tony hawk is amazing!   
12:08am 15/11/2003
 
mood: impressed
i went to tony hawk boom boom huck jam tonight. that was so fuckin cool! they had skateboarders, bmx, and motocross. wow. 2 1/2 hours of tricks and wow. i really enjoyed it. i have to be up at ga state at 8 in the morning...i guess i should head off to bed. wow, i'm goin to bed pretty early but i don't feel well. tonight was great though. i just really wish eric could have came...but oh well. nighty night
 
   

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11:22pm 15/11/2003
 
mood: disappointed
ehh yet another not good night for bekah...eric calls me to ask me if i want to come over to get him out of his house and i'm like wow i get to hang out with eric. sure i'll be there in a lil bit. and i get there and he gets in my car and drives it and tells me that he needs to go talk to somebody about his car. so where do we go? the fuckin kmart parkin lot. there are tons of cars there...it is the "cool car club" and so i feel real out of place as it is. and the only person i know there besides eric is amanda and i haven't talked to her in forever. but i hung out with her and we got there at like maybe 8 ish? somethin around there. i finally got pissed and left at 9:45 cause he was ignoring me to be with his friends. oh and he told me that he was gonna go somewhere with this guy (after tellin me i have to stay cause he wont have another way home..) and he was like oh by the way...can i borrow some money? sure...whatever the fuck you want eric!!! and so i'm clearly pissed. it was supposed to be me and him hangin out and he told me that it was a dumb reason to be pissed cause he hadn't planned on stayin up there...but it doesn't matter if he planned on it or not...HE FUCKIN STAYED!! AND FUCKIN MADE ME STAY!!!! and so i'm real pissed and he's tryin to make a joke out of it all (don't joke about me when i'm pissed off by the way) and he said that it would be me and him all day tomorrow (hmm somehow i really doubt that). but of all the things that happened tonight, surprisingly, there is only two things that really pissed me off. what i just mentioned and earlier that night...like about 30 min after we got there i was gonna go to chick fil a to get amanda food and i went up to eric and was like do you want me to get you anything? and he said no that he was fine. and as i walked away somebody was like eric, is that your girlfriend? and his response: HELL NO!!! he yelled it and then started laughin. i don't think he realizes how much he actually hurts me by what he says. but ya know, he's eric so it just doesn't matter...i should go along with whatever he says cause ya know, it's eric and obviously he is always right and always has to win.
on a good note...i met this guy named chris tonight. he was pretty cool. he made me laugh. him and amanda's brother jessi were beating up eric. it was nice. :)
 
   

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