Sigma1007

10:28pm: My eyes glaze over
Like I've been hit by a bulldozer
Never saw this one coming
I begin humming
To mask my disbelief

2:37am: Insomnia
My mind churns a mile a minute
As the time seems infinite
I get up and fix a glass of water
Only to be disturbed further, by the crying of my daughter.






yes, I'm back, at least every now and then I'll try to post something.

3:38pm: So long, farewell...
I've decided that having 2 "journals" is too much stuff to keep up with. Therefore, I have decided that from now on, I will be only a one journal girl. You can find me at www.livejournal.com/users/grassals

I have enjoyed my time here at blurty, but since the addition of Katie to our family, it's been a little hectic. Besides most of my other friends have journals on Live Journal as well, so it's just a bit easier to stick with that one. Call it laziness if you wish, I don't really care.

As we said back in my OHS days- Holla yo!

10:46am: An oldie but goodie
In My Daughter's Eyes
------Martina McBride


In my daughter's eyes I am a hero
I am strong and wise and I know no fear
But the truth is plain to see
She was sent to rescue me
I see who I wanna be
In my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes everyone is equal
Darkness turns to light and the
world is at peace
This miracle God gave to me gives me
strength when I am weak
I find reason to believe
In my daughter's eyes

And when she wraps her hand
around my finger
Oh it puts a smile in my heart
Everything becomes a little clearer
I realize what life is all about

It's hangin' on when your heart
has had enough
It's giving more when you feel like giving up
I've seen the light
It's in my daughter's eyes

In my daughter's eyes I can see the future
A reflection of who I am and what will be
Though she'll grow and someday leave
Maybe raise a family
When I'm gone I hope you see how happy
she made me
For I'll be there
In my daughter's eyes

3:35pm: pictures...
Woot for new pics on buzznet!

7:07pm: Nifty little quiz
http://beliefnet.com/story/76/story_7665_1.html

Here are my results:

1. Unitarian Universalism (100%)
2. Liberal Quakers (98%)
3. Reform Judaism (96%)
4. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (87%)
5. Bahá'í Faith (86%)
6. Neo-Pagan (85%)
7. New Age (74%)
8. Sikhism (72%)
9. Mahayana Buddhism (66%)
10. Secular Humanism (66%)
11. Orthodox Judaism (65%)
12. New Thought (63%)
13. Islam (60%)
14. Scientology (58%)
15. Theravada Buddhism (56%)
16. Jainism (55%)
17. Taoism (52%)
18. Orthodox Quaker (48%)
19. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (45%)
20. Hinduism (43%)
21. Nontheist (43%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (36%)
23. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (35%)
24. Seventh Day Adventist (24%)
25. Eastern Orthodox (23%)
26. Roman Catholic (23%)
27. Jehovah's Witness (15%)

7:14pm: Hi dad!
Everyone, wave hi to my dad. He found my blurty page!

11:00pm: A quiz! You know you wanna!
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

12:36am: the sunrise
In the ever popular website The Book of Shenry, there was a "shenright" posting that said "This weekend catch the daily splendor that is sunrise..." I, inspired by this post, left a comment to Shenry stating that I would indeed participate in this exercise. I was counting on Katie to wake me up for this thrilling event because she usually wakes up around 5:00 or so every morning. Unfortunately, or fortunately, depending on how you look at it, this weekend, she decided to "sleep in" until 7:00. Thusly, I did not get to participate. However, I am sure that my beloved daughter will be back to her normal waking time this week at some point and I will be able to catch the sunrise.

2:47pm: Feeble attempt
Jingle
Jangle
Cling
Clangle
All the noise a rich bitch can mangle
So afraid of yourself
You obviously need professional help
The life you lead is such a joke
Each night you sleep with a lump in your throat

10:24pm: Shallow breaths
Eyes shut slightly
fluttering lashes
Mouth open
lightly breathing
Hands above her head
she sleeps peacefully

9:44am: "Stupid is as stupid does"
As I was backing out of the driveway this morning I heard a loud crunch.

















I backed our beautiful Mazda 6 into our Chevy Blazer. DAMNIT!

Thankfully no damage was done to the Blazer, but the Mazda's bumper is smushed in on one side. Say bye bye to the refund check, Robynn...

9:44am: "Stupid is as stupid does"
As I was backing out of the driveway this morning I heard a loud crunch.

















I backed our beautiful Mazda 6 into our Chevy Blazer. DAMNIT!

Thankfully no damage was done to the Blazer, but the Mazda's bumper is smushed in on one side. Say bye bye to the refund check, Robynn...

6:53pm: Hewo
Wow, been awhile.

I thought this song might sum up how I'm feeling right now. Enjoy!

Ima Robot
Song #1

Squeeze
Like it, like it's a disease
Keep your pants on
Keep your knowledge burnin'

Something takes
And something holds
And something breaks
The fucking mold!

Kids, now listen
Burning burning burning
Down the back lawns
Hey you, come on kids
Don't let yourself
Feel safe now

Something takes
And something holds
And something breaks
The fucking mold
Never trust
Who wants control
It's time to break
Breakin' out of the doldrums
We're soldiers
We want to break free, break free!
Bust out of the rules
Fuck the rules, yea!
Who's gonna make me, make me!?
Breakin' out of the doldrums
We're soldiers
We want to break free, break free!
Bust out of the rules
Fuck the rules, yea!
Who's gonna make me, make me!
Make me, make me!

