GLOBAL_HEAD<= A Jet Black New Year's Journal - 14th January '04
...Tell Me Why This Still Hurts...   
09:07pm 14/01/2004
 
mood: blah
music: Atreyu - Ain't Love Grand?
i've been sitting here just to think about,
how it drives me crazy just to see you smile.
-How it makes me feel alive,
when your hand is in mine.
I once had a habit of saying no to hope,
but now i seek it.
I sit here to look at our picture,
and I can get lost in it.
-My own smile often reflects back at me.
i now know, that time never lends itself to love,
because i miss you terribly.
and all i would like, is the will to get out of bed.
the hours pass by like minutes when i'm with you,
now, the minutes pass by like hours in the rain.
i wish i could just stand in the sun forever.
i've learned so much in so little time...
the sun can be shining, and I just won't see it.
realizations of the blackening suburb, and the pain it brings,
but yet i remain, because you're here with me.
...i would rather get away from here, and watch the ocean waves all day long...
and see the sun shine on your smile.
now, i just sit here to stencil my name in the sand,
and watch the water run over it.
its the present that has proven best to overwhelm me.
with my head up, i can see the dunes in the distance,
the mirrored-surface of the water,
and i know that we're almost there.
-and the breeze will take us in with open arms.
the tops of trees are on fire,
and tonight these torches will give us light to see by.		  
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...How Long is the Night - Thursday   
09:40pm 14/01/2004
 
mood: cold
music: Thursday - A Hole In The World
If we run far away do you think it will ever die?
We'll throw these books in the fire
Can you stop the train?
Cause it some delay?
The change machine lied
And it's too late to scream

How long is the night?
It's never over
The ribbon was tied
But the card was never read
The ribbon was crimson
The color of the night

Can you see the handwriting on the walls
And on the autumn leaves that fall?
"What are we gonna do?"
The trees are giving up on us
The needle and the thread
Won't stitch us to the branch
And the night never ends

I will never sleep again
(I will never even close my eyes)

If the sun is on its way
Then what we have will never die
And we'll follow these tracks to the sight
Now the lungs collapse
And the air is getting thin
All breath expired
Is it too late to heal?

How long is the night?

It's all I ever see anymore
But the day was so bright in the pictures
In the photo album that you gave me
It's all I have to live for

I'm falling down
I'm falling down
And you're there to break my fall
I shut my eyes when you're not around
I hold my breath to kill the sound
I'm falling down
I'm falling down
And now you're not here to catch my fall
I shut my eyes when you're around
I hold my breath to kill the sound
I'm falling down
I'm falling down
And you're not here to catch my fall		  
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