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Sunday, December 21st, 2003

Subject: domino rally- spider kick out Time: 1:09 pm. Mood: good. Music: hjdfhjdfshsdfhj.

well well well. v dance. well. it was long. i had a good time with my friends minus david. im done with him. i think ima try to set him up with krysten swenson (krysten, if youre reading this, let me know if youre still interested!) because he seems interested in getting to know her. so we're done. yay. anyways, everyone looked drop dead gorgeous last night. they all took my breath away. they played sucky music tho. :( . the group picture is gunna be frickin awesome. we tried to go to wendys after, but it was closed. we waited for kasey and the others for a little bit, but then i got really tired and just wanted to go home. so we went thru the drive thru where they screwed up our order, but in a good way. i ordered a nuggets kids meal, but i got a medium drink with it, plus we got a random extra bag of food, which david kept. yep. so then i came home and went to bed, i was very exhausted. today i was rudely awoken at the ungodly hour of 9:30 by my mother telling me big y called and wanted me to work today 4:30-7:30. FUCK THEM! there is no way im going out of my way to help those assholic asses. i felt bad telling shirley no, since i like her, but she didnt seem too happy with me. oh well, fuck her too then. I HATE BIG Y. on a nicer note, i am going grocery shopping with my dad and sister today. we are going to proce chopper, NOT BIG Y. HAHAHAHHA EAT THAT ASSHOLES! i absolutely love going grocery shopping (im not sure why tho, its just really fun) so i am very excited. then wills house tonight for capture the flag. WWWWWWWWHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im out like a boner in sweatpants.

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Subject: beefcake Time: 11:16 pm. Mood: angry.

