Jessie Bess' Blurty

Hmmm
Alright, time for a controversial entry. I'm not trying to be controversial, the topic just calls for it. And I don't want people bashing me for my thoughts. I welcome other opinions, but I don't want people to assume that I'm a bad person based on my beliefs. I will extend these same courtesies to those I may reply to. Anyways, here goes...

Since finding myself, and developing my relationship with God, one of the things I struggle with most is the issue of homosexuality. I was raised to treat everyone with respect and love. I was taught that being gay is ok, that there's nothing wrong with it. One of my mom's best friends is gay and he's a great guy. Well, here I am becoming a more devout Christian and strengthening my relationship with God every day. So according to my religion, I shouldn't hate homosexuals. But what I should believe is that homosexuality is a sin. And so, homosexuals are sinners and I should pray for them. But how can it possibly be a sin? It's such a hard concept for me to grasp. I feel like if I believe that, I'm a self declared homophobe and bigot. *sigh* It breaks my heart to even think to myself, "Homosexuals are sinners." I'm not saying that I'm NOT a sinner for a lot of things I do. I know that I am. And now there's this whole thing with the civil unions and what not. When I first heard that civil unions were being legalized for homosexuals I was glad! My thought was, "It's about time!" And then today, Autumn was telling Keith, Jenny and I about this thing that's going on downtown....I don't know exactly what's going on, but if you go, you bring a same-sex friend to voice your support of these civil unions. And before this past September, it would have totally been something I'd have gone to. Jenny wanted me to go with her...but I just can't. It's one of those battles Christians can't win...pardon my language but it's like damned if you do, damned if you don't. If I call homosexuals sinners, I'm a homophobe. If I think homosexuality is ok, I'm a bad Christian. It's really a horrible inner struggle for me.

So yeah, I guess that was really all I wanted to say.

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