11:12pm 12/11/2003
mood: depressed
why can't i be her? why can't he feel about me the way he feels about her. even half of that. i hate not being able to have his affection. nothing i do is gonna be good enough. there is something so wrong with me that makes me never able to be good enough for him. i just really wish i could figure out what it was. but no response from him. i hate being me. i hate him not caring about me. i hate him not loving me. i hate him just using me cause she isn't around. i fuckin hate this!!!

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)