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Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
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6:10 pm - The Beautacious Side of Things
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Have you ever starred at something beautiful for so long that
you knew tiny glimpses of imperfections would eventually begin to unfold?
His beauty is flawed and completely against nature,
like a blank photograph with immense sentimental value,
meaning absolutely everything to you without one fucking crumb for certainty.
Although this time, my uncertainty is a gift.
My uncertainty is my reality, and my reality embraces my ignorance for the future....
And I wouldn't change it for the world
If there is one thing I have learned from having an on-line journal for so long, is that your readers get sick and tired about you bitching about you life all the time. I bitched alot on this journal, complained, and damn near screamed through the keyboard. What a waist. Everyone has something to bitch about, everyone has drama, everyone has something or another that upsets them from time to time. (cough-cough- I think they call that life) It's only when you let it consume you, it starts to change you. And this transition is so drastically quick, that you don't even have the slightest clue about the person you have eventually become. I can recall two times that I almost let this happen to me......it's rather sad when you think about it. Now I simply laugh at it all, I know it will pass.
Living at the Randall's is......interesting. If I start comming around with a constant smile on my face talking like I am 5 again, you know they have been slipping me prozac at dinner......kiddin yall! I am making plans as of right now to purchase a friend. I want a Chinchilla. I want one so bad. I'd fall in love all over again.
current mood:  calm
current music: Sandys sweet voice
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| Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
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6:10 pm
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Hello Lovlies. It has been a really long time since I have updated, but thats what happens when you have no means to a computer. Uh......Life is ok I guess. It seems to be dragging a bit. It feels as though I am accomplishing everything yet nothing at all at the same time. This is not a bad thing, simply frustrating....but managable, so in no ways am I complaining. Everything takes time.....
My mother got her hair cut short again. This is the first time that I have actually liked the outcome of it. It suits her well. I would rather her keep it long though, she looks so pretty with longer hair.
Yesterday Ham-Mam and I had originally gone to go to a pottery class on the PJC campus. We went trampsing around the mall for a while. She almost got a dress. I got shoes to go with my dress. And we ate food and fended off black people. By the time that we got dont with all of that, the pottery class had 10 more min till close. So We got some clay, and said hey and went off to play some other day?
Anyway, we then went back into Breeze and looked around Wally-World for a while. It was fun.
My stomach started hurting really fucking badly by the end of the night so I finally got some sleep around 1-ish. Woke up again.......and fat ass was taking up the whole damn bed, so I did'nt get much sleep until 5-ish. Thkx Nik. So sweet of you!!!!!
I have nothing of interest to type about really. Typing about my life, not just the occurances within it, but my life, is not really an interest of mine latly. Besides, those who I know truly care know most of everything anyway.
Oh, but....oddly enough......very odd. I am.....excited.....about hanging out with........(Roxi) this weekend. Yes, I said excited and Roxi in the same sentence. Shut-up! Leave me alone. Have a good day.
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| Saturday, September 4th, 2004
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2:17 am - DESICCANT SILICA GEL......THROW AWAY.......DO NOT EAT
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So its been over a month since I have updated. I suppose things got better as they usually do, then right when you turn around with a smile on your face someone or something slaps it right back off. Damn the luck eh? FUCKIN CANADIANS!!!! Anyway, relationships with my "circle people" has been twisting and rapidly vanishing, while others seem to be growing. Aaron and I are friends, only on tuesdays though Ü Bobby and Sandys are just as dear to me as ever, I caught myself a Nik...he's awesome...., my dads acting like a shriveled up dick again, my mothers been taking everything out on me some more b/c she cant handle anything by herself, Steven hit me on my head and I'm still mad at him......bastard. And I really need to talk to Roxi again, patch up the bullshit.....yet AGAIN. But to be honest, I dont think I am going to waist my time nor my energy on that girl. We have already been through something like this before. She lets everything go in one ear and out the other....pretending like she is listening but really does'nt get jack-shit b/c shes either way to dence....or self-absorbed to understand and care. So thats what I think about that, and if she reads this, o'well. Remember what happens when we let things build Roxi??????