yep. back from work i am. and very upset and pissed i am. i hate big y. everyone is against just me. donna and lois. the put me on regiester 1 for 6 hours tonight, so i wasnt in a good mood to start off with. then julie comes over and tells me and katie to watch it cuz donna is here. val comes over later and tells us as well. meaning i should watch it, or once again i will get in trouble. yet why am I the only one warned when everyone else is talking as well? why am i the only one who is at risk for getting in trouble (donna has threatened me with getting written up if i continue my talking ways). yet what makes me even more mad is that donna and lois talk ALL the time themselves. they talk to employees about stupid things, they talk to other supervisors, and customers who are there friends. yet if i ever got caught talking to one of my friends? id practically be dead in that place. I HATE BIG Y. fuck you donna. fuck you lois. fuck big y. i am beyond enraged with that place. EVERY fuckin day i get yelled at. OH and my favorite thing tonight? i asked julie about her supervisor-dom and how long it took her to get there. (it took her a year. fucker) then julie asked sarah how long it took her to become one and sarah was all like "oh why, does she want to be one or something (she meaning me)?" and i laughed and was all like HAHAHA NO. then julie laughed really hard as well and was like "hahaha no offense kate, but i dont think thatd ever happen." (or something along the lines of that, i dont remember exactly, plus it was pretty loud at the time and she was drowned out). but yeah sorry julie, offense was taken. fuck you. ok. now that i am all riled up, i could on forever and ever about fucking big y, but i will stop now because i have a lot of other much more happier things to talk about. such as....the BEST weekend ever. check out this shizzle. last friday: went to school. chillin in prob and stat when all of a sudden, theres an announcement announcing we're getting outta school early cuz some stupid water pipes broke or what not. CHA CHING! so me, little champ, champ lindsey, champ mark, champ cait, champ kim, champ amber, and champ emily all went out to lunch at applesbees and had a rocking good time. hitler tv! "did you just give her your six flags card?" , hiding napkins, mark breaking picture frames...yayayayyaa it was fun. then me and little champ went to the gym with teh madre. it was great fun. then the nightime involved me and david going to see elf. WHAT A GREAT MOVIE. and oooo man what a great day. saturday: woke up at 6 to go to salem state. went, took the first half hour of the tour, then madre decided we needed to leave after we saw: a sign that said 'i did it here with durex condoms', a marijuana plant, a girl sucking on 'volcanoes' (they were clearly penises), and a 4 year old kid flipping off the camera..all on dorm room doors. so we busted outta that rathole and then picked up liz on our way back cuz she was sleeeping over that night. so then we got home, me and liz went to get lil champ, we chilled for awhile, went for a random and wicked fun drive, and then that night me, liz, tinio, will, and dan went bowling. hahahahahhaha oh man was that awesome. we like practically broke everything in there and we didnt get yelled at at all. dan and will rolled like 8 balls down at the same time and then they kept giving out gutter balls. then we all tried to switch scores which led to some vicious fights. then we hit up pub 99 and williams house. then home. me and liz watched the sunday night sex show with sue jo. man that show is hilarious. sunday: had a softball doubleheader up in danvers in some indoor complex. the place reeked and the fields were super small, we lost both our games, we were missing a lot of people, but i still somehow managed to have a great time. i followed mrs. cody up which was pretty nerve wracking cuz it was like an hour and a half ride thru boston and everything, but somehow i survived. after the games we went to newbury comics and i almost got into an accident on the way home. thank good ness that person beeped or i would of pulled into their lane and smashed into them without ever looking. that coulda been real bad. but things went fine after that, got home no prob and fell asleep like right away after my exhasting and awesome weekend. my parents are fighting again. my mom made an appt with a lawyer to see about divorces. this oughta be an unhappy thanksgiving. thank goodness we already had our real thanksgiving. friday is v dance. ugh. i dont know how i feel about that (see my bit on david below) saturday night is capture the flag at wills house. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO so this is my journal. yeah. but the things i write in here are always...censored, i guess. like i dont really write my true feelings or ill hold back something about someone cuz i dont want them reading this. but then i realized this is MY journal and i can write whatever i want, about whoever i want and i dont give a care what anyone says. also, only like 2 people (if that) read this, and if they dont wanna anymore, they dont have to. so i can write whatever personal feelings and opinions and things thats happen that i want. so theres my warning. now. about david. well i suppose this whole thing starts back when we were going out. i liked him for maybe a month, before things started to get old. mind you, we went out for 6 months. he was annoying, clingy and suffocating. then we broke up and we were just friends. then i got lonely again and wanted attention and activity, so david and i started up a friends with benefits relationship. which has not been my best idea, by far. things were fun at first i suppose. innocent enough as well. hahaha and that time we got caught making out in the parking lot at big y. hahah that was BAD. that got me into to trouble at work as well (but doesnt everything get me into trouble? YES!), even though they shouhld not have been poking their nose into my business, the fuckers. well then, things progressed a little more deeply and thats when he started to get bad. he got clingy and annoying again. apparantly, friends with benefits means we can hold hands and cuddle again and well and he can stay glued to my side JUST LIKE WERE GOING OUT AGAIN. which is exactly what i DONT want. i mean i only wanted the fwb things just for the benefits minus the committal- how perfect is that?. ok that sounds really bad, but its true. i suppose you can say i used david, because i didnt (and dont) want to be with him, i was only in it for the fun. and i thought he understood it, but apparantly he doesnt. it feels exactly how it felt like when we were going out, he calls me every day, he always is trying to hold my hand, even at work, and just hes always generally there. ARGH. but now i feel really torn because we've done a lot, more so then we did when we were going out, and pretty much everything but the big IT. he was a lot of firsts for me and i feel really bad that my heart wasnt really into it all, i think i rushed into things just for the experience and so i can say ive done them. i feel dirty and this is making me out to be a horrible person, which i guess i am. : ( im really fed up tho. and were going to v-dance on friday. but i know its gunna feel exactly the same still. hell still try and hold my hand and cuddle and kiss me, cuz thats how we are now. but thats how we were, and we broke up, and we need to 'break up' again and i need to stop this bad spiral and cut ties once and for all and settle for what life brings me, at least until college. then therell be better guys. i think the friends with benefits thing can work, just not with david. ajhskldhjsakldhsajklsahlasjkh. i feel really bad about him now. im a horrible person. we're stopping all this once and for all. and thats it. im finally done this monstrous entry, im out like a boner in sweatpants.

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Time: 2:00 pm. Mood: champish. Music: im frickin awesome.

