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[23 Apr 2003|04:41pm] |
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Lyss and Carina are back!!!!!!! I'm so happy, I missed them. Lyss did bring me back an Eiffel tower like I asked her two - I feel so loved lol. I'm glad shes home, I'm probably going to do something with her Friday maybe go to the movies or something. I was supposed to go shopping and out to dinner with my mother and aunt today, I got all ready, look a shower got dressed brushed my teeth etc, and my mom comes home sayin shes tired and doesnt want to go, after my aunts been looking forward to it. My mom says we can go tomorrow but I don't want to, I have plans! So screw her.. shes such a bitch except to her "love" and no thats not me.
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[20 Apr 2003|11:18pm] |
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Happy Easter! Today was pretty cool, most of my family came and we ate ham and stuff. It was actually fun. Alyssa emailed me from Paris, but I was too late when I emailed her back. Oh well, she sent me a postcard she said! It probably won't get here for another week and by then she'll be back. Frank is going to Florida tomorrow! I asked him if I could go in his suitcase and his dad said he doesn't think so lolz. Oh well!! I got a little scared though, because I said "have fun in florida and come back with a nice tan!" and he said "lol u'll go out with me if i do? jk" but what if he wasnt kidding?! He asked me out a month ago I think (he rode his bike from his house all the way to my house in the rain! I was like OMG, but I only see him as a friend for now, I felt bad and I still do) Anyway.. other then that theres nothing new. Must study for the SATs my moms on my ass about that. God I can't wait until May 3rd, 5pm! SATs will be over and I'll be hanging with Lyss getting ready to go to the NFG, GC, and Less than Jake concert. I can't wait. La dee dah..
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[19 Apr 2003|12:05pm] |
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I just woke up like 5 minutes ago. I had the weirdest dream that I'm not even going to bother try to explain. It seemed so real though, I hate that lol. I took another test last night because I was bored, so yeah here it is.
http://Withinadream.cjb.net
Which So. Cal hardcore band are you?
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I'm kinda bummed out about the whole Laci Peterson thing thats all over the news. It gets me disgusted, I mean her husband was cheating on her while she was pregnant with his child, then he confronts her and I guess she said no to the divorce and he kills her?! He could have just fucking left her but not KILL her. Theres just so many sickos out there that need help..
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[17 Apr 2003|02:01pm] |
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Today is pretty good so far. I just finished watching mtv - about 12 guys doin a high school prank - which was crazy. I finished boiling eggs, now I just have to finish coloring them. I'm coold. I'm still debating whether to go to church with my aunt and Mrs. T. I kinda don' want to ;\ buuuuuuut I don't know I wanna see Mrs. T. One more hour until Nessa comes home - yay. lol well, I don't know what else to say. I can't wait until next friday, Lyss will be home and I'm gonna make her come with me either to the mall or movies. ;P
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[16 Apr 2003|11:34pm] |
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Kev said I should take this survey that was on his journal so me being bored I did, here it is.
[.Basics.]
[1] First Name: jennifer
[2] Middle Name: ann
[3] Last Name: castner
[4] Nick Name[s]: dork; jenn; jc; etc
[5] Gender: girl
[6] Age: 15
[7] Birthday: april third
[12] Race: irish; german; pakistani (believe it or not)
[13] Glasses: yeah but not always.
[14] Contacts: no
[15] Braces: nope, used to.
[16] Hair Short Or Long: kinda short.
[17] U Were Born Where: clara mass, belleville
[18] U Now Live: north arlington
[19] Astrology Sign: aries
[20] Chinese Zodiac Sign: dragon i think.
[22] Bad Habits: cursing; biting nails; etc
[.Family.]
[27] Mothers name: mary
[28] Fathers Name: idk.
[29] Brothers Name[s]:
[30] Sisters Name[s]:
[31] Favorite Aunt: my aunt barb
[32] Favorite Uncle: uncle joe.
[33] Favorite Grandparent: my pop pop
[34] Worst Relative: cousin.
[35] Best Relative: other cousin. lol.
[36] Best Family Memory: i dont know.
[37] Do U Get Along With Your Parents: er
[38] Do Your Parents Understand You: not really.
[39] Does Anyone In Your Family Understand You: at a certain level.
[.School.]
