2:00AM - the new she & he situation
she still likes him.
more than she wants to admit.
but the problem is their friendship means so much to her that she doesn't want to put such a valuable thing on the line.
he's always there for her, and likewise she'll always be there for him..
hanging up with him causes sad butterflies in her stomach..
if she could, she'd talk to him forever.
but she blew it.
her chance passed a long time ago.
and she completely blew it.
then again.. how is a girl supposed to trust a guy who cheated on her??
but she wants to so badly.
she's torn and it sucks.
she's confused and it hurts.
she wants to be with him
she wants to trust him
she wants to believe he's different and things will be different, but ppl constantly tell her no guy changes. "once a cheater, always a cheater."
is that really the case?
she's becoming exhausted of these feelings and wants to let them out
she's becoming even more exhausted of the worrying and what ifs.
she wants to settle things once and for all, to see if anything can come of anything.
but sometimes the feelings that hurt so much to keep inside are the kind that are meant to remain there.
what if the hurt that comes from keeping them inside only increases once they are put out into the open?
sleep begins to sound good to her
shes unsure how to obtain it
hes on her mind.
she wants to text him
she wants to tell him she needs to talk to him
but if she did, would any good come of it?
scared isn't even the word to describe this.
intimidated sounds good for now.
confused