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Tuesday, January 6th, 2004

Subject:oh please.
Time:10:54 am.
Mood:sick.
Music:war all the time- thursday.
leave her alone.
shes just a child
she was a kid
her heart went wild
talk about me
behind my back
out of the pits
on to the track
i'll race you for him
but this i know
i'll never win
might as well stop on go.
oh please just tell me.
when do i get mine
you've won him already
you had me at the line.
oh please oh please.
let me go
if you dont
i'll never know
how does it feel
not to care
i'll never know
im always there.
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Thursday, December 11th, 2003

Subject:just kill her.
Time:4:30 pm.
Mood:dark.
Music:drain the blood- the distillers.
as we fall, so far apart,
i never thought of you this way,
i should've known from the start
i couldn't have you anyway
there was this girl,
i think she died
she always smiled
never cried
they said it was suicide
but i thought it wasn't true
this girl who never cried
but was always blue
please just fake a happy face
not for you, for me
until you get away from this place
if they could only see
it happens every time
and what do i have to show?
if you ask to see my heart
all i can say is no.
they asked her "what's the matter"
she just hung her head
and finally one day she sighed
"don't cry im already dead"
thats the story of the girl that died
but this girl she never cried
her smile was fake, her eyes wide
although, she was so dead inside
when i am asked why
i think she died
i do not say "suicide"
i say i know she died
from all the tears she never cried.
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Wednesday, August 20th, 2003

Subject:i think
Time:11:29 pm.
Mood:creative.
Music:My Best Friends Mom- Weak At Best.
i think you are
not thinking at all
but not so far
have i taken the fall
so let me know
if i have done
what i was sent for
and it will come
the one last time
i let you in
again yet more
it shall begin
like always before
i want to know
how you have done
and for you to think
your the only one
just to think
of loving you
makes me sick
you know i do
i think i know
but i don't at all
see i don't think
i don't think
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Friday, July 25th, 2003

Subject:now.
Time:11:50 pm.
Mood:sullen.
Music:dying To Die- Short Story ( how appropriate).
now i hate you
thats everyone now,
thanks alot,
i 'll never know how
i wish i could die
fade away
i wish it so much
almost every day
suicide is not the answer
but im doing it anyway
you cant stop me
i'm going to go away,
fuck this shit about life and death
to me its all a game
and the worst part,
is life its so lame
i just want to go away,
away from you all now,
i just want to kill myself,
but im not sure how.
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Thursday, July 24th, 2003

Subject:there you are --for aaron
Time:10:53 pm.
Mood:loved.
Music:dig up her bones-the misfits.
there you are,
there you'll be,
vicious stare,
look back at me,
i hate your eyes,
they make me shiver,
your soul alone,
makes me quiver,
i wish you could,
know how i feel,
but i don't even know,
if this is real,
how can you know,
something so sure,
they say it hurts,
it is so bad,
it only gets worse,
the more you've had,
i want oyu to see,
what i do,
wehen i look at me,
and you too,
just kiss me once,
to feel it for the last time,
i want it so bad,
i just want you for mine,
let me feel it one last time,
like a roller coaster ride,
it will fullfill my lifebefore i go,
it'll be with me, forever i'll know
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Tuesday, July 15th, 2003

Subject:daddy
Time:8:53 pm.
Mood:dead.
Music:Keroscene-Resistance.
you are my father,
the creator of my soul,
you also are my enemy,
the digger of my hole,
i just want to ask,
why here daddy why,
and i want you to know,
that it's you who makes me cry,
i wish that i was dead right now,
but that shouldn't bother you,
i'm sure that if i was gone,
you'd be happy too,
i want to tell you now,
that it cant get much worse,
that i hide all the time,
when you scream and curse,
you call me awful names,
and i know you think its right,
i don't want to play your games,
dad, i don't want to fight,
please just let me go away,
you said yourself that i should go,
but it'll never come that day,
i wish it would though,
i have to write it here,
on the computer screen,
so that it by you,
is secret and unseen,
i can't say what i want to
but if i could i would,
i would say dad, fuck you
and i would say it good.
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Friday, July 4th, 2003