Gee......ut oh! Surprise, Surprise.
Only it did not blow up in my face, it blew up in yours.
Go ahead and say you dont care, its ok, I know you do...
Moving on. Tonight I met Bobby, Sandy, and Aaron up at Chans. It was pretty fun. My eyes did not burn as bad as last time at all, the band played good. The last time I was there they played alot of better songs, this time was just ok. I kicked Aarons ass at pool........b/c I am so much cooler than him right?......yeah, who am I kidding. The only time I ever win at a game of pool is when he fucks up and scratches on the 8 ball. But I still won!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHA.... I R PATHETIC.
Then we all went to Waffle House, oh yeah, and Neil was there with us. I was very surprised to see him. He is a good man. Then I went home....and now I think I have the shits from the food I ate...thk god I am at home right!!!!! Yeah, that Would be bad.
Tomorrow I may go see Nik and go to see Disposition Of play. There si another really good band playing, but I cant remember the damn name. O'well.
Love, Peace & Feces
current mood: waiting
current music: Deftones
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| Wednesday, July 21st, 2004
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10:17 pm - The roof! The roof! The roof is on fire! We dont need no water let the mother fucking burn!
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Um........I dont really know where to start. I suppose I could start off by saying that I feel overwhelmed, and it is doing nothing but breaking down the wall of my sanity. I can honestly say that through out my entire life I do believe that in recent events, piled ontop of one another, that it has been the most hard to handle, and by far the most trying. Between my family life crumbeling down, the decision to finally walk away from my brother, the money disappearing, losing most connections with my neice, finally getting the balls to walk away from a chic I thought to be my best friend, not really having a place to live some of the time........and today my house burned down. Everyone is ok though....even my gerbilÜ......
I know that everything is going to be ok. And I am not trying to sound like bitch but I dont really technically need any advice. For some reason it pisses me off. I am just worried about my mother. Because if my family has mastered anything is would be pretending.
Everything is gone. Nothing but brick left standing. Every unreplacable memory and keepsake...turned to fucking ash. I looked into my room from my back window and my heart hit the floor. All of my art stripped from my walls, bedding turned into a big mass of black blob. roses chared and forgotten. all of my writtings were blended into what you could call carpet.....with a very vivid imagination. Everything in my door was vanished, except for the "I Love Aaron" in red nail polish. If I could have saved anything in my room it would have been my art, my roses, and above all, the guitar Aaron bought me for my 16th birthday. I told this dude that was going back into my house after I left to see if he could save anything to try and find at least a peice of the guitar. As gay as it sounds, it would mean the world to me. Other than that, my family is alive and kicking, the animals are freaked out but fine. And I have my puppy and blanky.
I'm rambeling. I really dont know what to say. I do know that this is all getting close to "too much", but I'm dealing with it. I've just been loosing so much latly, my house was just the iceing on the cake.
current mood:  crushed
current music: changes- 3 doors down
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| Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
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1:31 pm - The downward spiral rises again......
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In events such as these, sit back and take deep long breaths. Rationalize.....understand........concentrate.
