1:41AM
yea, so every single one of the male population is scum.
i've come to that conclusion.
and it's a pretty good conclusion.
pretty true i'd say.
while i was kissing you i was hearing his voice outside and feeling wrong.
but while you were kissing me you had a gf back in another dorm.
did you even think of that?
did it even cross your mind?
obviously not so much enough to tell me you had a gf huh?
nope. not at all. you just went on with yourself, having the balls to ask to have sex with me, which i turned you down, and thank God i did, otherwise i'd be feeling even worse over a situation that shouldn't even be on my conscience, but it is. because i don't want to be that girl.
i hate thinking of him with another girl. i can't imagine how she must have felt finding out you had been with a whole bunch of them.
i mean i know how i felt and it wasn't good. but she was your gf for crying out loud!
you had the gall to ask if we could have sex, and yet didn't have enough courage to tell me you a girlfriend.
instead, at 6 am, after whatever happened, and a little bit of sleep and cuddling you kissed me and said you wouuld talk to me later.
i knew you wouldn't. i didn't care so much about that, cos i wasn't expecting you to.
but i come to find out today that YOU HAD A GIRLFRIEND?!
THAT i care about.
you don't do that to a girl!!
and you don't make me the other girl.
or one of the other girls.
you just don't.
i would NEVER want that to be me on the cheated-on side. i've been there.
i've been the girl who has been sitting there wondering who he's with and when he'll come back. i've been the girl who can't bare to think about him with another girl but who KNOWS he's with someone else.
but i never EVER want to be that girl that another girl has to think about her boyfriend or significant boy figure with.
i can't do that.
it hurts me just to think of it because i know how bad it hurts to be on her side of things.
i don't want to be that girl.
i can't be that girl.
but you made me that girl.
or in your case, on of those girls.
i don't want that.
i can't have that.
i hate this.
why the hell do i feel like crying over this?
i guess cos idk..
i thought you were a better guy than that.
and apparently so did everyone else.
wow.. yea.. so i'm speechless.
i've repeated myself a lot in the last few lines.
i know i have.
and it's solely cos i don't know what more to say.
you're just like all the rest of them.
girls, you'll never find a boy at le moyne.
at least not a good one.
the end.
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