Subject:Adeiu
Time:7:45 pm.
Mood:distant.
Music:If You Go Away- Emiliana Torrinni.
i'll say goodbye,
bid you adeiu
but all i want,
is to stay with you,
here we are,
caught again,
i just want,
to go back then,
when our love was new,
and our hearts were here,
but me nor you,
can really hear,
all that is,
anything love,
anything sent ,
from above,
nothing comes,
from the sky,
you have the nerve,
to wonder why,
it went wrong,
you dont know,
hopefully,
you can grow,
and realize,
you were never here,
not even close,
or anywhere near.
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Friday, June 27th, 2003

Subject:loud is-proud
Time:10:03 pm.
Mood:confused.
Music:Big Yellow Taxi- Counting Crows.
i am here,
no not me,
here i go,
just wait you'll see,
i am so here,
but gone away,
nothing to know,
nowhere to stay,
still not here,
i am unstill.
i live in exile,
out of free will,
im tired of being,
sick and tired,
and tired of seeing,
everyhitng wired,
people and children,
so unsuspecting,
just to kill them,
no ressurecting,
i am not away,
but gone i am,
i will stay for ever,
im sorry i ran.
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Wednesday, June 25th, 2003

Subject:tolove-tolive
Time:10:45 pm.
Mood:inspired.
Music:Mad World- Gary Jules.
they say to love is to live,
but i know,
you took all i could give,
but still i can't go,
the way that i feel,
when you kiss my lips,
the speed i cannot heal,
it's like losing all grip,
i hate you for loving,
myself and me too,
but theres no winning,
i love you, i do,
when we touch i feel,
like nothing is real,
why are the dark things,
the only ones i feel?
emotion is dead,
im gone away now,
i wish i could come back,
but im lost i don't know how,
i love to hate me,
i cannot understand,
why you could look at me,
and how you can grasp my hand,
i just want you to know,
what your doing is brave,
but by being with me,
your digging your own grave.
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Sunday, June 22nd, 2003

Subject:jess
Time:1:53 am.
Mood:drunk.
Music:JESSIA IS SINGING IN MY EAR.
look at me,
you'll finda girl,
inside her mind,
is a whole other world,
she never shows it,
to her friends,
will theyever notice?
only in the end,
do you know me,
not a bit,
but still alone,
here i sit,
i know your scared,
of what you see,
so on second thought,
DONT LOOK AT ME
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Saturday, June 21st, 2003

Subject:today.
Time:7:58 pm.
Mood:numb.
Music:Farther down.
today i saw the strangest thing,
i thought it was scary,
but when i took a deeper look,
i realized it was me,
i also thought,
i could take,
another day of this,
but when i look back on thoughts,
they are only what i wish,
so much terror in my heart,
so much anger still,
and when i die, the end of start
it will be of my own free will,
i could go today,
right now,
but i choose to stay,
i am strong ,
i'lll hold it out,
i'll live another day.
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Subject:to-kill.and be unheard
Time:1:59 pm.
Mood:crushed.
Music:Morning Star- AFI.
i wish my life,
would go away,
but here i am,
another day,
in this place,
i do not know,
look at this face,
where can i go?
i ask so much,
that isnot answered,
in my dream,
my thought is cancelled,
alone i sit,
with no one,
random slit,
watch it run,
here i sit,
bleeding for fun,
i know you and i,
have not known each other long,
but how can you see,
what i am doing,
is wrong,
go away,
i hate you too,
im looking in the mirror,
i want to kill more than i ever knew.
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Friday, June 20th, 2003

Subject:i hate...hate
Time:7:03 pm.
Mood:lonely.
Music:Perfect Disguise-Modest Mouse.
hate is nice,
is also feirce,
like a knife,
it can peirce,
everything,
i am inside,
when i open up,
i have died,
and then i see,
that i hate,
what i am,
i cannot take,
another day,
of being me,
so i know now,
what i'll be,
i'll never know how,
i got to be.
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