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Lynda's Journal
hi gang! I know. You all probably think i fell off the face of the earth. I have not forgotten you by any means. Life has just become terribly busy and getting on the pc has not been one of my priorities lately.
billy and i are getting married at 10 a.m. the 24th. the irony of it is that my ex-husband is getting married THIS weekend. ha ha! we're having a huge trailride and campout the weekend of our wedding. I think it's going to turn out just fine. i'm nervous about getting married again. i love billy. don't get me wrong. if it were anyone else but billy i would not be getting married. but i feel that billy and i are destined to be together.
amanda ... well she got custody of her two boys afterall. simply because james failed his drug test at court. we borrowed $3000 against my truck and tractor to hire our lawyer. i won't do that again, but i just couldn't sit back and watch her lose the children because she couldn't afford a lawyer. i had to do something. but it's the last i'll be able to do. from here on out she's on her own.
she now has a "life partner". i never imagined my daughter being lesbian. i'm not homophobic by any means. it's just that she has never shown a propensity for being at all, then suddendly she's involved with a woman 18 years her senior. i just don't know what to think of it is all.
my son, nate is coming up to the wedding to give me away. manda is going to stand with me as my maid of honor. we're going to have a big covered wagon that we're going to get married behind then ride off in after we've said "i do".
the grand babies are all growing so much. nate's is a year old now. manda's is a year old and 3 yrs old. i tried baby sitting recently but just don't have the nerves for it anymore. i finally had to tell manda i can't babysit anymore. i can handle the eldest boy of 3. but it's the baby i have trouble with. into everything & can't yet talk. I was a basket case by the end of my day with him.
jubilee is completely out of commission now. she kicked at another horse and caught her hind foot in the fence & tore down 30 ft of fencing and a water line. she tore a muscle in her hip and now walks with a tilted pelvis. she is completely lame and unridable for up to 8 months. mama horse & shakota are my two reliables now. but i'm also riding sunny a lot. sunny is my friend's horse, a missouri foxtrotter that i just adore. he's very spirited & is a huge palomino. it takes everything i have to just be able to get on him. he's that big.
I've bought a little Tennessee Walker of 1 1/2 months old. the guy brought him and his mama over here and i'm working with her too. her ears are very sensitive and i'm trying to get her where she will let her ears be handled. i've named my little walker....Cash's Little Ace of Spades.... & just call him Ace. he's a black colt with two white back stockings, a white star on his forehead, and a white snip on his nose. he's a pretty little guy.. his mama will stay with us until time to wean my baby. mama and daddy are both black and white paints. but the colt came out black.
kyou've heard me mention a horse that ronnie and i had named shiloh. when we divorced, ronnie took shiloh and the two donkeys. well he didn't take care of him and shiloh died of colic. shiloh was a large black arabian cross.
Life just goes on. it's 2 am & I can't sleep tonight. dont' have my meds so it's an insomniac night. my sister's coming over tomorrow to help me clean this house and get ready to clean house before the wedding. then i've got to start brush-hogging & also disc up the arena.
well, i'll go now. take care. i'll try not to be so long in posting next time. take care. i've really missed you guys.
always.....Lynda
Current mood:
awake.