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[27 Apr 2004|02:13pm] |
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Go to my livejournal...i barely write in here anymore. well ever. it explains everything
www.livejournal.com/users/blackheartd
I love you andy
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| a lil thing |
[08 Feb 2004|12:23pm] |
Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
1. i talk too much.
2. i never do my homework.
3. i need to stop biting my nails
4. I need to be open with people and trust them
Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
1. a car
2. money
3. job
4. a boyfriend
Name Four Scents You Love:
1. adidas cologne for guyz
2. country apple
3. ralph lauren
4. cucumber melon
Name Four Things You'd Never Wear:
1. Tommy Hilfiger
2. Abercrombie
3. Hollister
4. preppy or ghetto clothes
Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. i wonder wen ill get a boyfriend
2. wat am i going to do tonite
3. i wonder if glass kitchen will call me
4. andrew
Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
1. showered
2. made a cd
3. talked to afton
4. cleaned out my inbox
Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
1. lunch
2. stash box
3. phone card
4. munchies
Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like:
1. Marilyn Manson- .
2. Wide Of the Mark
3. The Ataris
4. 3 doors down
Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. diet coke
2. pepsi
3. gatorade
4. powerade
Last Song You Sang?: Theory of a dead man-the last song
Last Person You Hugged?: hell if i know
Last Thing You Laughed At?: andrew being dumb in guitar class
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?: months ago
Last Time You Cried?: months ago
What's In Your CD Player?: a mix, fata, another mix
What Color Socks Are You Wearing?: white
What's Under Your Bed?: nothing.
What Time Did You Wake Up Today?: 11:30
Current Hair?: short black, longer in the front. not dun just down
Current Clothes?: sweat pants, and a tee with a longs sleeve shirt underneath
Current Annoyance?: i got to pee and i am cold
Current Desktop Picture?: blindside
Current Worry? i dont have a date for snowball
Current Hate?: my mom
Last CD You Bought?: fata
Favorite Place To Be?: e~town or B~lo
Least Favorite Place?: south carolina
If You Could Play An Instrument?: i am learning guitar, bass
Favorite Color?: Black, pink and red
Do You Believe In An Afterlife?: yes
How Tall Are You?: 5'3
Favorite Season?: spring or summer
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To?: jesse
Favorite Day?: friday nite or saturday nite
Where Would You Like To Go?: anywhere with friends
Type A Line You Remember From Any Book: ...
A Random Lyric: "i break in two over you"
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[06 Feb 2004|11:38pm] |
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i want to be amused
but some how i am confused
u jump back and forth
like their worth
something more
than just a cheap whore
i dont see it
why dont you just commit
not to them
but to the stem
its better this way
lless hurt and more play
wen your not in a dismay.
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[06 Feb 2004|10:23pm] |
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i lost my tears
within my fears
wen u riped out my eyes
so i cant cry
it made you happy
that im not sappy
this is so corny
i am glad ur not horny
textin my phone
to hear your tone
wanting me to bleed
so u can feed
on wats left of my soul
to raise the death toll
u want to be alone
so you carved me into stone
for now i am dead
so you can lie in bed
forever..
with my letter
but whatever...
the cornyness of boredness
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[02 Feb 2004|03:41pm] |
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IceyAbyss: mike said 'ilu' to me last night
IceyAbyss: cuz he read my dj about my burning the notes, and he kind of got upset, and we talked and when i said i had to go, he took like 5 minutes typing on and off, then said 'ilu'
IceyAbyss: i gave him a hug in shcool, seemed totally unwanted on his part and im just like 'fine, w/e'
IbRekNtooOveRu: omg wat a dick
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[31 Jan 2004|07:26pm] |
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IbRekNtooOveRu: punklverlvebites: did u ask him if i'm gonna see him?
IbRekNtooOveRu: no
punklverlvebites: r they almost donne?
ilovesk8rc: wow
IbRekNtooOveRu: yea i know its annoying
ilovesk8rc: tell her to find out her self damn u're not her bitch
ilovesk8rc: can u say obsessive.....lol
IbRekNtooOveRu: lol
IbRekNtooOveRu: punklverlvebites: but is he dont call me tonite, then its done
IbRekNtooOveRu: ok
punklverlvebites: but shhhhhhhh!!!