Assumptions will get you no where. Know this. When faced with a complication of any kind you should face it boldly but with an open mind. Misinterpretations can and will inevitably lead to something far more intricate by not handeling them right away. We have had a taste of this....let's not let it happen again. There never was a "real" problem......personally, I'd like to keep it that way home-girl. Ü
Now....to address another. I sit and think to myself about the drama you so promptly invite into your life, and how you live off of it. Then, I think of my situation with you. Call it drama if you will, but I find it rather amusing that you cower away from it. Is it because you know that I am right and that you have no defence? Or is it simply because you are far too scared to stand up for yourself. You do understand that one day you will again put yourself into a situation that you will be unable to get yourself out of right? Hmmm.....nevermind. Little miss starves for affections eyes are shut way too tightly. I just wanted to let you know that basically since the begining of this circus with you, I knew who you really were and that you were no good for me. I knew of your munipulations, your abuse, your excuses, and above all, your game. But, I kept trying to I guess turn you into to something you are not and never will be. I suppose I saw in you the potential to be a good solid person. But sweetie, I have been holding your hand as you dangle from the cliff for far too long. I sat there day in and day out trying to help you, whether it be personally or just flat out getting your dumbass out of fucking trouble again. I sat there and let you do this while my real friends watched me silently until there tounges were bleeding. You are on your own. You are hopeless, as much as it really does pain me to say such a thing. And by you reading what I wrote to you.....my ending letter on your bed, and with ending quote intact. I see what I mean to you. I saw it before, I refused to achknowledge it though. But now you have out done yourself. So.....I would give you one last peice of advice..... but I know that you will not listen. So, I will tell you what you will listen to. You are getting your car soon, so there will be no need for me. So just have in life.....thats all its about Merissa, is having fun and fucking up and fucking people over, remember that. Make new friends, pretend that they are special. Lie to them and deceive them like you did me. Continue in your one-woman circus living a lie.
The Best of Luck...
-Katie-
current mood:  accomplished
current music: Changes- 3 Doors Down
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| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
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7:39 pm
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Hi! I'm Dory! Yeah, anyway. I'm still not living at home. I part ways between Bobby and Sandys, Merissa's, and WinnDixie....or wherever else that strikes a fancy of temporary home comfort. My mother and I are on decent terms, she is trying to pull through this just as much as I am. So I am choosing to be a bigger person and stop letting it get to me, overall, stop making it harder on her. She has enough on her plate. She said she wanted me back home...and to be completly honest, thats all I really needed. Anyway, Merissa and I may go to Benny Russel to play hide and go seek with Robert tonight.....need more people. It's alot more fun kicking that many more peoples asses. Robert sucked at it, so did Justin....guess it runs in the family. Hehehehe. I was over at Bobby and Sandys the other day, but I had to go and get Merissa. I was not able to see Bobby and I did not get that much time to talk to Sandy....all though I did somewhat get my ass chewed out.....again. Hopefully not a third time. Yeah, I fucked up. I dont need to hear it over and over though. Besides, I am a light sleeper.....and not once was me or him on top of the other. That is the thing that kind of pisses me off. No heavy petting, and not all over eachother, intentionally anyway. The most of that that went on is the possibilty of my leg being thrown over his when I was asleep. But whatever.....its ok. Me and him both know where eachother stand very well, we are on good terms. So thats cool. Anyway. Not much else has been going on. Just drama in the house hold, and hanging out with M, going to Bobby and Sandys, and going to the beach. Which by the way is always fun. I love the beach so much. I saw Nik there last Weekend. We all went to his house and play video games all night and watch movies. Well, they played video games, Driv3r sucks. Ok, I am going to go and buy more ciggarettes now, its hard to keep a pack when someone else smokes them all with you. Damn you M! You are cutting down my nicotine fix!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You need to start getting some mula....that would be niceÜ
current mood:  discontent
current music: Light my Fire- Doors
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| Thursday, July 8th, 2004
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12:27 am - EGGROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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All is well......to a point I suppose. Under going a bit of turbulation in a certain aspect of my life, but it will pass. Am I going to get into it.....no. My head hurts already, whats the point. The nuisance is still living in my house right now. And Nick is out of a job, so the mula will be lacking there of...aka: longer time for Katie to be living out of the home. BasTERDS. This is gay...bye bye
current mood: I HAVE A HEAD ACHE
current music: YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE- ROBERTS SCARRY VOICE
