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Jerry C. has been talking to me about training a couple of his yearling thoroughbreds. he raises race horses. he wants me to do the ground work with them and get them where they can be handled but he just doesn't have the proper facilities in which i can work. they're in stalls, & he wants me to try to work them in there, but if they get silly and start kicking, there's also nowhere for me to go to be safe either, so i just don't know about this prospect. on the other hand, i want to do it to start building me a reputation too. so i dunno. i went in the stalls this morning and they were sniffing all over me but you can't touch them. they're pretty animals. it's also 30 minutes over to his place & we haven't talked money just yet either. i dunno what i'm getting myself into yet.
the storms are gonna hit here in about an hour. i'm trying to brace myself for it. it's already over my sister's home & she sais it's bad. has knocked out her satellite. i expect the same here after a while.
i still think about ronnie. sometimes i just pretend i'm waiting for him to get home. i miss him. maybe i shouldn't, being with billy, but i do. i think i still love him, even after all the crap that's gone on. i miss the security of being with ronnie. billy treats me good. it's just different though. *sigh* do i love billy? yea. but not like i did ronnie. i'm angry that ronnie left me and didn't ever talk to me. he sais he did. i say he didn't. he just said we could "date". maybe i should've done that. i don't know. i dunno a lot of things right now. like if i want to marry billy or not for instance.
*sigh* life is a chore sometimes. i'm so tired today i can't see straight. feel like i've worked my ass off and haven't done a damn thing all day other than go see about those foals.
i hope ya'll have a great afternoon. take care for now. TTFN
Current mood:
exhausted.