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2004.05.09 14.41 god damn it? anyway, this is the longest time that i have not written anything here. feel like plain sian. there is like nothing better to do. no mood to study no mood to do anything. dun wan to bathe or anything though i feel so hot and sticky. the pt of a blog is not to let anyone see it rtight? then why are so many lame people doing so? no privacy. singapore is like this giant ball of fire that engulfs the whole world. what nonsensical reasoning is that? life should not be this way.... project work really sucks to the core. when people are soooooo uncoperative and canot like you know do stuff properly and an added idiotic thing is when you have a certain sucky teacher which has like no sense or anything at all. hello...like what the hell....my project work in secondary school was always highly commended and now you tell me i am not specific enough???? like i took fnN which is so freaking specific. sick of jc like. seriously. no life anymore. anyways looking forward till the end of the week. dun even noe if i will pass or anything. god. gif me a life and a break pls. |
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2004.05.09 14.41 god damn it? anyway, this is the longest time that i have not written anything here. feel like plain sian. there is like nothing better to do. no mood to study no mood to do anything. dun wan to bathe or anything though i feel so hot and sticky. the pt of a blog is not to let anyone see it rtight? then why are so many lame people doing so? no privacy. singapore is like this giant ball of fire that engulfs the whole world. what nonsensical reasoning is that? life should not be this way.... project work really sucks to the core. when people are soooooo uncoperative and canot like you know do stuff properly and an added idiotic thing is when you have a certain sucky teacher which has like no sense or anything at all. hello...like what the hell....my project work in secondary school was always highly commended and now you tell me i am not specific enough???? like i took fnN which is so freaking specific. sick of jc like. seriously. no life anymore. anyways looking forward till the end of the week. dun even noe if i will pass or anything. god. gif me a life and a break pls. Mood:  crushed
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2004.05.09 14.41 god damn it? anyway, this is the longest time that i have not written anything here. feel like plain sian. there is like nothing better to do. no mood to study no mood to do anything. dun wan to bathe or anything though i feel so hot and sticky. the pt of a blog is not to let anyone see it rtight? then why are so many lame people doing so? no privacy. singapore is like this giant ball of fire that engulfs the whole world. what nonsensical reasoning is that? life should not be this way.... project work really sucks to the core. when people are soooooo uncoperative and canot like you know do stuff properly and an added idiotic thing is when you have a certain sucky teacher which has like no sense or anything at all. hello...like what the hell....my project work in secondary school was always highly commended and now you tell me i am not specific enough???? like i took fnN which is so freaking specific. sick of jc like. seriously. no life anymore. anyways looking forward till the end of the week. dun even noe if i will pass or anything. god. gif me a life and a break pls. Mood: crushed
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2004.05.09 14.41 god damn it? anyway, this is the longest time that i have not written anything here. feel like plain sian. there is like nothing better to do. no mood to study no mood to do anything. dun wan to bathe or anything though i feel so hot and sticky. the pt of a blog is not to let anyone see it rtight? then why are so many lame people doing so? no privacy. singapore is like this giant ball of fire that engulfs the whole world. what nonsensical reasoning is that? life should not be this way.... project work really sucks to the core. when people are soooooo uncoperative and canot like you know do stuff properly and an added idiotic thing is when you have a certain sucky teacher which has like no sense or anything at all. hello...like what the hell....my project work in secondary school was always highly commended and now you tell me i am not specific enough???? like i took fnN which is so freaking specific. sick of jc like. seriously. no life anymore. anyways looking forward till the end of the week. dun even noe if i will pass or anything. god. gif me a life and a break pls. Mood:  depressed
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2004.05.01 01.28 A long time it has been quite a well since i have written here ain' t it not. now at meridian junior college for real and i cannot do anything about bout it . alone all by myself. ahiz. |
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2003.12.03 16.18 full of thoughts ok...now here we go then....yesterday i watched this taiwanese show called i guess i guess i guess guess guess. well, they have a segment that was on the most girly boy. i found it kinda disgusting. the guys openly acted like girls and were so girly it actually freaked me out. realli scary too they were even more girly then me. hyuk hyuk. even some of their voices actually sounded like girls. no offence to gays and lesbians but their behaviour really put me off, they were like really gross not because they were gay but because they acted cute so that was the nauseating thing about it all. it started me thinking whether people are made that way by god or is it because of the situations that they were brought up in that caused such a change in them. maybe they are just special people? they probably have a really hard time facing up to society and people. must be really tough on them. but then again...i do not advocate homosexuality because although they are made like that, i cannot really accept such behaviour. yes. i know it is the 21st century and everything but well....let's just say i am more conservative. today...well....i drawed a horse...well part of it anyway...i dont know why some ppl feel that drawing is very hard. i find it very liberating instead and it calms me down. makes me feel some sense of achievement and pride at myself...so there....i talked to my friend danielle yesterday...she said she was kinda shocked by my blurty so well...i don't know.,...she said she smoked....realli shocking realli...maybe she is just kidding or something. but i still cannot stand smoking,....in short it stinks both literally and non-literally... kind of frustrated today...had a hard time finding lyrics for a song of miriam yeung yang qian hua....some xing xian ren theme....could not find it still after so long...if anyone has it please tell me...thanks...:p finally finished the insaqurium game after so long...felt a little dizzty after that.........looked out of the window and stuff...felt much better,,,,btw............ www.mofunzone.com is a great site for games realli fun too.... oh yeah....dyed my hair...........realli regret that....arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is some weird red to brown colour....does not really suit me and made my hair really dry........... hope the dye is lousy and will come off soon i need at least one more month before i can dye it back to black....after this......i swear no more hair dyeing for me! now, that's a promise! cheerios... Mood:  drainedMusic: tension |