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| Saturday, July 3rd, 2004
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6:50 pm
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This is horse shit. I am at my house right now. And to be serious I dont want to leave. John and Angie are here. Angie being John girlfriend and John being Bud's best friend. Well, apparently Angie and Bud keep on making lude comments to eachother....right infront of my mom......all the time. And yesterday my mom went to wal-mart real quick, gone for like 10 min, she comes home and John, Bud and Angie are all gone for like 3 hours and did not even wait for my mom to get home..just took off, no note, no phone call...nothing. My mom told me how she felt about all this and its not good. She already cussed Bud out right infront of John and Angie for leaving without her like they did. Before my mom told me about any of this, outside in the back yard I had already noticed that it seemed as though Bud and Angie were flirting. And it pissed me off bad....the nerve to that in front of my mother. It's a slap in the face...needless to say a stab in the back. And I dont want to leave right now b/c I dont want to leave my mom to deal with this all on her own. I am so fucking furious right now. God damnit I hate my dad. I am about in tears right now I have so much anger built up for him. My mom wants Angie out of the fucking house and to never come back. But she has always been respectable and she is waiting patiently for them to leave on Monday, then plans on "ripping Bud a new asshole". <<<
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| Saturday, June 26th, 2004
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4:13 pm - Ranting and Raving......yet again.
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So here I am filling the void of bordom once more. I plan on going to Bobby and Sandys today. I have not been there in a couple of days. Last night Merissa and I went down town for a while. It was o.k I suppose. I met this guy named Adam. A long time no see friend of Merissa's. We were all hungery so he took us out to Denny's. It was so freggin good. I have been drumming alot. I just got it and I have never really drummed before hand. I had always wanted to though. I love the drums, I feel each beat in my gut, its awesome. Anyway, me and my mom have been fueding latly. She is stressed, I am stressed. I want Nick and Pippi out. I can never get on the damn computer when I want, I can never watch T.V, I cant walk around the house in P.J shorts b/c Nick gets weirded out or something, food is scarce in the house having to feed three extra people day in day out, breakfast, lunch and dinner, not to mention Nick being a fucking asshole all the time. Bud is getting pissed as well, he never wanted them back in the house in the first place. And Marissa.........3-words......."Baby-Back ribs". That should take care of the food famine.
Oh and again.....THANK YOU so much for that skirt thingy Sandy. That was pretty cool of you to do that.
Ok, Marissa is screaming again.......I am going to go kill her now.....peace
current mood:  blah
current music: I wish you were here- Incubus
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| Thursday, June 24th, 2004
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5:38 pm - not too bad
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FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and
clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when
restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and
easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but thoes
not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves
making friends but rarely
shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing
dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside.
Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to
learn to show emotions
What does your birth month say about you?
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current mood:  sick
current music: The Verve Pipe- The photograph
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| Friday, June 18th, 2004
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6:50 pm
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Ok, so my family right....... is going fucking bonkers. My mother is acting as though the tree of Satan got ramed up her ass. And, to make matters worse, she just so happens to be seemingly taking it out on me. It pisses me off that she acts like such a happy go lucky person, then she turns on you like a rabid dog. Now, let me clarify. I know that she has a hard day at work, comes home to a house full of lazy leechy people, that should help her out. But.....I do. I am the only one that just on a whimp cleans up and sometimes I cook dinner. Now, question. Why the fuck would you scream and yell at the one person in the house hold that does help you???? She just made a big fucking mistake. Anyway, I need to go over to Bobby and Sandys, they are about to leave. I'll finsih later. peace.
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| Thursday, June 17th, 2004
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5:54 pm
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I am in pain. My hips have been bothering me somewhat the past couple of days. But today it got really of bad. I feel like fucking punching something everytime I walk. But thats ok......
My car died on me yesterday. Stupid bitch. I hate that car.....with a bloody passion. There's always something wrong with it. I was at the University Mall parking lot for about 4/5 hours. Something like that. Atleast I got some applications before it died. But it works again.......for now.
