| This is a rant about boredom, loneliness, and jealousy. You have been warned. |
[18 Jul 2004|08:40pm] |
Maybe this is a continuation of Arianna's entry. I don't know.
Hearing about all these awesome things that are happening to everyone who has left for awhile...makes me just want to leave, myself. Josh met incredible people. Kevin met incredible people. Lauren is going to victoria's secret with straight guys. What is wrong with me? Do I have a curse for just not having ANY opportunity? Is it just that I'm not trying at all? Because everything seems to come easier to all of those people, and then some.
I know that if I got out, I wouldn't meet anyone. Because I don't walk up to random people and say hi. Because everything that happens on vacation is a family-oriented event. Because I don't smile.
I wish I could be everyone else at the same time. Because I feel trapped in this boring, manual-labor-filled existence that only lives to talk on the phone and internet, saying "yeah" and "cool" in response to the incredible awesomeness that happens to people.
This is also kinda the reason why I never invite anyone over.
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