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Friday, October 10th, 2003
6:08 pm
broke up with Shaun last night

current music: HIM ~ Our Diabolikal Rapture

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Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
10:31 pm
I have a LJ...

current mood: tired
current music: HIM ~ Your Sweet 666

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Friday, September 5th, 2003
8:51 pm - A BABY, A BABY!!!
Claire had her baby today, at 11:19 am.
A girl, 9 1/2lbs!

she's been named Erin Jane!!!


*hugs everyone in sight*

current mood: happy
current music: HIM ~ Pretending (acoustic)

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Thursday, September 4th, 2003
I was late for college because the (stagecoach) bus never arrived. 'cording to Janina (the most random meeting *ever*) it's happened for the last 4 days... *kills things*
becky's mam gave us (me, her, shaun & janina) a lift in, but we were still 5mins late... then I got to run around looking for the business studies room (more about *that* in a minute)...

ancient history is, so far, the only subject I can see myself enjoying...
one person in the group is a friend-of-a-friend, another I've made friends with. ^_^ woo, I made a friend!! ;)

english lit is good 'cause I have Becky to keep me company. <3

business studies sucks... not in itself, but because I've joined the wrong group and am too scared to - now that I've realised I'm in the wrong group (room 413 instead of 416, or whatever) - just say that I need to switch groups... o__0

human biology doesn't look too bad, but I don't think I know anyone in the group.

oooh, shaun is having his first driving lesson right now!

current mood: ill
current music: HIM ~ Soul On Fire

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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2003
8:28 pm
I fucking love Ville Valo. :D :D :D

5 days to go... <3

yay, shaun's 17th tomorrow. ^_^
poor dear has to go into college on his birthday! nasty stuff. ^_~

I got a bus pass today. *joy*

oh, and found out that there'll be 2000+ people at college tomorrow when the seniors start back.
*hides in a corner and cries*

blee, I'm sooo tired. :D just running on caffiene, really. got up at 6:30 or something stupid like that, after taking ages to go to sleep (2am-ish) and then not sleeping properly... gah. *faints*

current mood: meep
current music: HIM ~ Heartache Every Moment <3

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Tuesday, September 2nd, 2003
5:31 pm
foiled again, damn it... looks like my hair'll be this icky brown/gold/white/whatever colour for at least a day of college...
BUT I think I'm managing to pursuade my mam that I LIKE MY HAIR BLACK AND NOT GOLD-BROWN and will shut up and finally leave her alone if she dyes it for me.
... failing that, I'll see if becky can do it for me anytime soon. :)


current mood: blee
current music: A.F.I ~ Death Of Seasons

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Sunday, August 31st, 2003
1:50 pm
lalalaa... I love HIM. ^_^

signing sooon!!! *dances*

other news: I feel like crap, I hate my life right now, I keep arguing with my parents and I can never win.
I'm taking 5 AS levels at college, which is going to kill me. I'm taking Business Studies instead of Philosophy, thanks to my dad throwing a hissy-fit when he learnt that I was taking ceramics "what do you want to take that for?" and not business... then he was just cruel to me, going on about how I had no hand-eye co-ordination, that I worked too slowly and could never be any good at something practical like ceramics (so why bother?).

I've cried more this past week than I have in months.

fuck it, I'm going to dye my hair tomorrow. I don't give a fuck anymore. let them ground me, cut off my internet access... it's not like I interact with anyone anyway.

shit, why do I bother.

current mood: fragile.
current music: Placebo ~ Without You I'm Nothing

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Monday, August 25th, 2003
9:22 pm
Becky and myself are just doing random quizzes, comparing results... fun!! ack, we're sooo bored. :D
*Elitist Nerds Forever*

Borderline:Very High
Avoidant:Very High

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

You are asexual.

What is your sexual orientation?
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Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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current mood: booored!! :D
current music: A.F.I ~ Girl's Not Grey

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Thursday, August 21st, 2003
8:31 pm

sorry. it honestly surprised me!!
yeah. anyways.

2 As
3 Bs
6 Cs

not brilliant, but I'm happy!!!! I DON'T HAVE TO RETAKE MATH, AND I DIDN'T GET ANYTHING BELOW A "C"!!!

current mood: accomplished
current music: HIM ~ Soul On Fire

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7:48 am
get those pesky results later today. o_0

current mood: nervous
current music: Placebo ~ Bionic

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Sunday, August 17th, 2003
5:57 pm - *quizzes*

Right Here In My Arms

What Song By HIM Are You?
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Deep shadows and brilliant highlights-so
cool.Although you're perfect,some people don't
like you.

Which HIM album are you?
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current mood: restless
current music: HIM ~ Salt In Our Wounds (acoustic)

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Friday, August 15th, 2003
11:20 pm
lalalalaa... wow, I'm bored. :D

hmm, might as well update, as I'm here.

