If you're gonna do some navel-gazing, at least make sure you have a funky belly-button piercing First things first:
A review (okay, a blog entry) that I wrote, plus photos that I took, got published on the web! I don't know how, but some fans of Ronn Moss (a.k.a. Ridge from
The Bold and the Beautiful) found a blog entry that I wrote about Ronn's September concert, and then they posted it onto their site. Which, of course, is very flattering and exciting. But! After I re-read what I wrote in the new context (i.e. published in Ronn Moss hyper-fandom-land), I felt REALLY BAD. Why? Because my review was not very nice! In case you didn't read my review when I first posted it on this blog, here are some choice things that I wrote about the esteemed Mr. Moss:
"The one thing that all the women (well, except for me) had in common was that they ALL LOVED RON."
"I found all this sex symbol stuff very amusing, because really, Ronn Moss is the exact same age as my Dad."
"Through pretty much all of the show, Geoff and I were giggling away. The performance was just so cheesy, and it was so funny seeing all of the women going nuts over Ronn. Ronn sang classic songs such as
You Can Leave Your Hat On, which was accompanied by his female back-up singers doing a striptease. Which I thought was pretty sexist and weird, considering the audience wanted to see Ronn naked, and not the ladies."
"Surprisingly, Ronn didn’t sing many songs from his new album- he mostly did covers. Which was a bit annoying, because I listened to his album about 3 times that day- something I would not choose to repeat again. However, for his finale, Ronn sang a song called
It’s All About You, which is from his new album. The chorus goes, “It’s all about YOU! Y-O-U!” The song sounds like motivational music for primary schoolers."
[To see the Ronn Moss review in all its glory, go here:
http://www.newssite4ronnmoss.com/misc/fanzone/14/1.html]
Um, hello? What was I thinking? Now, I feel so embarrassed! What if Ronn Moss reads what I wrote, hunts me down and gives me one of his menacing stares? What if a whole bunch of Ronn Moss fans find me and, I don't know, yell at me and beat me over the head with those special Ronn Moss pillow cases that you can only buy at the concerts? And, what if, when the fans attack me, they are all wearing those limited edition RONN MOSS G-STRINGS? Argh! But, jokes aside, I would hate it if someone wrote a mean review of something that I did. And yet, I have always sought to write with honesty and humour for this blog. So, what to do?
And, as you may have noticed, I have been writing INCREASINGLY MEAN things about other non-celebrity people in my blog! Sure, I keep their identities a secret, but still! If you knew me, you would put two and two together, and you would totally know who I am writing about!
So, why have I been so mean lately? Here are some reasons:
1. As you may have read before, I am currently experiencing a very dull and angst-ridden quarter-life crisis. This quarter-life crisis causes me to feel extremely bitter about most things in my life, and in particular, I am cranky about my lack of an exciting career, my lack of fame, my lack of money and the fact that there are heaps of people my age who are rich, successful and famous (e.g. Britney Spears, and also the ex-Miss Universe Jennifer Hawkins, who is a horrifying TWO YEARS younger than me!).
2. Because of this quarter-life crisis, I am constantly keeping SECRETS. And, because I have all of these secrets, I end up blabbing them on my blog! The pressure to keep my mouth shut is TOO MUCH!
3. I have noticed that people like it when you write mean things about other people, because then, at least they have someone
else to laugh at. I mean, why do you think celebrity gossip mags are so popular?
4. Certain events that have occurred in my life in the last few months have just been unavoidably irritating. For example: people keep promising me jobs and then taking them back; I accidentally dyed my hair orange and then had to spend heaps of money to fix it; and I have STILL not been discovered by a music producer as I hum to myself while working in my store (cos that's how it happens in Hollywood!)!
So anyway, I just wanted to let you guys know that I am going to try really hard to be less mean. When I first started my blog, I always aimed to write about things that would make people feel good about themselves, and would make people laugh. However, I also wanted to write in a way that was honest and real. I believe that I am still maintaining these principles, however, I know that sometimes, I have taken a few things too far. No-one likes mean-spiritedness- I mean, look at Kyle from
Australian Idol! I know that people who are in the public eye do expect a level of criticism for what they do, but once again, you can take that criticism too far. And I also feel that it hasn't been fair of me to write nasty things about regular people in my life. It's not fair that there are now readers out there who know all about the nasty actions of these people, and yet the people that I write about don't even know that I've written about them. I feel that lately, I really haven't been acting like someone who believes in God and Jesus. I've been so bitter about my life, and so jealous of other people. I've been really angry and resentful. I've been wanting things that are so fleeting and superficial, when so many beautiful and more important things are right in front of me. I've been praying a lot that I will change and grow up a bit, and I am going to make an effort to put my words into action, literally!
And, of course, I will fill you in more about the magic hat and other stuff once November rolls around! We are over our download limit AGAIN, so it takes ages to upload pictures onto the net! And you have to see the magic hat to believe it!
Lots of love,
Carla Gypsygirl xxx