Well, it is now 2004. Exciting huh?! A lotta different things are going to be happening this year. Dave said to me on Jan. 1st, "Today feels like the first day to our new life". Which is really true. It's a brand new year and tons of things are going to change. I'm graduating, which is a really big step in my life. I need a job, I need to gain some goddamn responsiblity. So I can get a job and keep it, and get money. I need to learn to fucking grow up and realize the world doesn't revolve around me! I mean I know that, but sometimes I act like it does. Anyways, so New Years was good. I hung out with Dave and Sydney. Then Dave slept over, we didn't do anything too extreme, but I was just happy to have Dave sleep at my house for the night. We have been spending a lot of time together due to the vacation, and its really gonna suck having to get back to the normal schedule of seeing each other only 2 times a week. Oh god! Going back to skool really is gonna be horrible, I am NOT excited about that one bit.
It's funny how I've been spending so much time with Dave and I haven't really gotten bored of him, I mean I USUALLY don't like hanging out with the same person ALL THE TIME, but with Dave, it's different. Which is definately a good thing lol. I really miss him a lot right now. And I just say him earlier today, call me pathetic, I guess it sorta is. But that's what happens when your in love. There's only one thing that really bothers me about our relationship...he doesn't trust me with other guys. He claims he doesn't trust the guys, but I think it's me. Hes so damn worried about loosing me, he doesn't want me hanging out with any other guys without him around. And that sorta frustrates me. I mean I know he gets worried that I'm gonna leave him for someone else, which is normal I guess. But he needs to know that I love him and no other guy can replace him, ever. Even if we were to get into a horrible fight, I wouldn't have to think twice about leaving him. I would stay with him forever. I mean come on, we've been through so much FUCKING BULLSHIT together, you think I would throw it all away due to a stupid fight, hell no! I wanna be able to go out with my friends and not have to worry about him being sad and thinking I'm out fucking around. I'm a tough girl and I can say no if any guy trys anything. I'm not a fucking idiot, you know?! That's the only one thing that I just can't stand, not just with him, but if Dan or any of my exboyfriends questioned the trust, it would bother me. Now that I have successfully bitched about it, I'm done with that lol. Oh and I'm not bringing any of that up because I'm upset or mad or anything, I was just being random with the entire thing. But I'm gonna go now, I'll talk to you later! Bye bye now!