2:16AM - my away tonight says it all..
Auto response from xforget decembrx (2:10:37 AM):
These pills aren't working anymore
My guts are spilling out onto the floor
Of a nightmare you wouldn't believe
Of a nightmare you could not conceive of
You're floating above my head
There are words carved in my chest
And they said...
"Could somebody show me the kind of affection
That you only see in the movies, you know what I mean"
((The Spill Canvas - "Your Evil Soul"))i wish this away would get the response it had when it seemed as though you cared a little more than i think you do now.
i hate change.
i hate when people change.
i hate that you've changed.
you may be in close range but it's still logical for me to say i miss you.
because you're not the same.
sleep. cell's good.i just had to post this up because it explains how i feel better than i thought i could explain it.
you're right there, but i miss you.
i miss what you used to say, how you used to be, how you used to treat me.
i miss the person i fell for in the beginning. the person i thought i was letting mean something to myself.
i'm lost in the person you aren't and in a way coping with the person you've become. settling with the now and remembering how you were. allowing the past to justify my present actions and decisions.
i miss you.
i only wish you felt the same way about me as i do about you.
and i meant as much to you as i thought i did in the beginning.
as much as you mean to me, and something more.
but it won't happen.
i may be able to see myself with you, but i don't think, other than the way we are now, you could ever see yourself as anything more with me.
and that hurts.