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it means a lot to me. today was a rather mundane day. i realized i got slightly manic yesterday too because i forgot to take my meds. therefore the brain just wouldn't shut down. still....i can't ignore the thoughts i had either. Each makes a valid point in my processing life with billy.
the puppies have really grown on me. especially the little black boy pup. He's black as coal and i've named him Smutt Mutt. He's the calmer and smartest of the two. the little brown female is much more agressive. GOTTA find her a home somewhere. It's hard to housebreak to at the same time, but with mama's help, we're trying. I call the brown one Buffy.
Boomer, poor guy, is very much "the old man". He tolerates them, but growls when they mess with his tail. just a "get off my ass" low short growl. He's not tried to hurt them in any way, and today actually tolerating Smutt falling asleep across boomer belly. that was a cute sight. I'm trying to help him not feel jealous of the pups. He's trying hard to accept them, but is reluctant in it.
it's gonna be cold tomorrow and wet. i feel sorry for my horses when it gets messy outside. yea, they have sheds to get under. still, I feel for them out in the cold. Yet to feel their fur, one finds they are quite insulated & actually their skin feels warm. i'm missing riding. am wanting to ride all of them, so as soo as the weather permits, i'm gonna be back at it again.
we've planned two big trailrides out here this year with an area association. ONe in May. ONe in September. It will nice weather for both i hope. gonna be a lot of people here too. easy to see a hundred riders sometimes. they're mostly african-american. they all seem to love me and that's always a surprise to me.
My friend John, who trains horses with me....has gotten screwed over by ronnie. ronnie bought a horse at the sale barn for $200 & gave it to John to train on barrels, & bought ONE sack of feed. the horse has been at johns now nearly 3 months i think & he hasn't seen feed nor money out of ronnie for the work he's doing. so john has taken that horse now & rather than teaching it barrels, is training it to be a ropin' horse & his training fee just doubled. Can't say as I blame him. ronnie ignores his calls.
ronnie..... well i do still think of him, but i'm not "dwelling" on it as badly as I did in the beginning. I can't believe he and i are divorced after 18 years together. It just blows my mind. It took him all of 3 months to replace me. wow. THAT was love. hmmmmmmmmmm. but i had billy too. so can't really harp on that now can I? ONe of ron's dumb ass friendds went to jail recently. I HAD to laugh at his dumb ass. He was drunk and actin stupid. He has a big orange flashing light on the top of his truck and a siren. And he drinks like a fish. There was a wreck nearby and he went running down there with his "toys" and they arrested him! HEHE....serves him right. He ain't as smart as he thinks he is! I wouldn't doubt if ronnie didn't have to bail him out either. wouldn't THAT be a hoot?!
well, i guess i'll shut up now. gonna go watch tv with mama and billy. take care. have a good day / evening. chow for now ....Lynda
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