After dinner I plan on going over to Bobby and Sandys house. Well, first I have to wait for someone over there to answer the phone, I don't want to go over there and no one be there. I hope they had not watched that movie yet. But if they did thats cool too. I am hearing from everyone that it is really funny. I am going to go and watch the MTV music awards. Peace.
current mood: in Massive pain
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2:05 pm - Oh yea, I'm cool
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current mood: discontent
current music: Dead Girl- Acid Bath
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| Friday, June 11th, 2004
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11:09 am - The sound of the ocean is dead, it's just the echo of the blood in your head
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Hello. Marissa is in day care offically, so no more baby sitting for me, except sometimes on the weekends. I got to talk to a long lost friend of mine a couple days ago. Annalee Chiswell. She called out of no where, she seems to be doing pretty well. We are supposed to hang out when both of us find the free time. She wants me to meet her boyfriend Richard.....everyone has a fucking boyfriend! It's cuzz I'm ugly and my ass is too big, thats why. Trying for this weekend though. Roxy and I may go see a movie this weekend, the stepford wives I believe. It seems pretty good. I am going to aply for Ryans today. Hopefully I will land a job there. I want to start saving up the money to move out. I know that I will need room mates and I will choose them wisely. My family is getting a tad bit more disfunctional. I hold myself prisoner in my own room just to stay away from the daily bullshit bestowed upon me day in and day out. Yesterday was Krissy's birthday. I hope she had fun, she got cool presentsÜ Nick was supposed to show up.......he sooooo fucking easy on the eyes. Damn. Anyway, The whole "crew", well, most of them anyway, left me for four days. I hope they have a tremendous amount of killer fun! Josh's birthday is on Sunday, he called and wanted me to come to his little birthday party get-together. I plan on it. And Stephen quit his job and has been traveling all over the place. He had just gotten back from New Orleans and Atlanta, now I think he is in New York. Well, whatever he does, he's a great person and I hope he is having the time of his life. Can't wait for him to get back so he can tell me all about it. Right now there is a funny looking man installing direct T.V. I get it in my room and I get my own remote! I have not had a remote since the 4th grade. So I am syked. In a little while Merissa and I are going to go and see that movie Saved. It seems really fucking funny. I may be going into Navarre tonight to hang out with Wade and Jen. They're really cool peeps. We just sit around, play gee-tar, and bullshit about anything and everything. Good times......Ü. LOL, it's so cute. Merissa is on her own little personal hunt to find me a boyfriend. Bless you child.....bless you....loser. There are no, tattooed, long haired, peirced up, hott, dependable, musically inclined, NON-EGOTISTICAL, free-spirited, funny, motor cycle riding, prompt, non or ex juvenile, single and not famous guys out there. Damn.....I'm dying alone. *sad face* Anyways. Can't wait for Springfest. Pretty good line up this year. Plus, some really good friends of mine are playing there. Disposition Of is the name of their band, they play at 2:15 on Saturday, the Discovery stage. Good luck dudes! Well. I need to go and get ready, get a shower cuzz I stink. Peace out homies.
current mood: discontent
current music: duality- SlipKnot
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| Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
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11:59 am - no subject
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Hello. Well, not too much has been going on. I have been baby-sitting alot. Which I do enjoy. I love my neice to death. I have been somewhat teaching her how to play the guitar latly. She came into my room last night, picked the guitar up and screamed "Let's Rock 'n' Roll!!!!!!" Shes awesome. Today, Pippi and I are both going out and getting applications. We are more than likly going to start off looking in Pensacola. So, I don't know how long I am going to be out there. I had another flat tire the other day. That would be the third tire int he past four days. But instead of me going upt here to deal with Paul's on-going pevertedness, my dad and Dusty went up there. Paul attempted to just fix the tire againa nd my dad told him no, that he was going to put another tire on it, and that he was not going to pay for it. Then Paul attempted to charge him labor fee, but my dad said no, thats free too. Ha, cool. But yeah, I give it anoter week and something else will be wrong with my car. Watch. I think I have bad car karma or something. Ok, well, we are about to leave, so I have to attempt to find matching socks now. Lata.
