A Jet Black New Year's Journal

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...Operation Bernice Chen

05:39pm 23/12/2003

mood:

crazy

music: cross my heat- secret to tell

ok, for those of you who have read steph's entry on the operation, read this entry for an overview from "the man inside the box."

The Preparation:

i arrive at school at 7:25, 10 minutes late from the time i was originally supposed to meet steph. she greets me by a dark doorway in the hallway, and annette emerges from the shadows with our instrument of mass emotional destruction: A cardboard box from Today's Kids in Mill Creek Mall.

after running through the halls to find a christmas hat with no avail (because i realized i forgot mine), i grabbed indra's and met up with steph and annette once again.

Tales From Inside The Box:

Next, after testing out numerous possible positions in the box, i chose the most comfortable one and let steph and anette load me in. after getting in, they handed me bernice's lollipop boquet that i would be giving her shortly. annette, steph, and chasun then proceeded to wrap me.

they rolled the flatbed down the hall, and into numerous lockers, tables, walls, and what have you. half way down the hall, they were greeted by mr. imprev, who didnt even seem to be slightly worried when a box was saying "Ow" and "It's hot in here guys." i was seriously sweating bullets. it was soooooo hot.

we get up to the classroom, and bernice was scared to open the giant package, and i was ready to scream. the more time she took, the more i would sweat. she finally reached for the paper, and i jumped out and scared the daylights out of her.

i then screamed merry christmas bernice!, and jumped out of the box, and gave her a big hug and a kiss.
hehehehe....i was always a true romantic. j/k, j/k

: (
sorry for those of you who were looking forward to me doing it my underwear. i was going to, but then was told i would be suspended if i tried it. i wore the coconut onderwear and everything guys!! im so sorry.
: (

(2 Understand | In A Crash )

...A Whole Week Jammed into one Entry

09:41pm 19/12/2003

mood:

content

music: This Day Forward - Fragile Version

...this week was the standardized testing in school. crazy stuff. these "proctors", which i like to "dictators" still read the processes and directions to you as if you were totally braindead. its hilarious having these people stand in front of you and bark orders to the entire student body. not only that, there was one of them who took a particular disliking to me, despite the fact that she didn't even know me personally. after asking to go to the bathroom DURING BREAK, i was declined! then, it turns out that no more than 30 seconds later, others were granted "access" to the lavatories..haha.

tuesday nite was the winter concierto, which went well. i ended up missing one of the songs i was supposed to filling in for, because the other snare drummer was sick. i managed to sneak onto the stage and play the last 3 measures! at the end of the swing number we did, i threw in my "Thank You Secaucus" ending...haha. you know...the one where i end the song like it's a 1975 Stadium Show. haha.

today was the concert in school, and while playing congas for the chorus, i fell out of time because the feedback from the speakers almost knocked me over...oh well. it wasn't the actual concert, so its all good.

today was also the utterly pointless trip to Allied Junction...enough said there.

after this little shindig, i went to Pizzeria Uno with lenny and paul, and then we went to herbert's and played some air hockey...loads of fun. while in Pizzeria Uno, we also ran into Adam.

..peace kids..

(2 Understand | In A Crash )

...Stream of Consciousness

11:04am 14/12/2003

mood:

creative

music: Thrice- Stare at the Sun

hey guys. sorry i haven't updated for a while. to put it simply, there really hasn't been much worth writing about.
i've just basically been hanging out. my sponsors have been trying to contact me, and i wouldn't dare tell them that I haven't skated in nearly 3 months. its strange, because i just had to time to do it anymore, and then it eventually evolved from doing it seldomly, to not doing it at all anymore. i dunno, its all good.

so..i take it you all heard about saddam? if you haven't, he's been captured. i dunno, somehow, im not thinking this is a good thing. people like saddam always have others that work with them, who are possibly more powerful. im in high hopes that nothing terroristic comes of this capture. its a shame that we have to live this way. it would be great if everything could just mesh together, and people actually got along. its a fucking shame that a sixteen-year-old kid can take the time to consider peaceful alternatives, while governmental figures unfortuately can't. don't get me wrong, im happy that Saddam has been captured, but our government has also made some mistakes in the past as well.

i've still been writing constantly. every chance i get, i sit down and put my thoughts on paper. later, i eventually transform these thoughts into a poem. choosing from several ideas and deciding which ones flow together, and which are appropriate for the occasion is the real time consumer. if you check out my name on http://www.poetry.com, you'll see some of my latest work for the week. i think i added two this weekend.

