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hehe.... im kinda drunk...well no, not yet. but im buzzin real bad. im not ready for the night to end. i was gonna go to ushies...but my damn cars alternator died,,and so my car is broken. so i cant get to where i was gonna go to meet gabby etc to go with them. i am sooo awake and hyper i kind of just want to walk there alone lol. im WICKED happy drunk right now!
sooo....ok today. me and shan c, went to rebekahs wedding. it was SO beautiful. it was fall themed, she looked soooooo pretty. i loved it. it was great. it was beautiful. patrick and her are so beautiful. i am so happy for her. to find a guy that will take over fatherhood of another mans child, that is great. it was just so happy, the whole thing was beyond words.
me and shannon were haunted by a ghost. seriously we went to help set up reception, it was in milo town hall...and we heard something go up the stairs, so we figured it was some other helper. well nobody came, and then up in this balcony we heard feet shuffling back and forth really fast across the floor. there is nothing to explain it, b/c it was too loud for rats-even raccoons...it was FREAKY, the place is really old and there used to be bball games up there. it was just weird.
i cant get over how beautiful the wedding was. it was the happiest thing i have seen in a long long time.
i am really wantin to go do something, but everyone is somewhere else and too drunk to drive...i could sooo easily the SHORT distance to the club, but i dunno. its over in an hr, should i????
Ryan called me tonight :) i called but he wasnt there,,, but he called back.
ohh im so happy lol. well, ok my kitten -she tried to eat my pills. and i lost my depakote-so i thought she ate it...so i bit one to see if it was possible that she ate it. then it all made my mouth like tingly and weird, so i thin it got into my blood and thru my system. hehe well i know how to get happy! ahh i just said hi to jimmy
ahh,, i want to see ryan tho... he wants me to come down and im gonna. my car needs to be fixed soon. for babysitting and all.im pissed. all my $ to that. i will be so broke this month. all to my car and to rent. that means more illegal driving. i need to get it registered for gods sakes. such is life.
oh man, so i have 4 cavities. yep. and have to get all my wisdom teeth out. yuccck.
ok i have sooooooooooooooooo much energy and im tryin to find somethign to do but nobody is home yet!
i feel so much better about myself lately. ive goten alot of compliments on not only my looks, but my perspnality as well. that makes me feel so good.
oh yea, lol so for halloween. i was a hooters waitress. it was super! lol. i was int he ushues contest1 but i didnt win! wtf, sooo many people voted for me. i duuno, i like the attention on my BATS, but i feel bad for real. and when i say that people are like yea right. well, no. like when rebekah got mad at patrick for looking-i really did not like it. it does have many advantages for sure, but sometimes not so great.
the bachelorette party was fun!1we went to seadog, and everyone was wasted, chan came i looooove partyin with her. makes me sad when it hink she is married and child. i mean its great, but we used to be the 2 bad girls, we had so much fun. we went to the party after and that was fun, then went to ushies. man, i miss partyin sooooooooooooo bad with her.but we had a great time. shan c is fun to hang out with. i miss my friends.
i feel like everyone is busy with stuff that is actually unimportant in the long run. sure its important to get good grades and a degree.....but to me friends, and family are the most important thing in life. too bad to most, its their boyfriends. i guess i will find friends who think the same as me one day.
i have no idea what im gonna do next yr, i am kinda changin my mind on FL to maybe stil in Ne, but not maine. maybe like, MA, NY. m..i dont even know.we will see. i know for sure i wanna spend time somewhere else. i have been thiniin of grad school. doin that somwhere else and just finishing reg. here, esp now that i am happier here. but- i do wanna live my young life and go to some crzy place.
its hard. i wanna gET MARRIDD and have a fam after college. but i wanna travel, and be crazy, party. i think i really want to go to grad school and get a degree so i can be a psychiatrist. the are the ones who can prescribe things, adn get paid waay better. i really do want to.at a diff school . like FL. then i can do all i want to do in one!im sooo enthusiastic at the moment. well i think i accidently took 2 effexors lol. so all my thoughts are comin out mad crazy lol.omg i am so queer. this is the longest and lamest thing ive ever written lol. i guess its time to go lay down. haha. im feelin so party mood but i dont know where to go at this time haha. ok im out!-Emmitt
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