current mood:  confused
current music: tomorrow- silverchair
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| Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
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I have not been able to update, something was wrong with the server or something. Well. I have been good I suppose. Tonight I go to rehersal. A couple of my friends are meeting me here at my house before we head off. I have been cleaning in the majority of my spare time. i swear, its like every time I get as free moment to smoke a ciggarette or something my mom or dad have found something new for me to do. But I dont really mind. I have gotten into the habit of cleaning here latly, therefore it is not as bothersome as before. Almost making me somewhat compulsive about the way the house looks now. My car sounds like shit. It just keeps getting worse and worse. Ray said it sounds like my breaks are grinding or something. Which they are more than likly. I have been trying to get someone to look at my car for a while now, and attempting to have my mom take it somewhere to get fixed....for like over a month now. But no.....I guess my safty does not seem to be an issue. I really am going to laugh my fucking ass off if my breaks go out on me and I crash. (without hurting anyone else that is).....b/c my parents know what my car sounds like and how freaked out I am driving it sometimes, but they make no effort what-so-ever to help. Kind of one of those...I told you so...now were both kind of fucked type of things. Yes, I would laugh hysterically indeed. Jacob and I are doing good. He is spending the night over at my house on graduation night, which is cool. Mrs. Ozaki said he got me something, but she won't tell me....damn. I did'nt want a grad present. Personally. I find the hole concept of a graduation gift ridiculous. To me that is, I get my diploma, what more should I get? Its all I wanted in the first place. But it is very sweet of him...Anyway. Yeah. I dont really talk to anyone around here much. Mainly b/c they dont talk to me. I straightened things out with Josh though, which is good, he's always been there to talk to. Everyone else on the other hand.....well, no, Tommy called me and told me that what Charlie wrote to me was wrong and he should not have included his name in it, and something about Aaron writing me something, but he has'nt, so I dont know what that was all about. I dunno, whatever. I used to call all of them, but they stopped making an effort, and so did I. Theres really nothing left to say. And no one from Bobby and Sandys call me either. I call to see whats up often, but.....whatever. I am fine with staying at home, chillin to my music, playing the gee-tar and cleaning. It's relaxing. Well, I am also learning how to cook. So I am going to go and start dinner now. bye.
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| Monday, April 19th, 2004
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10:27 pm - Writing is a struggle against silence
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Worship me. Ü
Anyways. Ok, what have I been up to lately. Um...of coarse school and so on and so forth. I started hanging out with Merissa again. Its fun, no matter what I am laughing when I am around her, and quite frankly, I needed that. Um, and then theres my frequent trips to Navarre, hanging out with Jacob. He's so fucking awesome, and well worth the trip. My mom went to 6 Flags with my Aunt Judy and they broke down on their way back to Biloxi. That sucks. But she had alot of fun though, I am very much happy for her. They went on only two rides, the first was decent, a roller coaster. The second made them both very ill, doing cork-screws and going backwards......sounds like their equilibrium was shot to hell to me. But anyway, I am really looking forward to going to Kansas this summer. It sounds fun. And Nick, Dana, and Brian all want to come down here to see me graduate, which I really appreciate, that was cool. It's odd, at first it was only immediate family. Now its Bobby, Sandy, Steven, mom, dad, Dusty, Jacob, Wayde, Nick, Brian, grandma, grandpa, and other people.....too lazy. Just got off of the phone with Jacob. He wants to give me gas money tomorrow so I can go see him after school. He's so great. Ok, I am going to try and get some sleep now. Peace.