Claire's yet to have her baby, so she's prolly gonna be difficult and wait 'till the 21st (when it'd due). :love: ^_^

I now have every HIM album, as well as the singles boxset. *crazy*

err... I suck at this, right?

current mood: mellow
current music: A.F.I ~ Silver And Cold

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Thursday, August 14th, 2003
8:26 am
... no bay-bee yet...

got a few hours sleep last night, though I had myself half-convinced that I should stay awake all night again, just incase...

current mood: sleepy
current music: A.F.I ~ The Leaving Song, Pt. 2

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Wednesday, August 13th, 2003
7:12 am
another sleepless night : too worried to sleep now. ^_~

current mood: bleh/hyped
current music: HIM ~ Salt In Our Wounds

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Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
9:40 pm


*shakes head in amazement*

so... technically, she's still in labour... but with no contractions... and she hasn't been into hospital yet... oh, this is *so weird*

when we ((Becky got in touch with me this afternoon after trying to get hold of me since midnight)) rang her home to see how she (and, we guessed, the baby) were doing, a perfectly cheerful Seb answered and told us that her contractions had stopped, she still had the bump, she was cleaning her kitchen and considering going out for a spot of jogging... o_0

current mood: distracted!!!
current music: HIM ~ Lose You Tonight

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10:52 am
it was my birthday on the 7th... all my family just gave me money, which was amusing. come *on*, it's not that difficult to buy things for me. ^_~

sylvie bought me HIM's "Deep Shadows And Brilliant Highlights", which means I now have 3 HIM albums... I'll buy "Greatest Lovesongs..." next weekend, or maybe thursday 'cause I'm going into town with Becky...

shaun got me lots of stuff... a toy cat <3, a sterling silver chain necklace with a heart pendant and the words "To Caroline Love You Always From Shaun xxx" ... and tickets for Thorpe Park on Monday.
I don't deserve him.

HIM ~ Pretending.

Love is a flame that can't be tamed
And though we are its willing prey, my darling
We are not the ones to blame

Trust is a word all lovers know
The glorious art of staining souls, my darling
We are not the ones to blame

The more we have the more we want
And the more it hurts our hearts, my baby
It always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending
Our heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it's alright
So keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It's alright

When doubts arise the game begins
The one we will never win, my baby
It always ends up in tears

So keep on pretending
Our heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it's alright
So keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It's alright

Come on...

So keep on pretending
Our heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it's alright
So keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It's alright

Love is a flame that can't be tamed
And though we are its willing prey, my darling
We are not the ones to blame

current mood: hmm
current music: HIM ~ Pretending ^

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Sunday, August 10th, 2003
7:58 pm - I am melting.
I am not cut out for weather like this.
The hotter it gets, the more irritable I get, and the more I AVOID GOING OUTSIDE whenever possible.

... anyways...
um, got back this morning at 6am... and I haven't gone to sleep yet, so forgive me my not-making-sense moments purlease.
we left Kilrush, Co. Clare, at 13:30 on Saturday, and our sailing was at 21:00 so we were at the port (Rosslare, it's a horrible place) at 19:45 or so... and then the sailing was delayed a little... and we got into Pembroke at 01:15-ish and then waited (for what seemed like ages) for them to let us off the bloody boat.
blah blah blah long boring car journey spent listening to HIM's Razorblade Romance via walkman and headphones, and half-hour snatches of sleep.
we spent a good 15 minutes getting lost in NEWBURY of all places. *rolls eyes*
yeah, stumbled in a little before 6am this morning.

I've spent the best part of today complaining about the heat and avoiding being pushed outside to "get some colour"...


my parents seem to think that my avoiding-sunlight-whenever-possible is something that I can be 'mocked out of', if you will...

current music: HIM ~ Join Me In Death (this song always brings tears...)

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Friday, July 25th, 2003
one... hour... sleep... ^_^
we're such geeks. going to pizza hut ('ski, millie, shaun et moi) and playing (Trotter Club Official)mini-Jenga while waiting for our pizzas... eating *FAR* too much ice-cream...
then going back to 'ski's, going to dillons at 22:30 and buying four 2-litre bottles of coke... staying up all night watching LOtR and attempting to watch the Star Wars Trilogy... only to get sidetracked by battles with plastic lightsabers at sometime around 4am.
mmmmmcoca-cola. *hyper*

yeah, so now I'm going to Ireland for 2 weeks. :awk:

um... enjoy your holidays, people.


current mood: tired/awake/hyper/blah
current music: HIM ~ Wicked Game

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Wednesday, July 23rd, 2003
2:39 pm

Mysterious and a scholar, you are a member of the Tremere clan. You are pretty loyal to your clan, well, you sort of have to...especially since you are blood-bonded to most of them. You are the intelligentsia of the Camarilla and are fascinated with the occult. Possessing the ability to use blood for magic, many clans don't like to approach you. However, that is fine with you. You tend not to trust the other clans anyway.

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?

current mood: fine
current music: Pumpkins ~ Starla

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Wednesday, July 16th, 2003
6:53 pm
heading out for dinner with shaun in a few.

eeeek!! need to dry my hair!! *runs off*

current mood: excited
current music: the Offspring ~ Original Prankster. ^_^

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