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Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
3:42 pm
Three year curse strikes again.

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Friday, May 11th, 2007
10:50 am
Still alive and still in love. What more could I ask for?

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Monday, January 15th, 2007
10:03 am
Is it mid Janurary already???? Appears as though I have survived a very difficult time. Part of me wants to write about it, another part says that I won, just let it go. I dont know why I really no longer feel like this is a place where I can let it out.

Any ways, Happy New Year to all!

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Friday, November 3rd, 2006
3:15 pm - If you dont like what I have to say then leave.
I spent my childhood dreaming of some fathomed utopia whilst hiding from the painful reality of daily life. I believed that it coud be better, and have realized that its only different.

I'm such a fucking ditz. I hate my life, I hate what I have done to literally everyone I know. I hate that I abandoned my children for a man. I hate that I allowed myself to believe. I hate that I thought life would be better, when in fact its worse.

I fucking hate everything and everyone.

I'm not looking for pity, so dont give it. I dont want your understanding. I just want to be left alone to wait out this painful existance I have created for myself. I dont want to feel. I want my numb back.

I'm a sick twisted dumb bitch who candy coats her existance, but for what and who and why I dont know. I'm done pretending I want to be a part of this world, that I can matter or make a difference. It doesnt fucking matter, in the end, it doesnt fucking matter.

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Thursday, October 26th, 2006
10:23 am
Sometimes I feel like a socially distracted mother with saliva moistened fingers dabbing away the dirt on the face of life.

This swam around my head all night... not sure why or what it means yet, possibly a distraction from other things.

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Tuesday, October 24th, 2006
5:34 pm
So, looks like we may be going to the United Emirates for business. Who'da thunk.
Been super busy. No time for detail. I do peek in on ya's all though!

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5:32 pm - No notification, no paste
Whats up blurty?
Lisa www.web-source.net/html_codes_chart.htm

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Wednesday, October 18th, 2006
9:00 am
from a friend:

deep in the oceans of our dreams comes a child playing with bubbles, slowly releasing one or two from time to time, to float quietly to the surface. Once the bubble hits the surface it pops and a whisper floats, and if lucky the wind catches it and carries the message to the waiting ear of an open armed love.

This isnt his usual stuff. His writing is usually dark and agressive. I love the image this sets.

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Tuesday, October 17th, 2006
9:05 am - Heh, I'm Unique!
Taken from Janet-



HowManyOfMe.com
LogoThere are:
0
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

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Thursday, October 5th, 2006
10:11 am
*shrugs* I dont know if its that I just dont feel like writing or that I'm so damn busy or lazy or what.
I do know that we have doubled the business again this year and that has me on my toes constantly.

My kids moved an hour further north... great. Now I will see them even less. And now that Jordan is working, I'll see them even even less. Kate wont take the bus without her brother. Their father wont let them give me their new number and he wont let them use the phone to call me. Guess he's still a F'N jerk. I dont know what to do about it either. Jordan turns 20 next month. He calls me from his cell that comes in like crap from the boonies.

Sometimes I regret the choices, yet I dont. I mean I miss all 4 of my kids. I miss family life. But I love Salah soooo much. Its really just him and I. My family is an hour away, mom dont drive and Arnt works constantly. His familys in Egypt. I wish our circle was bigger, or tighter.

So, thats it.

J cut the tie.

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Thursday, September 28th, 2006
4:40 pm - Ramadan
Fasting this month.

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Thursday, September 7th, 2006
3:10 pm
Hey it looks like I am making an appearence one a week, thats better then some.

Jordan called, I am so excited for the changes now that he's finally made the move.

Kate started at her new school, has made a handful of friends already.

Tut aka Sasa is a miniture little salah. Or, is it that Salah has the energy of a kitten and is just as mischevious? Ahhh yes, two of a kind.

Business... OMG we have three new employees. I'm thinking I need to send payroll out. Wow, I never thought it would take off like this.

I won the small claims even if I have traded in the car.

Hmmm what else... oh My sister is going to be on Queer Eye on Tuesday.

My cousin had a little baby boy.

Hmmmm why does it all sound so simple, yet feel so dang complex?

current mood: busy

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Monday, August 28th, 2006
1:47 pm
Those other boys dont know how to act!

Ha, ha, ha Kiss 107.9 says JT is gay. Guess we'll have to hear what JT hat to say about that in the interview tomorrow. Have fun in Beantown! See ya round.

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Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
10:18 am - Hornification
Sexyback has a rockin beat! Great for gettin down with it, if ya know what I mean.

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Friday, August 18th, 2006
11:23 am
Wow. Life is busy. Several more contracts, business is great. Got a new Chrysler 300, thanks hubby. Miss my kids. Havent lost any weight. Not much else.

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