I love these lyrics
Sevendust-Licking Cream
Corrupt my hope
In joyous hell
Between the lines
Lick the cream that smells
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eyes
(Crawling down your spine to make you stay)
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eyes
(Covering your eyes to make you stay)
Beyond the high
Lies burning eyes
Crashed down to soil
Fucked up and coiled
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eys
(Crawling down your spine to make you stay)
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eyes
(Covering your eyes to make you pay)
Too Beautiful
You want to fell it
But you can't reveal that
Conceived the meaning
And caress the demon
All thous callous eyes
How they infect your world
So you pretend to reason
But you've lost your soul
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eyes
(Crawling down your spine tomake you stay)
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eyes
(Covering your eyes to make you stay)
You should'nt be so damn beautiful in my eyes
(Crawling down your sping tomake you stay)
I wish you were'nt so beautiful in my eyes
(Covering your eyes to make you pay)
You're too Beautiful
current mood: REALLY FUCKING HAPPY!!!
current music: My Heart Beat
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| Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
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8:23 pm - BORDOM
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Uneventful day. Social, but uneventful. I am going to the beach on Thurday with some friends. We are going to stay the night there. Which seems cool, bringing blankets and sheets in all. I think it would be fun. I ate McDonalds for lunch today. I had the spicy chicken sandwhich, but....it was funny looking. I ate it anyway. And I had taco bell. My dad bought me some on his way back from Ryans. Him and Dusty went to eat there, my mom and I did not want to go. Plus, I had just gotten on the phone with Stephen and I was helping him baby-sit, it was so funny. I payed for Cap n Gown today. We actually get to keep the cap n gown....that's odd. Most schools don't let you keep it, I dont think so anyway. I kind of feel sick to my stomach right now. Bleck......I still may go over to bobby and sandys tonight, got to get school clothes ready though. Yeah.
Mark with an X every statement that you identify with.
Gothic (or goth) is a very obscure and often dangerous culture that young teenagers are prone to participating in. The gothic culture leads young, susceptible minds into an imagined world of evil, darkness, and violence. Please seek immediate attention through counselling, prayer, and parental guidance to rid your child of Satan's temptations if five or more of the following are applicable to your child:
[X]-Frequently wears black clothing.
[X]-Wears band and/or rock t-shirts.
[X]-Wears excessive black eye makeup, lipstick, or nailpolish.
[X]-Wears any odd, silver jewelry or symbols. Some of these include: reversed crosses, pentagrams, pentacles,
ankhs or various other Satanic worshipping symbols.
[X]-Shows an interest in piercings or tattoos.
[X]-Listens to gothic or any other anti-social genres of music.
(Marilyn Manson claims to be the anti-Christ, and publicly speaks against the Lord. Please discard any such albums IMMEDIATELY.)
[X]-Associates with other people that dress, act or speak eccentrically.
[X]-Shows a declining interest in wholesome activities, such as: the Bible, prayer, church or sports.
[X]-Shows an increasing interest in death, vampires, magic, the occult, witchcraft or anything else that involves
Satan.
[x]-Takes drugs.
[X]-Drinks alcohol.
[X]-Is suicidal and/or depressed.(technically)
[X]-Cuts, burns or partakes in any other method of self-mutilation.
(This is a Satanic ritual that uses pain to detract from the light of God and His love. Please seek immediate attention for this at your local mental health center.)
[X]-Complains of boredom.
[X]-Sleeps too excessively or too little.
[X]-Is excessively awake during the night.
[X]-Dislikes sunlight or any other form of light. (This pertains to vampires promoting the idea that His light is of
no use.)
[X]-Demands an unusual amount of privacy.
[X]-Spends large amounts of time alone.
[X]-Requests time alone and quietness. (This is so that your chid may speak to evil sprits through meditation.)
[X]-Insists on spending time with friends while unaccompanied by an adult.
[X]-Disregards authority figures; teachers, priests, nuns and elders are but a few examples of this.
[--]-Misbehaves at school.
[--]-Misbehaves at home.
[X]-Eats excessively or too little.
