09:24pm 18/11/2003
 
mood: discontent
so we got new carpet today. it actually looks pretty good. they only got the bedrooms done so they have to come back tomorrow to do the living room but it looks nice. and i'm gonna do my best to keep it clean. (haha yea right) but i'm puttin all my stuff back up and i'm realizing just how much shit i actually have.
um i think eric is actually home now. kinda confusing me a bit, he isn't supposed to be home until thursday. so i'm rather confused.
i still don't know why but i really do miss brent. :/ oh well, not much i can do about that...i already fucked that up too much for him to ever consider tryin to make things ok and part of me doesn't want to be friends anymore cause we never have been normal friends. and i guess i'm just kinda scared to try bein "normal" with him...i don't know, i just know i miss him..a lot.		  
   

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)
 
   
11:08pm 18/11/2003
 
mood: sleepy
he was sleepy but he called me anyway :) i'm happy! he wasn't supposed to be home yet but he was so he called me. it is weird that my reasoning is like this, but now i know he cares. he could have just ignored me for the next few days cause i'm thinkin he isn't here...but he hasn't, he called to let me know he was home and that truely makes me feel as though he cares. aww i love him		  
   

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)
 
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