...anyway, something that's sort of profound that i was thinking about was the following: everyone has a different opinion about what true love is. if asked, the phrase "true love" strikes a certain significance in someone's mind. i'm sure everyone can picture a moment when they new that what they were feeling was real. its like a special moment in time that's on freeze-frame, and you can go back to it whenever you'd like to admire it. then again, maybe it was once something that brought happiness, but now brings pain. maybe it once brought pain, and now brings happiness. maybe it once brought pain, and still does. who knows? its a tricky thing.

...i dont know where this all came from. i've just been sitting around with lots of time to think of these things.

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

...Random
		08:39pm 09/12/2003
	added a new poem tonight. feel free to check it out and drop one to let me know what you think.
		( In A Crash )

...Some info

03:02pm 09/12/2003

mood:

content

music: Jets to Brazil - You're the one i want

hey guys. what's up? not much has really been going on. ive been writing a lot lately.
poetry.com has now published 10 of my poems, so when you have a chance, check them out and post on my journal to let me know what you think. i eventually want to have all of my work on there, so each time i add one, i'll let you guys know through my journal.

http://www.poetry.com

peace kids.

( In A Crash )

...Tree Lighting

07:49pm 07/12/2003

mood:

content

music: Thursday - signals over the air

hello all. i just got back in from the tree lighting. i got there an hour early, because i had to pick up paul, and it was freezing cold. i didn't really feel it that much though due to all of my layers. i came armed with my snare drum, and went and set it up, and as i waited for the performance to begin andrew, paul, and myself ate candy apples and hot cocoa. it was more of hot water with weird flavor as opposed to hot cocoa. the performance lasted all but 15 minutes, and it was kind of lame, but oh well. it's all good. right after it ended i took off for home. i am now warm, have food that isn't sugar-coated, and the hot cocoa doesn't taste fake. im now going to take some advil since i ingested chocolate and the allergic reaction is beginning... lol

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

...Random Conversation

02:15pm 06/12/2003

mood:

chipper

music: Dashboard - Again i go unnoticed

Thursday was May Or Yesterday's performance at the senior citizen's home. It was kind of a charity thing, which you all know. Well, where do i begin? we had a good performance and i even sang So Far Away by Staind, which actually sounded ok, but then diana and jack had to pick up a mic and sing to one of MY ORIGINAL SONGS that I WROTE. they were singing hootite and the blowfish lyrics to my song, and were without a doubt making fun of us. secondly, even if they weren't, it was extremely rude. but anyway, other than that, it went well. after our actualy set, we did a little sing along-type thing, and played some more.

during the christmas carols, me and steph were cracking up because "someone" smelled like fish-heads, and somebody else had B.O. (according to jon). i think they might have both been the same person...haha.
on top of this, during the carols some old woman was laughing like a coyote, and was laughing in such a high pitch that i thought my glasses would break. this also caused me and steph to laugh ourselves into tears.

yesterday was the trip to Jersey City to see the Scarlet Letter. there were only two props, no music, and the same 13 actors for the whole time. it was pretty funny though because we had a symphony of growling stomachs going on. somewhere during the second half i fell asleep and annette pinched me because i was snoring, and i woke up. me and adam couldn't stop laughing at fat mistress hibbins because she was undoubtedly thinking that she was sexy.

last nite was our snow-skating expedition. me, paul, and andrew got into an altercation with 5 7th graders because they were calling us vulgar names, and the got snow kicked their faces. paul then losthis cell phone, and we looked for it for an hour, and we couldn't get it back. andrew looked with us, and realized that he had to be home a long time before, and no doubt got in big trouble.

...haha. funny times.

(6 Understand | In A Crash )

...The Fever Chronicles Part II

12:51pm 02/12/2003

mood:

happy

music: story of the year-burning years

...well, today is tuesday and i havent seen school in almost a week. i've been having recurring fevers since saturday, and they're usually around 102 or 103. it sucks. ive been feeling like crap, but i feel much better now. im actually going to be in school tomorrow if my fever doesn't return. since saturday, i think ive slept for a total of 10 hours : (

daytime TV is utter trash! you have no idea what its like. people leaving girlfriends because they've turned gay and fallen for a transvestite and such. where is society going? people take too much pleasure for other people's
misfortunes.

anyway, deciding to play my guitar for 5 minutes quickly adds up to playing for three hours. i mean, i think its great that im spending so much time practicing, but its crazy.

another thing that fucking PLAGUES me is that i miss my friends. i haven't seen anyone in a week. and this everyone, is why im returning to school again tomorrow.

oh yea, they posted some of my poetry on poetry.com. if you go to http://www.poetry.com and type in my name, you'll find it.

: )

peace kids, see you tomorrow!