hahahahaha oh man my dumb computer is working again. finally. get this: F A M E by spazyspag Name: Youre famous for: Being ugly You get famous: April 9, 2007 You make $$ per/year: $683,138,539,511,267 Do people like you? Everyone hates you Dead/Alive: No one knows Created with quill18's MemeGen! CHAMP= UGLY?! ARRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! F A M E by spazyspag Name: Youre famous for: Being a slut You get famous: May 17, 2047 You make $$ per/year: $1.90579459090422e+15 Do people like you? Everyone hates you Dead/Alive: Alive, but not for long Created with quill18's MemeGen! F A M E by spazyspag Name: Youre famous for: Having nude photos all over the internet You get famous: June 22, 2048 You make $$ per/year: $1.06334248405938e+15 Do people like you? You suck. Dead/Alive: Living Created with quill18's MemeGen! hahaha man im frickin awesome. ok, so i spend all my time going around saying im frickin awesome, tryin to be all dr evilish like. i AM frickin awesome. i hope no one thinks i sound conceited cuz i dont mean it that way or anythin. moving on......... i havent updated since the 17th. and today is the 25th. it feels like its been forvever, but its only been 8 days. our stupid internet was brokin. :( lots has happened.lets see. WORK: big y sucks ass. ive gotten yelled at unbelieveable amounts of times for talking, ive gotten written up cuz my register was off $23 bucks cuz of my 'talking', and plus its right before thanksgiving now and everythings hectic. *plots to murder all the bad supervisors (*cough* lois *cough* donna *cough). im only still there cuz i love the emnployees and theyre semi good about giving me the time off i need. SCHOOL: alls i do is slack off. there seems to be no use in trying anymore, ive already been accepted to johnson and wales, wnec is a sure shot, and i could probably get in anywhere else i wanted (well within reason) due to my past grades. i havent done homework forever, and i havent studied for anything in a really long time. i always have a lot of fun in school now so thats cool. we visited salem state last saturday. it was really bad and dirty and we left a half hour after the tour started. FRIENDS/RANDOM EVENTS/THE BEST WEEKEND IN MY LIFE EVER: this week was school spirit week. it was freakin awesome. monday- maroon and gold day. always my least fave day, but i wore gold softball socks, and a marron and gold shirt nonetheless. tuesda- crazy hat day/whatever day. i wore my plastic police hat w/ the pull down visor. man it was awesome. got lots of compliments, but also tons of 'where is your sombrero?' questions. silly madre gave it away. hahahaha but once again, i got my pic taken for the yearbook. no guarantees ill be in there tho. lets hope not. today was class color day/ pep rally. seniors= black. SENIORS! SENIORS! SENIORS! ah man, the chant still rings in my ear. it was really great this year considering we didnt have one last year (snow day :( ). there was a cool SHAM, teacher sumo wrestling, and lots of loudness. it was great. but soon i have to work 2:30-8:30 on the super busy day before turkey day. POOO. very mad i am. hahaha reminds me of yoda day, remember champ lindsey? hahahahahahah. hahahah oh man this past weekend was the best weekend of my life. hahaha *realizes i say that everytime i have a fun weekend* SHIT. i have to go get ready to work. but i still want to updat about this past weekend so i will forever have it saved as a wonderful memory. ill update when i get home if im in a good mood. but im sure they will yell at mne again even though EVERYONE else does the same thing, im just the fuckin scapegoat. *punches big y* im out like a boner in sweatpants

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Time: 10:22 pm. Mood: good.

man o man o man. yayo. ive been wearing myh air down a lot lately. getting lotsa compliments on it. i love it so much, it makes me feel pretty tho i doubt it really does in fact presnt the [retty image. o well, im all that counts. i also got new glasses as well. theyre smart kid glasses. they make me look intellectual which is really hard for me to pull off. hahahahahaha. but i like them nonetheless. friday night- softball meeting. learned lots about college softball and how to get coaches attention. now if only i could just get over my writers block and start writing them emails. suggestions anyone, as what to write to a college softball coach? the meeting was great fun. we took a tour- the place is awesome and then me, dig, and g played monkey in the middle. i sucked. then me and g hit up starbucks and the mall after. yayo. saturday- all day, major cleaning. got ready for our thanksgiving on sunday. sunday- our familys thanksgiving. lotsa people and food. i made a frickin awesome cheese, pepperoni, and cracker platter. im frickin awesome. 25 people in our little house. little kids as well. 5 hours of nutsdom. but it was fun as hell. little cousin cailin kept asking where the 'titty' was. she couldnt say 'k'. hahahah it was great. big y sucks. today my register broke for like an hour. the people waiting in my line were mad, and i had to go on fuckin register 1 while my computer fuckin rebooted from scratch. and then as soon as i got back to my normal register, i was STILL express. fuckers. plan these things better. plus that whale lois was all like "you HAVE to stop talking". fuck her. i was telling brian one little story and i wasnt even that loud about it. *flips lois off and burns big y down* on that happy note, im out like a boner in sweatpants

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Subject: i got a haircut Time: 6:43 pm. Mood: cheerful. Music: dropkick murphys- walk away.