IbRekNtooOveRu: punklverlvebites: dont tell him k?
IbRekNtooOveRu: ok
IbRekNtooOveRu: punklverlvebites: i'm sick of dealin w/ shyt
IbRekNtooOveRu: yea
ilovesk8rc: tell her omg wtf
IbRekNtooOveRu: lol
ilovesk8rc: screw her dude he can do so much betta
IbRekNtooOveRu: punklverlvebites: i wanna be able to see my b/f at least 3 or 4 times a weekd
punklverlvebites: ya know
ilovesk8rc: damn he has a fuckin life
IbRekNtooOveRu: lol
ilovesk8rc: dude she's pissin me off so much it's not even funny
IbRekNtooOveRu: lol i have to here it and i just keep saying yea ok
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| the perfect man |
[27 Jan 2004|06:14pm] |
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1. Hair color - Black, dark brown, dark hair
2. Eye color - Really pretty blue or dark
3. Height- about 5'8
4. Six pack? - :-/
5. Long/short hair - long
6. Glasses? - Sometimes.
7. Piercings? - yesum
8. Chest hair? - No no
9. Buff or skinny - in between
10. Straight teeth, gap, or braces - lol preferably straight but w/e
11. Punk/jock/emo/sXe/goth? - i like the goth but i like the hXc i like those emo boys too
12. Funny or serious - Both
13. Party or stay at home - Both
14. Should he cook or bake? - if he s good
15. Should he have a best friend? - Yeah. .
16. Should he have a lot of girl friends? - y not.
17. Outgoing or shy - both.
18. Sarcastic or sincere - Both
19. Would he watch chick flicks? - no
20. Would he be a smoker? - Doesn't matter.
21. Would he drink? - Probably
22. Would he swear? - Yeah.
23. Would he pay for dates? - if he has the money.
24. Does he kiss on the first date? - Most definitely.
25. Where would you go to dinner? - italian resturant
26. Would he bring you flowers? - yea
27. Would he lay under the stars with you? - yes
28. Would he write poetry about you? - yes
29. Would he call you hunny, sweetie, or baby? - yes.
30. Would he hang out with you and YOUR friends? - yea
31. Would you hang out with him and HIS friends? - yea
32. Would he play sports? - no.
33. Would he skateboard? - yes
34. Would he snowboard? - yeae
35. Would he play guitar? - HELLZ ya.
36. Play piano? - aww yea
37. Play drums? - ...
38. Would he clean his room? - Nope.
39. Would he paint, draw, sculpt? - yea.
41. Would he sing for you? - Would be nice.
42. Use the word dude? - yea!
43. Use the word tight? - No.
44. What kind of car would he drive - a car
45. Would he put his arm around you or hold your hand?- Yea
46. would he dance? - umm if he wants lol
47. how often would you see him? - everyday
48. Would you want him to get you jewelry? - No
49. Stay up and talk all night long? - Definitely
50. Say I love you? - When he means it
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[26 Jan 2004|08:32pm] |
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well i did it again...i cut and dyed my hair second time this month. i really need to invest in a digital camera. cuz my disposable one just isnt cuttiing it...i still need to get it developed since the other time i did it. interesting. it looks cute now since i got a shower and actually did it for the first time since like last week some time i ususally just throw it up.well the length is just above my shoulders. i want shorter.
it snowed 8 inches and we are supose to get more tonite along with ice...i saw both jojo and josh today.er. :( i hate them lol. not really they just make me frustrated.
i like big pimpin guyz. i like the fact that if isee a cute boy i can make out with him if i want. :-/ but i dont want to be single forever!
im outerz
~*stePh*~
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[26 Jan 2004|02:58pm] |
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u dont control me anymore...