Freeze is a disease
Yea come on, sorry, it's 1 2 now
So just fuck 'em up
'Cause you're a brilliant star
Yea, just pump 'em up
You know who you are

Something takes
And something holds
And something breaks
The fucking mold
Never trust
Who wants control
It's time to break break break break free

Breakin' out of the doldrums
We're soldiers
We want to break free, break free!
Bust out of the rules
Fuck the rules yea!
Who's gonna make me, make me!
Breakin' out of the doldrums
We're soldiers
We want to break free, break free!
Bust out of the rules
Fuck the rules yea!
Who's gonna make me, make me!
Make me, make me

7:44pm: The Vagina Monologues
I'm taking my mom to see "the Vagina Monologues" for her Valentine's/Anniversary gift. My parent's will have been married for 28 years on February 11th. wow....

8:48am: Very interesting...
This is mainly an article for the pregnant people, but if you're interested in learning about the differences between c-sections and vaginal births after a c-section (VBAC) go right ahead and read it too.

http://slate.msn.com/id/2111499/?GT1=6065

What do you guys think? When I went for my 6 week check up the dr. informed me that it would "be best" if I had c-sections with any subsequent children. Her reasoning is because I have "such a small pelvic area".

7:02pm: A break
Tonight, Katie is staying the night with her Nana Kay and Grand-daddy (Danny's parents). Hrmmm...what to do, what to do.......Happy New Year, y'all!

7:19pm: For those who know...
CDs should be mailed out soon!

I have to go back to work part-time on Monday. BAH! The cool thing is, Dr. Jahan said I could bring Katie to work with me. My boss ROCKS!!!!

4:04am: Sleep? Who needs it!
yeah...

3:09am: damn buzznet!
Is anyone else having issues viewing pics on Buzznet? I can view Mel's but I can't view my own, what a pain!

11:11am: A couple of days ago a reporter from the Commercial Appeal came to talk to me. Well, the story is in today (Sunday's) paper. The Commercial Appeal makes you log in your information to read a story, but after that it should let you view any of the stories all the time. Go to www.gomemphis.com if you're interested. The title of the article is "Room to Stretch Out" and it's located in the business section.

Geez, at 3 weeks old Katie is already a celebrity!

6:54pm: *sings* "I, I feel so alive..."
Hello party people! Here's a brief rundown of what's been happening:

My water broke on Oct. 15th around 7:30pm, so Danny and I headed to the hospital. Yeah, that whole trickle thing, not happening for me, it was a GUSH! No contractions and I wasn't dilated any so they started me on pitocin (a drug that starts contractions). Around 2;30am I got my epidural and all was right with the world. Well, at least until about 8:45am when my doctor came in and told me that I'd stalled out at 5 centimeters (I'd been that way for about 3 1/2 hours), so she recommended that I have a c-section. At 9:19am on October 16th, Katherine Jewell Hopkins was born. She is now almost 2 weeks old and is quite chunky, which is adorable! You can go to sigma1007.buzznet.com/user for pics

Recovery has been going well. It sucks not being able to drive for 2 weeks and I can't exercise for 6 weeks! I need to help Katie realize that night time is for sleeping, and day time is for being awake. It'll help once we can get a somewhat routine down for bedtime. I am nursing which has helped my tummy go down tremendously, not to mention the wonderful bond that I feel with her.

In other news, Danny and I FINALLY think we've sold the Angel Crest house! Can I get an AMEN!! We actually sold it for more than what we were asking; can I get another AMEN!! Hopefully, if everything works out, we will not be paying November's house payment. WOOT!!!!!

11:41am: still waiting for the little one to arrive....she's not due until the 24th but I'm just to that point where it's like ENOUGH already!

10:30pm: The "show"
This is a pregnancy related post so if you don't want to read about it, I'd suggest you stop reading now.


Went to the doctor for my weekly check-up today. She again, informed me that I had not dilated any but that the baby is in the head down position. I was a little disappointed that nothing has been happening because the braxton-hicks contractions I've been having were getting a little more frequent.

After I got home and rested I had to use the restroom and saw my "show" or the dislodgment of my mucus plug (basically it's one of the first early signs of your body getting ready to go into labor). I'm sure the internal exam I had to day had something to do with it. But, I'm very excited because this means that I could go into labor soon;it still could be a couple of weeks away but at least I know SOMETHING is happening.

I'll keep you guys posted as best I can!

8:42am: Hmmmm...Chocolate!
One of the graduate assistants got to attend a conference in Belgium, and he brought me back CHOCOLATES! Not just a few little pieces, but a box full. Yes, Robynn is VERY happy right now!

In other news, the doctor has recommended that I go ahead and take my maternity leave a little earlier than I'd originally planned. That's cool though, I've already run it past Dr. Jahan and he's fine with it as long as I can come in for at least a couple of hours (during high student/faculty traffic time) for office coverage. The rest of the time I can work from home.