woot. woot. what a rockin weekend. saturday- woke up around 10. didnt do much. worked 12-5. got home. got my hair cut! omg i love it so much! its layered now, and i love wearing it down. i feel its really pretty and my whole family loves it as well. this is quite momentuous for me, as usually i hate wearing it down. but i love it. yay. then i went to will house. we were planning on hide and go seek at home depot but 1. we didnt have a winston and 2. dan sprained his ankle. hahaha. we were gunna visit blake, but we didnt feel like leaving wills house so we just chilled there. ahhh mucho good times. hahahahahaha oh man. then madre made me come home for 11. poo. cuz i hada get up early for today cuz we were visiting johnson and wales. today- woot. woke up at 9. left at 10. got to j &w around 11:15. it was awesome. they have a really cool sport/event/entertainment management program. the tour guide was HAWT! it was 'decision day' as they called it, when we registered we handed in our transcripts so we could have a decision by the time we left. i got in. it was sort of anti-climactic. like i was anticipating my first college acceptance to be a big thing. but it really wasnt. maybe it was cuz i was in a bad mood cuz my parents were fighting. again. but i am very happy. i have an accepted students guide, and i was accepted into their honors program as well. plus i have at least a $5,000 scholarship, as well as a chance for a chancellor's scholarship, ranging anywhere from $10, 000- full tuition. woot!!!!! im really torn between j &w and western new england. theyre like two totally different campuses tho, and i loved em both. wnec is in the city of springfield, but it really doesnt seem like a city, the campus is in a relatively rural part and is fairly small. whereas, j &w is right smack dab in downcity providence and it big, and totally busy. i liked em both, itll defnitely be a tough decision. plus, we're still not done visiting. salem state is up next on november 22, and id also like to visit u conn and slippery rock. woot. i should go try and do something productive now. im out like a boner in sweatpants.

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Subject: hot tub Time: 10:20 pm. Mood: annoyed.

today was...mef. not much happened. lindsey spilled italian dressing on me. i reeked. mr, mulcahy called me 'antipasto'. i worked 4 hours. i came home, showered, called david. im going to the v dance with him btw. i want to go with someone, but no one in particular, you know what i mean? so im going with david. hes sooo much better as a friend. theres no pressure, we can talk whenever, and plus theres the 'side dishes' hahahahaha. yyyeeaaahh. ok so im done i suppose. im out like a boner in sweatpants

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Time: 10:50 pm.

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Time: 4:53 pm. Mood: depressed.

"fine, if you want to go out, go out. but then youre not coming home tonight" ~my mom THATS JUST DANDY THANKS! i hate living here. i decided i have the worst relationship with my parents ever. i dont get why. i cant reach out to them, and they dont try to reach out to me. its so different than it used to be. NEVER EVER would i have thought this. i have contemplated many times just losing it and leaving. but i cant. im tied down and obligated. and i just....cant. i need to grow some guts. people dont listen. i mean really listen. i never needed listeners before but i do now. people have always seen me as a goofy happy go lucky moron who never took anything seriously. but im more than that and i dont think people want to find out. i cant wait to start my life over again in college. i will leave everything and everyone behind and be happy. i will be a new me. one that i want to be, with no restrictions. i feel cramped now. i act like everyone thinks i should act. its not the real me, i keep that hidden because i dont think people will accept it. why? i have no idea. but its too late now. its been 6 years of my living my life that is not mine. i think on wildfire im myself a lot more because people there dont know how i am usually so i can be what i want to be. i can act how i want to act (like a 6 year old that only eats sugar- yep, thats me) and its fun. people like that. in fact this weekend, someone said 'kate IS the team'. that made me feel real good, like my impact has meant a lot to them. and i hope to god its true. and i think they (i forgot who said it, i think perhaps it was g's mom) did. and that makes me very happy. but then when i came to school today i just felt like i was in a whole different world. and i wanted to get out. badly. i dont feel connected anymore really. i hope its just a phase, i'd been having so much fun at school. ok im done. thats it. i could go on forever if i dont stop now. so im done. and im sure as soon as i walk away i will think of a million more things that i couldve written and then they will make me sad and i will cry. i NEVER cry. unless im hurt, like physically hurt. i hate tears. so i will NOT cry, its not worth crying over anyway. this part will be done soon enough. ill just go through the motions if i have to. im out like a boner in sweatpants. i need to ditch this mood. NOW. its so not me. i hate thinking. ps- oh and dan has an lj now. what is going on? pss- im pretty sure i probably dont mean any of this. especially the whole part about leaving everything and everyone behind. i dont know if ill be able to do that. but im pretty upset right now. so i have an excuse. psss- i still havent updated about our tourney this weekend. ill do that tonight tho when im in a better mood. cuz i feel better now. so im good. i hope. I AM A WONDER

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