:(
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[24 Jan 2004|11:32pm] |
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wo0t we3t i am hyperish. i think my stomach hurts er? thats nice you say. er. dont ask its been a long day. i just want to get drunk.
o0o
Question!?
If it was the end of the world and you were going to die like in the next two or three days would you go out and get as many drugs and alchy and take all of them with your friends and just live up your last few days on earth or would you just sit back and die?????
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[24 Jan 2004|01:45pm] |
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i want some hot chocolate, and i need to get in the shower!
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[20 Jan 2004|05:46pm] |
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revenge is sweet :)
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[19 Jan 2004|07:37pm] |
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guess what????! i have a crush. wow. guess who...jojo
ok well as we all know its nigger holiday..hahaha. and blurty and livejournal are down for some goddamn reason that pisses me off. but whatever ill right it in here for now. holy shit i have exams tom. thats just lovely i have economics and i think music keyboarding. well hopefully ill pass economics. good lordy..so tyler {courts man} came over today...i cant believe this weekend has been outof control. er. so i called jojo to see if he wanted to chill but no answer he didnt answer for e either. damn player is out with lucrecia. and he said he isnt a player plz hunnie you made out with me on saturday night. and i am the biggest flirt in elkton. er and you have the rep. as a player, casey even said it. wen he thought we were dating. er...and hunnie you just dont invite a girl over to make out with her, and not like her like that..player. believe me i know what it is. i do it too. gReR. yea but the crush i had one you since the end of sixth grade is still there, and even though i made out with you..dont mean anything cuz i know i shouldnt get my feelings involved even though i have this crush on you. so er. thats how i look at it. i am dun dating ppl whats the point. why date in high school wen you can have mad fun. and hell i am having mad fun. wuh-eRd. plus jojo you are gangsta wigger. and i usually make fun of your type which i do anyway to your face. but ya know i am just fucking with ya. but for real i dont date gangsta they just dont appeal to me. its them hardcore kindof guyz. who listen to that heavy metal go to them shows beat the shit out of someone in the mosh pit. the guyz with the long black hair, and those dark eyes. ya know how it is. and you are the exact opposite, well sortof your hair is dark but short and your eyes are brown but you are the gangsta guy the gangsta guy that i usually cant stand. the player who goes around town and makes out with all the blondes and bad girls with gangsta attitudes..fuck them damn labels they can kiss my ass. lol. damn you and your rap music in your gangsta pimped out cavalier with the little thing on the back and your rims. ahaha.
so that explains what this hole thing was about this weekend. why i cant like jojo but i can. but i think there is a bigger problem at large what to do about kyle. i mean ya i like him, but it would never work. hes a punk boy, who is 15 {mind you i am 18} thats illegal. in my world anyway. i dont date anyone under 17. {{btw jojo turns 18 on thursday} kyle is cool he is a good friend. but his hole bus knows what is going on in his life and i really dont like that. i like to stay away from them crowds of ppl.
anyways...i realized if i am going to get married i want it by the beach and nothing will be white cuz er white means purity and hellz no i aint pure..but any way i cant see my self getting married. hello my longest boyfriend was maybe 2 months..but me and jesse it was like forever and a day on and off. but i dont count that. single is good. i like it alot. its fun and i have fun, but if that special someone ever asked me out. my answer would be a hellz ya. lol. but then again thats just me.
oh quote of the day: "its a niggerport nigger." me to a loser.
~*stePh*~
ok hoez...this is how it goes...rawk on!
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[18 Jan 2004|11:02pm] |
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IbRekNtooOveRu: im not coming back
xashesofvanityx: ...................................
xashesofvanityx: then i die
xashesofvanityx: oh well
IbRekNtooOveRu: why are you going to die
IbRekNtooOveRu: i thought you had a g/f
xashesofvanityx: what?
IbRekNtooOveRu: zybala told me you had a 15 yr old g/f
xashesofvanityx: ...?
xashesofvanityx: wtf?
IbRekNtooOveRu: i just heard what i heard
IbRekNtooOveRu: how am i supose to know if its true...