[45] Are You Still In School: yea
[46] Did You Drop Out: no
[47] Current/Supposive Grade: 9
[48] Favorite Grade: 8
[49] Worst Grade: 6th
[50] Favorite Teacher(s): sorno; krista; fusco; tarnacki; fornale
[51] Worst Teacher: mr. c
[52] Favorite Subject: english; music; art
[53] Worst Subject: algebra!!!!
[54] Do/Did U Buy Lunch Or Bring Lunch: buy
[55] School Sports: make fun of jocks and preps DIE
[315] What Do You Think About Flag Burrning: its a free world
[316] What Do You Think Of The War On Terrorists: basturds
[317] What Do You Think About Suicide: depends on the situation.
[321] Where Do You Think You'll Be In 10 Years: no clue
[322] Who Do You Think You'll Still Be Friends With In 5 Years: nessa and lyss
[323] What Do You Think About The Pop Music Scene: *gag*
[324] What Do You Think About The Store Abercrombie &Fitch: for preps.
[325] What Do You Think About Porn: no comment ;P
[.What Did You Do..]
[339]Last Birthday: stayed home with my family and watched movies. (it was a thursday ;x)
[340]Yesterday: played sims lol
[341]Last Weekend: went out to dinner
[345]Halloween: went out with jen b; steve; + everyone.
[.The Last Thing....]
[363] You Ate: ice pop
[364] You Drank: nestea
[365] You Took A Shower: few hours ago
[366] You Wore Out: sweatpants and a t-shirt
[367] The Last Place You Went: cvs
[368] Last Thing You Bought: movies to rent.
[370] Last Person You Saw: aunt
[371] Last Person You Kissed: no1 =)
[.Now.]
[377] So What Are You Eating: nothing
[378] Anything To Drink With That: nestea
[379] Wearin: shorts and tank top
[380] Any Shoes: no
[381] Hair: dry
[382] Listening To Anything: bloody romance - senses fail
[.Yes Or No.]
[385] Are You A Vegitarian: no
[389] Are You A Fast Runner: kiiinda
[392] Are You British: no lol
[394] Did You Ever Give Barbie A Free Haircut &Hairdye Special: hah i dun play wit them
[398] Are You Straight: yes
[402] Are You Short: yea
[403] Do You Own A Hot Pink Shirt: nooo
[404] How About Orange Pants: hah no
[416]Do You Shop At Hot Topic: yup
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[16 Apr 2003|09:22pm] |
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Nothing really to say, Alyssa should be in Paris by now or atleast still on the plane. I'm happy, I downloaded Kazaa so I get to download music now onto my brand new dell - oh so pretty oh so pretty (lol lyssss) I'm so hyper. Tomorrow I'm going to decorate easter eggs for everyone's basket. Fun fun. Well thats all ;P
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[15 Apr 2003|08:56pm] |
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Whoa I'm kinda happy! I dd Alyssa and Kevin's blurty journals (changed their colors and stuff) I think I did a good job. It kinda makes me want to redo mine but I'm too lazy, I had enough of codes for one day. I hope Alyssa likes hers, Kevin said he liked it so I think she'll like hers. ;P and Kev likes his so.. yay lol.
Nessa and I aren't talking, I kinda got pissed off before. Oh wellz.. I've been listening to I'm Real by The Starting Line and I just picture Kevin, Alyssa and I singing it for karaoke. Why? Because a while ago, my school was having a dance that had karaoke, and Alyssa and I didn't want to go but Kevin said if he we he'll sing any song we wanted. I remember I said "I'm Real" and Kevin was like "Good song but it's too fast for me to sing" or something like that (he's right!) and yeah I'm blabbing.. I just think its funny picturing it.
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Today I couldn't have been more lazier. I kinda just sat around the house, waiting Maid in Manhattan and The Sweetest Thing. Freddy wanted me to walk to Newark - Right! It would take me all day plus by myself.. I think not. Alyssa and Carina leave for Paris tomorrow ;[ I'm so bored, I'm gonna go watch Roswell ;oP
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Tomorrow is gonna suck. My mom is off so she'll be staying home annoying the hell out of me. Fun fun. I'm planning on sleeping late all this week, and probably finding things to do.
lolz this is so funny.
SiIentxScreams [12:08 AM]: oh so pretty
Alyoop115 [12:08 AM]: oh so pretty
SiIentxScreams [12:08 AM]: haha
Alyoop115 [12:08 AM]: if i satrt singin that on the plane
Alyoop115 [12:08 AM]: omg
SiIentxScreams [12:08 AM]: hahahaha
SiIentxScreams [12:08 AM]: i can so picture u
SiIentxScreams [12:09 AM]: carina::puts pillow over alyssa's face:: stooop it!