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

...Fever Update

07:39pm 29/11/2003

mood:

excited

music: brandtson - circa 1991

i have a fever, and the only prescription is more cowbell!
..haha..just had to throw that one in there. (blue oyster cult rocks!)

the fever has been broken !!!!!

nice huh ?

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

...Sigh

05:55pm 29/11/2003

mood:

sick

music: none

well, i have a 102 fever at the moment. how horrible is that? ive been freezing cold all day, and i slept for most of the afternoon. this sucks, because i have it for saturday. no hanging out with my friends tonite.... : (

..oh well. i gotta break this thing by monday.

( In A Crash )

...Gothika

10:48pm 28/11/2003

mood:

crazy

music: Dave Matthews Band - You Never Know

tonite was the trip to the movies with lenny and sylvia. despite the fact that Gothika was horrible, and anything that was supposed to be "scary" was computer-generated. oh well, i had an excellent time though. tonite was just what i needed. even though the movie was horrible, i was among good friends, and that made up for everything. tonite was a laugh-a-minute. in the theatre, lenny and i had a dance contest with two complete strangers, and i ended up busting out my robot and breakdance moves..haha. it was wild. i had soo much fun.
after the movies, we met up with tina, erica, and vanessa and hung out in Pizzeria Uno, where lenny and i snuck foreign food-stuffs into eachother's drinks. after this, we checked out "Cafe Sizzle!"..hahahaha !!!

..awesome nite.

( In A Crash )

...Brief change of plans

04:04pm 28/11/2003

mood:

creative

music: the rocket summer

ok, the release date for May Or Yesterday's EP is no longer monday. we are trying to shoot for a record release show this friday nite (december 5). dont worry though, the EP is in fact FINISHED and DUPLICATED. so the entire process is done, and firday nite you will have a fresh EP in your hand.

it will be:

May Or Yesterday (EP Release)
Ten AM
Palleus Athena ( Saddle Brook)
and RDX. (Ocean Township)

Others TBA.

As you can see, we have a pretty diverse line-up for you to enjoy.
sorry for the inconvenience...you're just gonna have to wait longer..lol.
check the M.O.Y web site for more updates on the show, or just talk to me.

http://www.mayoryesterday.vze.com

( In A Crash )

...EP

01:36pm 27/11/2003

mood:

content

music: the rocket summer

May Or Yesterday's EP is done!! Studio quality guys!!

4 songs, some that haven't been heard before. it is called "Leaves Fall Like Lives." and you can grab one for $5.
if u want one, post for me kids!

I also added a link to our web site on the top right.

( In A Crash )

...A follow-up to steph's entry

12:24am 27/11/2003

mood:

bitchy

yes, i toatally agree. this whole Made thing brings out lots of pathetic people into the social spotlight of school. The people that never speak to our "Made-ee" are in fact trying to become his best friends. People get interviewed about him and answer like know a few things about him. Well, to put it bluntly: "You don't." i dont think many of you can say that you've been chased into a bathroom ad trapped by a security guard while in his company...

whatever, i guess everyone in this world wants to be on MTV, and will stoop to any level to have their face seen on that utterly putrid network that is full of no-talent, loser, low-lives that call themselves "musicians" or "artists."
if pushing a play button on a cd player and looping drums grooves makes you an amazing musician, the music world is seriously in major trouble. whatever happend to people like myself and my friends that spend several years to become good at what we do? people like us that spend hours a day making music and writing songs?

sorry if the entry seemed a little strong...

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

...Show Review

11:46am 23/11/2003

mood:

chipper

music: New Amsterdams - the smoking gun

well, its sunday, i just woke up, and im up to my third cup of coffee. i never got a chance to write about the show with Ten AM on friday nite, so here it goes...

it started 14 minutes late, but i didn't mind. we had a group prayer (me, jon the drummer, and paul the roadie) before the curtain pulled. i got out on the stage, preparing to introduce us, and i realized that whoever set the mikes up did a shittyjob and mine wasn't working. we fixed the problem, and started to play. it wasn't until after the show that numerous people came up to me and told they wish they could get in front of a crowd like i can. they said that i talked to them like nothing was going on, and i can keep my cool very well. its funny to be on stage having a normal conversation with the crowd. it makes everybody confortable i think. it helps to develop an artist /audience relationship as opposed to "hey, someone's playing music, and im watching them." so now to the actualy performance part...

i introduced "Dreaming," a song that i played solo last weekend at Autumn Expressions. the drums make the song really. it sounds much better with them. next, i introduced "In Between," a song that i personally really enjoy to play. most of the chords are minor, giving it a heavier, more deep and full sound. the crowd seemed to really enjoy this one, almost as much as i enjoy playing it. and finally, i saved our best song for last. "Lost But Found" was the last on our playlist. this is the song that we are basically known for, and it usually seems to get some very nice feedback from the audience. so we threw it in last.

