holy fuckin shit!!!   
12:41am 24/10/2003
 
mood: sad
so obviously me gettin eric those 4 different things for christmas (which cost over $100) wasn't enough for him. no no, he wants more. i am fucking giving him more than just 100 worth of car shit. now i get to buy him 6 things which, including shipping, costs 451.24. oh but i should be ok with this because he is sorry, really he is. (hmm, does anybody believe this? i think not!) so i'm kinda startin to believe now that in part he's only friends with me cause i have money. that really pisses me off. and now for some strange reason i'm fuckin crying and can't stop. probably cause i know i'm just being used. OH and he is like i hope you aren't buyin me this stuff to make me like you more cause that is just wrong. no eric, what is wrong is that you keep asking me to get you stuff knowing i can't fuckin say no!! love really shouldn't be this way, should it????
 
   

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)

 
   
07:28pm 24/10/2003
 
mood: good
music: friends (its on tv)
today was fun. i got up at 10:30, took a shower, went to faith academy to drop off sarah's work, went to china cafe to see if they had a menu that i could take to sarah, came home, then took a nap, went to cvs, then spent an hour with my grandma, then went to ashly's. then to billy's and after bein there 20 min left cause he still wasn't home so i went up to chickfila and then as soon as i walk back in the door i see that he's home now so i went back to billy's and spent about 30 or 40 min with him. it is billy's birthday today. i saw travi over at billy's...i havent seen him in awhile...kinda didnt really wanna see him but oh well. i didn't talk to him at all, and he didn't talk to me either. no big deal. so i finally got home at 7 and i'm not allowed to go anywhere else tonight cause i've been gone all day. but tomorrow, i'm headin out to conyers to see who i can find there. it shall be much fun.
i hope miss emily feels better...she got her wisdom teeth pulled out and she's in pain. i hope she feels better.
 
   

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)