SiIentxScreams [12:09 AM]: alyssa::muffles:: oh so pretty oh so pretty
Alyoop115 [12:09 AM]: LOL!!!! LMAO!!
SiIentxScreams [12:09 AM]: hahahahaha
I wish Lyss wasn't goin to Paris ;\ I'm going to miss her! And I don't get to hang with her during Spring Break. It sucks. Oh well. ;P
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Ahhh SPRING BREAK!!! woo! I'm so happy! I'm going to Warped Tour '03, I'm so excited. The Used are going! It's gonna be awesome. lol I took this test and I got Avril, and it's true.
Avril Lavigne, she's a disgrace to your kind.
What annoying Celebrity would you most likely wanna kill?
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Well, thats it for today ;P Byez.
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[11 Apr 2003|09:02am] |
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lalala.. I'm in spanish class.. (We're in the lab) I'm bored so I decided to update. I'm sitting next to Lirra, she just hurt her finger and it started to bleed. Poor Lirra. Well I gotta go we're gonna go play a game to pass the time.
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44% wOo hOo! Today was okay, I think I did really good on my Science test! I'm so happy. None of my teacher's gave us homework over the spring break. I had to go to the library after school with Lirra for another source for my report, we saw Mr. C in his car listening to reggae.. I wanted to run over to his car but Lirra wouldnt go with me! We're gonna tease him tomorrow =)
I am 44% Geek
You probably work in computers, or a history deptartment at a college. You never really fit in with the "normal" crowd. But you have friends, and this is a good thing.
Take the Geek Test at fuali.com
I found this in my bookbag lolz. This is to Carina's love Jimmy. Awwwz.
Everyday
as I leave you
I try and think of
how I could go on
you are my world
my everything
no one can take you away
the way you
think of me
the way you
walk this way
I can't believe
I found my missing piece
as you kiss me goodnight
I really wanna
stay in your arms
but
everyday
as I leave you
I try and think of
how I could go on
by: carina
Lalala.. until next time ;P
- j e n n.
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[09 Apr 2003|05:44pm] |
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Today was a very good day! (Bad when I came home though because I have to much work to do) I felt so bad for my friend Lyss today. She likes this senior, and he was sitting at the same table as us (their long.. tables) Anyway.. Freddy yells out really loud pointing to the guy "Is that who your talking about Alyssa?" Her face turned so red! He kept doin it though which kinda pissed me off, Alyssa got back and hid behind a wall and I told Freddy to stop alot but he said something like "What she was trying to tell me what one he was" and blah.. It was funny a little though but I got annoyed. Last period was the best though, I had gym so I went to the caf and was talking to Freddy and Kev and I stole Kev's hat and I was walking around with it on. It was great lol I want that hat! Must look for it next time I go to Hot Topic.
I have so0o much homework! Plus a report due Friday that I didn't start. Grrrr. It sucks, I just woke up from a nap which didn't really help! I'm still exhausted. I can't wait until spring break!
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[08 Apr 2003|09:56pm] |
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Hmm. Nothing really to write about. I'm just going to go blab about my boring life so I'm warning you it's very boringFrank's gettin tickets to Warped Tour, I'm excited. I hope Lyss goes! I'll even buy her the ticket (for her birthday which is the next day) Err. She's goin to Paris April 16th (ask for freedom fries!!, kidding) I wish I'm goin - kinda. I don't like flying at all and for eight hours? Idk! Lyss says shes gonna put me in her suitcase, we were talkin about it to Mr. Hunt (science teacher) before class. It was pretty funny.
This is the longest week ever! I want it to be over so I can start my spring break! Blah. Well Carina's happy, Jimmy dumped his girlfriend for her. Lucky. Kev got me the Sly Caps cd, I'm gonna listen to it tomorrow. I'm kinda bumped out, I'm taking the sat's (yeah just for the hell of it) and no one else is! And plus I thought it was gonna be at QP (thats what they told me!!!) but its at KHS. Oh weeeell. I'm so frustrated. I have a English test on Act 1 for Romeo and Juliet and an Art test tomorrow and I didn't study. Then thursday a science test, religion test, and then Friday I have to hand in a Spanish report ;\ school sucks. Yeah well thats basically it. Rah rah..