it was great to have so many people compliment us on our playing. its good to know that we have a good affect on people, and that they enjoy our music as much as we enjoy having them in the audience. we were told that they're going to want us back to do some other stuff which is awesome.

look forward to a few shows coming up in the future.
possibly one the day after thanksgiving, and one over x-mas break.

post one and let me know what you thought of the show friday nite!! : )

(2 Understand | In A Crash )

...Drama, Drama, Drama

09:16pm 20/11/2003

mood:

annoyed

music: Posion the well - loved ones

ok..here we go. apparently the lunch table is separating....pretty stupid. if somebody's upset, just leave it alone and let it blow over. im sick of being told that im always upset, or i have moods, and i depress people. is depression the topic of our lives these days? we're all going to settle it like adults too aren't we? people are going to run in all different directions, as opposed to sticking around and trying to help a friend, and putting stupid differences aside, people would rather put their own feelings first, and think that they are justified by paying attention to their own feelings of grief, when they actually have NOTHING to be grievous about.

i am predicting all the wonderful responses that this entry will recieve, and quite frankly, dont care. instead of writing about it in a journal, the problem should be addressed in an adult fashion, and can be talked out. instead, everyone needs to bitch through their blurty. we all know that gets us somewhere.

...whatever. feel free to leave any abusive comments you have up your sleeve.
if you want to surprise me, we can all talk about it.

(3 Understand | In A Crash )

...The Show

04:23pm 18/11/2003

mood:

content

music: Story of the year - anthem of our dying day

When: Friday night, november 21st
Time: 7:00pm
Who: May Or Yesterday (my band), Ten A.M., and Peter DeLorenzo(of the sopranos!)
Price: A $2 Donation
Other Info: email me at JuneSongDisaster@aol.com

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

...On With The Show

08:46pm 17/11/2003

mood:

bored

music: The New Amsterdams

sup kids? mr. c talked to me today, and asked if my band would play at something at the school friday nite. we're gonna be opening up for some comedian, who is on the sopranos. there is a possibility that 10AM might also be playing. so guys, please come out and support me, im only gonna play four songs, so it'll only take 15 minutes out of your night. ill feel less nervous knowing my friends are in the audience. if you need some info, either talk to me, or email me, or Im me, or whatever. i have a new drummer for the time being as well.

peace out. if you're gonna come check it out, PLEASE comment.
no one reads this anymore.

(3 Understand | In A Crash )

...reflections on our childhood

04:32pm 16/11/2003

mood:

crappy

music: The Rocket Summer - This is Me

the ring ceremony was last nite. i got to see some pretty embarassing pictures of myself as a child, and they even showed the one of me in the second grade when i was wearing indian warpaint. i guess everybody was pretty embarassed to see themselves as children. looking back on it, that moment now seems like it was so short. as a kid i always wanted to grow up, and couldnt wait to be the big man on campus. little did i know what it would really be like. back then times were actually fairly simple. i wish my only worry in the world was still about who would get picked first in kickball, or who would get to the jungle gym first to get their turn taking a spin on the spiral slide. now, everything has just totally turned upside down, and those care-free times have been snuffed out like a candle that's been burning for too long. nothing can last forever i guess, especially the good things. the tough times have befallen us, and they come with the territory of being young adults (or so i've been told, and now i believe it). all the thrills of being a child are like a twinkle in our eyes. a better comparison could actually be to a burnt out star. you know its gone, but it can still be seen.

( In A Crash )

...Together (my newest work. enjoy!)

10:29pm 13/11/2003

mood:

content

music: Story of the Year - Page Avenue

hey guys. this is my newest poem. post and tell me what you think!

Together -

led by the hearts of the north,
these two shall dance together.
two who were once lost souls in pain, lost for
walks in the dimness of their minds.
lost at one point, found at another, at the same moment.
-Beams of sunlight stream from my face.
Together we can paint the shorelines with your smile.
Unable to close my eyes, without saying goodnight.
Together, we can beat anything.
Together, we can take on the world.
This is not another writing of being lonely,
not another excerpt of being grievous.
-Going against any rhyme and reason that the
chronicles had once set for me.
-A part of me is now restored,
and i am now complete.
I can now smile while getting out of bed in the morning,
knowing i have something to look forward to...
-To share time with you-
the one who filled the hole in my chest.
The stars won't douse us in black tears any more.
Hand in hand- you make me complete.
Together, we can take on the world.

(1 Understand | In A Crash )

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