why can't i just be happy???   
02:56pm 10/09/2003
 
mood: cranky
music: somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue...
YEAH!!! ashly got her license today! she was so nervous last night about it but she has them now so YEAH ASHLY!! :) she just came over to my house to show me her picture on the license. she's like it is a crappy picture i don't want you to see it..look. it made me laugh! :) ash is the one person that doesn't anger me. it is nice i atleast have one person that i don't wanna kill whenever i talk to them!
omg my parents anger me. so i've had my learners for a year and a month. they wont let me drive! grr it sucks greatly. this time next year i'll be i college. i kinda gotta be able to drive by then cause no way am i wantin to ride marta by myself...in downtown atlanta...at nightime. that's just callin for trouble! so atleast i know by next year i'll have my license. wow, real promising isn't it?
i seem to do a lot of stuff to fuck up my own life. i don't know why i continue to do this dumb stuff but oh well...i dunno. anyways that's all for now.
oh happy birthday george! george is 22 today		  
   

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)
 
sad..angry...grrrr   
09:58pm 10/09/2003
 
mood: discontent
music: counting crows~big yellow taxi
don't it always seem to go
that you don't know what you got til its gone
they paved paradise and put up a parking lot...

so yea...ashly came over for a lil while today. that was fun. i was surprised to see her but yea. i dunno. so i talked to somebody today and she was like you just need to wait for brent to talk to you. don't try to make him and all this other stuff. she told him that i missed him and he just said i know and that was all. no matter what anybody says...i know he hates me now. and the thing is...it is all over dumb ass shit that i didn't really do. some of it i did...some of it was made up. and that stuff pisses me off. if other people wouldn't have gotten involed maybe he would still talk to me. well, maybe not...i do tend to fuck up everything so i probably would have fucked it up just for being me. i dunno...i'm so grrr.........i miss him...i miss him a whole whole bunch. i never thought i'd be able to miss anybody this much, but i can. :/ this is no good. i'm sad and angry and depressed and wanting to die...all at once. that cant be good. but whatever. i'm out. the end		  
   

(♥ here's my heart...take it...)
 
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