*LoU*'s Day

12:25PM

in my entry i wrote between sunday and monday i said "what is this world coming to?"
reading over that now i couldn't agree more.
as much as i would love to say that the things that happened at VT monday didn't affect me.. they did.
it scares the shit out of me to think that could happen on a college campus.
i can't even imagine what all the students and faculty and families are feeling right now because it had nothing to do with me and i still can't comprehend that. 33+ people dead within a matter of hours.


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k so i completely got sidetracked by hw and visits and such, and forgot i had started to write this.. i double clicked on it to copy and paste something my husband wrote and here it is.. the entry.. wow..

anyway.. so i went to a vigil on sunday night for VT.. it really hits home when you think about the fact that it could be your campus, you know? i mean.. sitting here last night i was talking to one of my friends saying how stressed i was and that it's making me break out and that's just not cool and then i was like.. you know.. i'm sitting here saying all of this and like.. someone could just walk in here right now and shoot us and it would all be over and everything we were just talking about would seem so much more miniscule than it already is..
it's scary that the thought even pops into my head.
i know le moyne is a small campus and everyone keeps saying "it can't happen here. it won't happen here. it couldn't." but i'm sure the kids at VT thought the same thing - yea they had bomb threats and stuff, but half of them said in interviews that they didnt even take the lockdown seriously cos everything had just been a threat until then.
and now look at it.

on the news the other day they said that cho seung-hui's rampage in norris hall took about 9 minutes... how the hell do you kill 30+ people and yourself in 9 minutes? and shoot about 29 other people as well.
in 9 minutes.

9 fucking minutes. in the time it takes for me to leave my dorm, walk to the academic halls, and sit down in my classes with like a few minutes to spare before class starts, there were 30+ people dead and about 29 injured.
what the hell?

i don't get it at all. it doesn't make sense.
how can someone even do that?

and at the same time i feel bad that he was pushed to that point - but why didn't he get help?
it's so scary to think that like.. we've had our share of crazies on this campus.. not to mention names but i'm sure some people know who i'm talking about cos we had this discussion just a few days after the shooting, and to think that just because they didn't agree with what lmc stood for they could have done the same exact thing cho did..
scary.
and that's an understatement.

i don't really want to dwell on this..
i want to post a happy thing.. so after this, i'm going to.
and i'm going to just pray to God that nothing like what happened at VT ever happens anywhere around where i or the people i love are, cos i can barely comprehend it and i didn't know anyone there - i can't even begin to imagine - nor do i want to - how it would be if it was somewhere that hit close to home...

God bless everyone at VT and all those who were victims of that senseless rampage. You are in my heart, thoughts, and prayers. Stay strong. ♥
RIP.

12:28PM - so my husband wrote a Dolphy Day poem/story and it's awesome.

"Twas the time around Dolphy Day,
And all through the school.
Not a student was sleeping,
Not even the tools.
The alcohol was stocked
In the minifridges with care.
In hopes that Dolphy Day
Would soon be there.
The freshman were nestled
All snug in their beds,
While visions of drunkenness
Stumbled through their heads.
My roommate in his beer shirt,
And I in my sheets.
Had just settled down,
For a three hour sleep.
When out on the quad
There arose such a clatter.
We sprang from our bunks
To see what was the matter.
I ran to the window
And opened the blinds
There was only one thing
On all of our minds
Through the window I saw
What was about to begin
We got out our beers
Our Vodka our Gin
Tequila and rum
Whisky and wine
Whatever the drinks
It was finally time
We all ran to the quad
In the blink of an eye
And as we all drank and cheered
And looked up in the sky
The sun wasnt up
But our spirits were high
The day had finally come
And there was one loud cheer
"Hooray for the wizard
Now drink lots of beer!"
~ Jordan Ryan

yea, so, Monday = amazing. :-D
water fights = hilarious.
and the bruise on my knee from mine & Riti's botched double team attack on one of the boys during the water fight = priceless.

haha i love it. ♥

i'm going to miss this year
and this dorm
and everything about all of this
more than words can explain.

this year has been the hardest but the best.
and i don't know what i'd do without the people who made it possible to get through it.

Monday just further proved to me that this is home.
and i'm going to miss you guys and this place soooo much this summer.

but next year is going to kick effing ass in a major way.
so yea, peace out kidds.
i'm sure i'll be writing again soon (my brain is all jumbled.. but i have to study right now for a Shakespeare test i have in a half hour)
so i'll be back with the confusion that is my life.
and i'm sure you're all looking forward to it.
but for now - read Jordan's poem.
love it.
and if you steal it - CREDIT HIM. (cos he asked very nicely and i love him lol)
♥

peace kiddies.