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Whoa what a crazy day! I felt as if I was never going to get hooome. I had a freshman for a day - today to take around with me to my classes, I felt kinda bad because I didn't know what to talk about with her. She seemed bored in Algebra (I don't blame her!). But in Algebra, Alyssa came to the conclusion that I have a obsessive compulsive and psychotic disorder. It was funny. Yup yup. West Civ was okay, didn't do much. Science sucked lol. Religion was kewl I guess. I got five bucks from Joe for my birthday lol and Freddy gave me his present after school - it was a budweiser shirt, actually pretty nice! He also got me two comic books of the Punisher. My mom laughed when she saw the shirt =)
Jack and me are okay now, we're talking. Everything is back to normal -- atleast most of it. I can't wait until May 3rd! Less than Jake, Good Charlotte, and New Found Glory concert. Ahh. Lyss and I are goin its gonna be great! Lyndz and Suzy are goin so we'll probably see them there including Antny and his friends. Bad part of that day is the SATs are in the morning/afternoon that I'm taking for the hell of it. Well, pizza should be here soon so I'm gonna go watch Remember the Titans with my mom and aunt.
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Today was a good day overall. Mostly everyone remembered it was my birthday so I was really happy! I got ten balloons that were tied on my locker (it was crrrrrrazy lol) I couldn't open my locker because of the balloons plus the cards on my locker.. so I had to borrow my friend's books. I love Alyssa's card she got me (it was payback for the Christmas card I have her with a guy in boxers and a santa hat haha). English was okay - we're reading Romeo and Juliet! Spanish was fun, we did nothing but play Simon says in Spanish (we all lost erf) then we played charades and the girls won!! So we don't have any homework next week woo hoo. Next friday will start my spring break (16 days!) I can't wait.
Lala.. Art was okay.. and gym was okay because I didn't do anything. Then we went to church and I sat there talkin to Karen most of the time. Then hanged out a little after school for my aunt to pick me up. Went to CVS and got my mom her birthday present (Tomorrow's her birthday along with Lyndsie's Wee!) Then I went out to dinner.. came home.. opened presents.. and yeah. Mainly it. Felt so loved today lol. Yeah well I have nothing else really to write about. I know my life is very boring.
Should've done something, but I've done it enough.
By the way, your hands were shaking.
Rather waste some time with you.
Should've said something, but I've said it enough.
By the way, my words were faded.
Rather waste some time with you.
Life isn't fair.. and it sucks. I hate change, I wish things would stay the way they were. I wish that all stories, people lived happily ever after. And I wish I wasn't here in New Jersey. =x Oh well!
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hmm.. I'm bored! I haven't really wrote anything in here - I need a nice layout!!! Oh well, I'm sitting here next to Freddy who's doing his homework that was due monday (he was absent then never did it) yeah.. so I skipped lunch and sent a email to Vanessa. Today is pretty good, I think I passed my Algebra test.. later this guy is coming to talk to us so our classes are shortened. I'm kinda excited - > tomorrow's my birthday. Life is pretty good for a change. I got my report card Monday.. 5 A's, 1 B, and 1 C (Algebra lolz) Umm yeah nothing else really to say. I have a boring life =) ya.. kay laterz.
If your wondering about my entry below, its a poem by Carina. I asked her to write a poem for me after telling her about my uh situation which I'm over now.. yeah Carina rules!
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Forgive me for loving you.
I just can't let go.
Forgive me for crying.
My heart's filled with woe.
Forgive me for dreaming,
I see you each night.
Forgive me for hanging on,
To a dream out of sight.
Forgive me for caring.
I care more every day.
Forgive me for wondering,
If there will ever be a way.
Forgive me for thinking of you.
These thoughts fill my mind.
Please forgive me for loving you.
You were so hard to find.
I try not to love you,
But end up loving you more.
I try not to cry,
But these tears start to pour.
I try not to dream,
But when I sleep, you appear.
I try not to hang on,
But the dream is still here.
I try not to care,
But how could I not?
I try not to wonder,
But I'm weaker than I thought.
I try not to think of you,
But these thoughts won't depart.
Yes, I try not to love you,
But you're embedded in my heart.
You see, it's not easy,
As I continue to try.
So please forgive me for loving you,
Until the day I die.
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