IbRekNtooOveRu: well is it?
xashesofvanityx: actually..
xashesofvanityx: no.
xashesofvanityx: so ha.
IbRekNtooOveRu: whats with the ha...
IbRekNtooOveRu: why the hell are you going to die
whatever...ya know what he had his chance with me its not my fault he broke up with me in the summer if he wanted me or even loved me then he would ve have never broken up with me. so whatever his fucking loss not mine. i am fucking serious. yea i am not coming back o well. ok maybe its for the better you know i cant live with my mom. if it was meant to be it was meant to be. but apparently not since i dont think he ever cared to begin with. so whatever.
i am sooo annoyed by everyone. i dont know. i dont even feel like tlaking about it whats the point.
its better that i got over him this way and not had to get over him if we broke up again...
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[17 Jan 2004|11:44pm] |
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i made out with jojo!!!!
dude i have had acrush on him since like the day i met him. fucking end of 6th grade-until now. eeeeeeee
omg guyz omg. even while we were making out i said it was weird. he is the biggest player, and i the biggest pimpette. dude my phone just kept having all these texts the entire time. gR
the bestest part was wen he got mad (he said he wasnt pissed but i know he was hehe) he grabbed my face and kissed me eeeeee.
i might just have to wake court up...
but this is all professional. no feelings just kissing and stuff..
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| and this is what is going on... |
[16 Jan 2004|10:07pm] |
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well tonite is pretty good pretty calm and relaxing before straight up stuff, ya know you need a day to rest and then go and party again weRd. yea i watch bad boys 2 and freddy vs. jason. they are both really good.
school was ya know the same old stuff la la. ppl being pains ppl being dorks ya know how it is.
yea i got the weirdest text today..right i was sitting there watchign bad boys 2 and of course i get a text and it goes whats up and then it had a number i was like uh ok i dont know who this is so i didnt answer it, then i get another one and it said it was jojo. i was like weRd. what does he want. he wants me to come chill or something. i dont know sumthing to that affect. interesting. i think he may be looking for ass. just like the rest of the assholes out there. yea you know who i am talking about, you only want to talk to me when you want some ass or some shit. or when you are feeling lonely and have no girls. ya i see. but whatever.
so i am going to the ground floor tom. weRd i am trying to get afton to go and jojo. kyle is going to be there and e~dawg is taking me. weRd. jaundis is supose to play and i am making my self better by pillin me up. lol. so i should be straight by tom. so its all good. but if jojo goes then i dont know what is going to happen cuz kyle will be there. and i am getting worried. hmm and what if there is some cute boys i just want to make out with..hmmm i feel like a fucking whore damnit shoot me plz. lol.
yea but i am out of here for now. i think and hope.
~*stePh*~
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[16 Jan 2004|10:07pm] |
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well tonite is pretty good pretty calm and relaxing before straight up stuff, ya know you need a day to rest and then go and party again weRd. yea i watch bad boys 2 and freddy vs. jason. they are both really good.
school was ya know the same old stuff la la. ppl being pains ppl being dorks ya know how it is.
yea i got the weirdest text today..right i was sitting there watchign bad boys 2 and of course i get a text and it goes whats up and then it had a number i was like uh ok i dont know who this is so i didnt answer it, then i get another one and it said it was jojo. i was like weRd. what does he want. he wants me to come chill or something. i dont know sumthing to that affect. interesting. i think he may be looking for ass. just like the rest of the assholes out there. yea you know who i am talking about, you only want to talk to me when you want some ass or some shit. or when you are feeling lonely and have no girls. ya i see. but whatever.
so i am going to the ground floor tom. weRd i am trying to get afton to go and jojo. kyle is going to be there and e~dawg is taking me. weRd. jaundis is supose to play and i am making my self better by pillin me up. lol. so i should be straight by tom. so its all good. but if jojo goes then i dont know what is going to happen cuz kyle will be there. and i am getting worried. hmm and what if there is some cute boys i just want to make out with..hmmm i feel like a fucking whore damnit shoot me plz. lol.
yea but i am out of here for now. i think and hope.
~*stePh*~
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