conversation my n isabella... there mayb e more continued
A Izz 4 ApPLE: wow, i think i just wrote the best answer to the question whats ure fav band.. :
A Izz 4 ApPLE: the best answer ever
sick munkey789: 8....
sick munkey789: i cant have a favorite band
A Izz 4 ApPLE: ask me the answer tony
sick munkey789: for all music has become nothing butmindless and mediocre and wasted talent
sick munkey789: wasted on their spndings of oney and /or there drug abuse which cuased them death
A Izz 4 ApPLE: wtf?!
A Izz 4 ApPLE: not all music
sick munkey789: jus the majority
sick munkey789: and my "favoirite" bands
A Izz 4 ApPLE: and ure gonna get ur ass kicked by someone who loves you very dearly so relax
A Izz 4 ApPLE: lol
sick munkey789: well
sick munkey789: im glad to hear that
sick munkey789: cuz
sick munkey789: if id known id b like this 4 yrs ago
sick munkey789: id kick myown ass
A Izz 4 ApPLE: not only that but you cant judge the music on the actions of the musicians, b/c just b/c they fuck up and are the idiots that get themselves killed, as they tend to be, the music that comes out of them so emotionally, so passionatly, so strong is still music, and is at most time some of the best ever heard
sick munkey789: but many and the majoirty of the times
sick munkey789: these "emotions" are nothing
sick munkey789: theyre nothing but scracth written down by record companies n labels
A Izz 4 ApPLE: how could you say something like that? i truely thought you were one of the few that could appreciate and realize that its not the majority of the music that are controlled by the record companies, its the majority of the "popular" music which is in no way close to what the best truely is; think aobut the feeling, the meaning you put into a song, the way you feel when you pick up that guitar and play something so dear to you you can feel it surging through ure veins, now imagine someone saying its all fabricated by the companies just because alot of todays society is..... not true and luckily in the music industry alot of bands have taken control
sick munkey789: ur right
sick munkey789: but i have..
sick munkey789: if ud call it faith.. ive lost faith..
sick munkey789: for whenevr i feel such strong emotion
sick munkey789: immediately its killed by my brother yleling at me to stop or thr rents telling me to go to bed
sick munkey789: my power.. my emotions.. have all died...
sick munkey789: and my writings
sick munkey789: are all fake
sick munkey789: for i hae no real emotions
A Izz 4 ApPLE: dont ever say that, its never true you are one of the only people i know has true emotions, what ure expressing right no, that loss of faith just shows ure emotion for which you felt so strongly and everything is taken from you, without emotion u woudnt care but i know you do
A Izz 4 ApPLE: dont ever lose faith tony, once you do that nothing is worth anything, you should always have ure faith to be able to shove it in their faces one day when you acoomplish ure dreams
sick munkey789: but my dreams have died
sick munkey789: from all thr truth thats been shoved in my face
A Izz 4 ApPLE: such as?
sick munkey789: evrybody .. in their own little world expects so much out of me..
sick munkey789: and i give it to them.. and weaken myself
sick munkey789: then i losefocus
sick munkey789: on evrything school.. musuic. frends
sick munkey789: and now...
sick munkey789: loook atme
sick munkey789: i cant rememeber the last time ive lisetneed to slipknot
A Izz 4 ApPLE: the only expectations you should ever live up to are your own, you are the only one who can ever make ureself happy or better; and what alot of us see as "the truth" is nothing but bullshit thats getting us down at the time which is why no matter what others may say, no matter what you may think is obviously the truth, if its got something negative to do with ure faith for something you love, somethign pure and good, then its wrong
sick munkey789: yes
sick munkey789: but...
sick munkey789: ::sigh::
sick munkey789: i hae nothing
sick munkey789: im jus weak,....
A Izz 4 ApPLE: you have alot, you have ure talent, you have ure beliefs wich i know you value no matte how weak you may think you are, you have your intelligence which i am every day astonished at i can never comprehend how someone so young could be so knowligable (cant even spell that, you have me i will always be here, and you have ureself, which you should value above everything else, you are so much , smarter, better than anyone i have ever met you just need to open ure eyes and realize it
sick munkey789: i have
sick munkey789: and as soon as i open them
sick munkey789: theyre stapled shut by my brother
sick munkey789: whom
sick munkey789: i love more then almost anything
sick munkey789: if only hed kno this
sick munkey789: and if he understood hwo much his opnion mans to me..
sick munkey789: ::sigh:: i kno sum1how this will get to him now
ick munkey789: but le my bro
A Izz 4 ApPLE: .... lost me there
sick munkey789: .... i get all this inspiration.. like id c john frciante (from RHCP) ontv or w.e and id start playing.. andhed tell me to shut up.. it fucikgn brings me to tears and it hurts so much mor coming from him... cuz he jus doesnt understand my passion.. and how i realy feel.. i want him to kno.. that i dont suck.. i want him to respect me.. but with all of this
sick munkey789: he'll nevr respect me
Izz 4 ApPLE: but see thats what im saying talk to him, if ud just let him know this without crying just tell it to him
A Izz 4 ApPLE: then maybe it wouldnt be so bad
sick munkey789: i cant eanymore
sick munkey789: ive tried so hard not to cry
sick munkey789: but i..
sick munkey789: ..just cant
A Izz 4 ApPLE: i wish i could help ya ther... but i cant... i gtg to bed the "rentals" screamin lol
A Izz 4 ApPLE: oooooooooo my answer that i wanted to show you like an hour ago
A Izz 4 ApPLE: dont have one, like too many to chose; music is my life, all music i would die without it, its my escape, my sanctuary, you cant pick one spot out of paradise.. it wouldnt be paradise you need it entirely, thats how i am with music
A Izz 4 ApPLE: ok yea thats it talk to you tomorrow punkin
A Izz 4 ApPLE: night night
sick munkey789: lol
sick munkey789: love u
sick munkey789: night mi bella
A Izz 4 ApPLE: love you
A Izz 4 ApPLE signed off at 11:55:16 PM.
Current Music: The sounds of my sister crying