that, it was suggested that I get a boob job and some plastic surgery.
Since when did calls come in like that? Usually it's we're sorry we found someone better.
And then, I went to go write, because that's what I do. But everything I wrote turned out horrible, completely and utterly horrible, and I'm not just saying that because I'm my own worst critic, I'm saying that because it was horrible.
I feel so creatively empty.
I mean I feel better now, but ... Whatever ... I just had to get that out. Today is Shane's Day. And I'm going to have to do something spectacular for him, because he deserves it. But my time is running short, and I don't know if I can finish it in time.
~Maj
<33 to everyone
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I'm depressed and I don't know why. I think it's because I'm so tired. I don't want to worry Shane, because he's the only thing that makes me smile.
I just don't want to get out of bed. I feel so, bad about nothing in particular. And it makes no sense what so ever.
So I'm going to curl up in my bed, call Shane and see if he'll just come over and hold me. I can't think of anything else that will make me feel better, not even Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream.
I <3 you guys, I'm not avoiding you, I'm avoid the world.
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[07 Jun 2003|10:46pm] |
Apparently I am now Orlando's 4th platonic wife ... oh I'm special number 4, but he assures me it's his favorite number.
Danny, sweety I wanna talk to you, give me a call.
Adam <3
I'm tired and don't feel well. Shane and I went to see Wrong Turn, ::points to Eliza:: she was so hot in it, the grossness of the carnage is worth the hot Eliza. I even let Shane admit this without hurting him ::grins::
So now he's gone ::pouts:: Marieh's off doing whatever it is she does, and I don't feel well. No getting sick for me. None.
Colin - I'm always around, i'm just away sometimes. And lunch was great, I'll keep your secret I promise but you know how I feel about it ::eyes colin::
alright, I'm off to have good dreams
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[06 Jun 2003|09:57pm] |
Today was a Lazy day.
Shane came over and we watched movies, lots of movies, most of which I ended up falling asleep during, because I have a tendency to do that.
I have no clue what my sister did all day but hey, who does? Ever. ::winks::
So now that I got Colin here, my next mission is to get Jason Wade for Marieh. Obviously boy seranading her with NKOTB isn't enough for my big sis ::winks:: She's been playing that Lifehouse CD ALL night.
I'm just being lazy, Colin and I are going out to lunch tommorrow to catch up, and HE wants Shiri to come, but I don't know if she will that lurking freak.
[maj-shaped actually has to work tommorrow all day, and My friend colin-shaped knows this, so yeah shiri-shaped if you do want to come and actually rp this maybe tommorrow night?]
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In honor of the VMA's airing tonight. I made some icons from them. Use em if you want, or don't if your in them. I was bored.
( Icons - Paris, Paul, Elijah, Aly, Justin, Josh, Colin, KiKi, etc ... )
Congrats to all who won.
My day was kind of boring, I spent the day cleaning, on the phone. In my studio doing some stuff.
Last night though was so much fun. Shane and I were cracking up at everyone acting so funny. Then Love pulled me into the mix so Shane got to laugh at me as well. Marieh was working it yo! Man everyone who went I had a blast, we really need to do that again.
Edit New members added to the Downloadable Buddy List, Excel Document & The Web List, (remember for Buddy list and Excel Doc. you must right click and "Save Target As") End Edit
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANNY I LOVE YOU
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