[X]-Eats goth-related foods. Count Dracula cereal is an example of this.
*note* [ummm... wouldn't that be Count Chocula?!]
[--]-Drinks blood or expresses an interest in drinking blood. (Vampires believe this is how to attain Satan. This
act is very dangerous and should be stopped immediately.)
[X]-Watches cable television or any other corrupted media sources. (Ask your local church for proper programs
that your child may watch.)
[X]-Plays videos games that contains violence or role-playing nature.
[X]-Uses the internet excessively and frequently makes time for the computer.
[X]-Makes Satanic symbols and/or violently shakes head to music.
[--]-Dances to music in a provocative or sexual manner.
[X]-Expresses an interest in sex.
[X]-Masturbates :P
[--]-Is homosexual and/or bisexual.
[X]-Pursues dangerous cult religions. Such include: Satanism, Scientology, Philosophy, Paganism, Wicca,
Hinduism and Buddhism.
[X]-Wears pins, stickers or anything else that contains these various phrases: "I'm so gothic, I'm dead", "woe is
me", "I'm a goth".
[--]-Claims to be a goth.
If five or more of these apply to your child, please intervene immediately. The gothic culture is dangerous and Satan thrives within it. If any of these problems persist, enlist your child into your local mental health center.
~St. Mary's Catholic Church~
current mood:  creative
current music: pretty peice of flesh- NIN
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| Monday, April 5th, 2004
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Today was fun.I went to Navare to pick up Jabob and we went to Navare beach, hung out there all day, it was alot of fun. Came home and ate JinJin after begging mother-dearest to get me some. Then off to Bobby and Sandys I go. We watched Run Down, thats the second time this day. Good movie, I recommend it to some of you. It was pretty late, so I went home. Now I am going to bed.
current mood:  cranky
current music: Swallowed- BUSH (awesome song)
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| Sunday, April 4th, 2004
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Ok, I did have fun at prom. Steven was so...cute with a dash of idiotic...but whats a night out with Steven without the word idiot thrown in there anyway? Just hanging out with Steven, Nikki and Thomas was cool. But.....my feet are fucking killing me, they hurt so damn bad! Girls are fucking insane dude! What chick in her right mind would walk around in those things on an every day basis? Weirdos.... The music completly sucked there, the only good song that I liked was Sweeeeet home alabama, and yeah, that was it. I saw Brain there, a very good friend of mine that I only run into from time to time. It was very good seeing him again. This guy named Josh was suposed to meet his "blind date" that his friends hooked him up with, and she stood him up, thats so mean. I felt so bad for him. I was going to ask him to dance with me, but they started playing those thug bumper songs or whatever they are called. He asked me to take pictures with him, I agree'd. He's sweet. He might go along and tell people that I was his date b/c of the pics, and I would normally protest to that if I found out, but...I think if this case does pop up I will just go along with it. If you saw and knew Josh, you would understand, I know that Steven does. Oh, and La Hacienda was very good, thk-you again Steven for the dinner. The women in there seemed to always compliment me when I had a mouth full of food.......I am sure I seemed lady-like saying thk-you with chewed up taco bit's starring at them in my mouth, but whatever. And Jesus, we have enough pictures to last a life time.....maybe more. Anyway, yes, it was fun, I enjoyed myself very much.....setting aside the head ache, feet torture, dry eyes and bad music.....Ü I dropped Steven off and talked to Bobby and Krissy for a bit. Aaron was there and he needed, no, wanted a ride home. Dropped him off, bought a pack of cig's, and wa-la, here I am. How neat is that? I would have stayed the night at Bobby and Sandys, but I have Stevens guitar performance to go to tomorrow and I had no extra clothes. I did not want to wake up early, go home and change just to go back into pace. Just seemed easier this way. I am going to go and soak my feet in hot water now, then go nigh-nigh. Later dudes.
current mood:  tired
current music: I Stay Away- Alice in Chains
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