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2003.11.28 22.45 pissed off right now....i am so pissed off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my parents are becoming increasingly overbearing and irritating. hello...like come on...why the hell can't i dye my hair...i am already like 16... where are my personal rights...it is so god dammed irritating. what happened to freedom of action. this is no longer the 16th century or whatever ancient era they are in! do they have a brain...i am seriously beginning to doubt that. come on... its my choice to do multiple piercings or shave my head bald or whatever crazy things i want to do because it is my life and i have absolutely every right to make a decision of my own without anyone interferring in my business. whatever happened to freedom and rights. this is no longer the ice age u noe... i am no longer some puny kid of the past that takes watever their parents throw at them. i have a brain of my own and have my own way of thinking. they had better realise that i am not some 3 year old kid waiting for salvation of some kind. god forbid that! enuff about unhappy stuff. now i shall talk about stuff that made me happy today. well today i went out with my primary school friend that i have known since pri 1 which adds up to ten years, made me realise that i was growing up too fast and perhaps was losing the childhood that i hope for and had had. singapore's education system is really stressful; u do not even have enough time to be yourself and be creative. it reminds me of lin jun jie's song about the education system in singapore about how he was so sick and tired off studying and memorising boring old texts. it also started me thinking that change is to be about to befall me too. that thought makes me feel a little scared. it takes time to get used to new environments and stuff like that. i feel like i will be losing a part of my life which i have already become so used too. it is really sad and i hate to part with people that i have become very close too...but oh well life is just like that and one has to take it as it comes unfortunately and sadly. i saw ziqian and zhiwei and gang today. really was kind of a surprise to me. i did not expect to see anyone i know around anywhere. so there quite shocking. this has been my longest entry yet and i hope that more will be to come from me. i feel so much better after venting it all out. i feel relieved. cheerios... Mood:  enragedMusic: nuthing |
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2003.11.26 18.27 6.27pm right now i am kinda chilling out by listening to yes 93.3 fm....made my choices of jc today although one choice that was wrong, it does not really matter considering it is my ninth choice. today i finally released the importance of water. the weather was so humid today that i am almost died of sun stroke. really....no kidding...after sipping the first drops of crystal clear liquid i felt pure jubilation. ah...the importance of water in our lifes. i have found out that it is virtually impossible for me to ever become a tution teacher. my patience and tolerance level with incorrigible students is bordering on zero. i really envy the teachers that can slog their guts out for students that do not even appreciate their efforts. oh well..... anywhere i think my seventeen virtual boyfriend must have dumped me by now....hyuk hyuk...lame yeah i know....i wish they will show more decent programs on tv...i am really sick with the lack of originality by tv executives...the shows are becoming more and more lacklustre....starting to think about my o level grades....well just hope i will do well....just found out that online journals are really an interesting way of storing my thoughts... cheerios... Mood:  cranky
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2003.11.25 21.22 9.22 well....its me again... now i am finding more information on the junior colleges that i can go too so perhaps i will get a clearer perspective...its always hard to start going to a new school and everything you know...i am just hoping for the best and praying to god to give me good results....just hope that i did well...think i will probably be going to meridian jc for the first three months....poly just ain't my kind of thing. sometimes is just unpredictable. i was just wondering today when will gather the courage to tell someone i like him....i don't think its possible for me.... i will be too scared of rejection....while rejecting people was always easy...its different right now.... i mean i am in like a different light or something... i wonder if a person can tell if you like him if you are not very obvious....the chinese show i was watching has finished....now have to really dedicate my time to finding out more about the junior colleges if not i might regret it in the future....something i really hate... oh...well...life is really unpredictable....my quote for today will be no smoking...hyuk hyuk smoking is really bad for the health and i really cannot figure out why anyone in their right mind will smoke cus it not only harms people they love but strangers too....i wonder if they would like to die with that on their accounts... oh well....toodles den... |
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2003.11.25 15.55 My inner child is sixteen years old!
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2003.11.25 15.50 my personality You are an individual,go you! You think for yourself and don't need to wear tight shirts and short skirts to get the attention you want.You are somewhat depressed but try not to let people know.That where the cutting comes in.You're not one of thoes people who need to be labeled and you dont have a group.You're just you.By the way,please vote for my quiz! What clique do you belong in? brought to you by Quizilla |
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2003.11.25 15.48 me again  you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You adorable, but a little out there. It's alright, you might not have it all, but there are worse which happy bunny are you? brought to you by Quizilla |
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2003.11.25 15.46 me  You are Orange. You are outgoing and optomistic. You always try to find the bright spot in everything. You are energetic and people are naturally attracted to you. However, you are not always sure of what your purpose or goals are. Most Compatible With: Fresh Mint Which Tic-Tac Flavor Are You? brought to you by Quizilla |
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2003.11.25 15.28 today just starting a new journal today.... needed a way to express my feelings and stuff like that... so basically today i spent my time looking at the various junior colleges that i wanted to go to... i am really in a dilemma right now... i mean it is hard to make decisions that could very well change your entire life... it started me thinking about my future and what i would be...i hope that whatever choice i make of what junior college to go to will be the right decision...although i really would love to go to victoria junior college, my current L1r5 do not allow me to...:(....i wish for the best for my future...really am deep in thought |
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