| 10:25a |
one day to go, kind of
I'm almost finished! Yay! I have to get my printed pages bound tomorrow (Wednesday), so I'm at uni right now, waiting for my pages to print. It seems that everyone doing a design degree is here with me as well- so many people are printing out things. I think that I'll be in for a long wait.
I've never gone so long without sleeping properly before. I feel half decent, though. Everything's still a bit of a blur. I designed a little over ninety pages yesterday, and I have about five more to go. I spent the whole weekend plus Monday drawing and scanning and cleaning things up. I got this cramp in my right hand from doing so much work! Wednesday night is going to be so good- I'm going to have a huge sleep, and not get up until I have to. I'm planning a private party for myself on Thursday night. It's going to be quiet, and no one is invited except for me- I think that noises will still be making me jumpy. Mmmmm, a romantic comedy is calling me, I think. And I've been promising myself a pair of hot pink Converse hi-tops when this is over!
I've been working so hard on this project- it's insane. I'm a little disappointed in myself. The book is going to look pretty spunky, but I'm just annoyed that I let the over-achiever inside me take over again. I talk a lot about how much I've changed since high school, but so often I'm overcome by this desire to be the absolute best in whatever I do. A lot of people would think that that's a good thing, but I don't. Like, I think that it's a really good thing to try hard, but it's just so unhealthy in so many areas (physically, mentally, etc) to keep working 24/7 on something that isn't hugely significant. One positive thing, though, is that I am trying to change my over-achieving attitude.
I was looking out the bus window sleepily the other day, and my eyes fell on this lovely sunlit garden outside a block of flats, with bright green grass, daisies, roses and lavendar. And it occurred to me that no matter how hard I try, I will never be able to create anything as beautiful or complex as what God can create. How can I attempt to meet the majesty of a sky, or the vulnerability of a human being, or the scent of a flower? That was a really reassuring thought to me- it reminded me that God is ultimately in control, and that He's going to look after me. And He's made this world for us to enjoy. He is the provider of all that is good. And if He is capable of creating such wonderful beauty on this earth, surely I can trust Him to help me with my project.
Here's a list for your enjoyment. Spacegirl Princess Carla, heading back to see if the queue at the printing place has reduced somewhat.
Things I wish I didn't know:
> How little sleep I've had over the past few days.
> The names of the finalists of Australian Idol. I think my family is somewhat addicted to reality TV. Go Paulini! Or Cosima! Or Guy!
> How much my project is going to cost.
Thank goodness for:
> Eye drops.
> My discman.
> Derrick's CD's- I've listenend to all of mine to death.
> My family keeping things running around me.
> Friendly printers and binders.
> God (obviously).
Ways of pretending that not sleeping is something cool to do:
> Pretending that I'm like this famous actress or something, and I'm on this international promotional tour for my latest film, and staying up late is just something that I have to do because of all the travelling and my hectic schedule.
> Pretending that I'm a rock star, and that I stay up late because I have so many concerts to perform and parties to attend, plus I'm always hit with this crazy inspiration to write songs.
> Pretending that I've been out having fun all night, instead of sitting at the computer all the time.
> Pretending that I've actually stayed up late all night on purpose, and I'm experimenting with new ways of experiencing life. I think that Miro did that to make better paintings or something. Yeah, that's what I'm doing.
"Love is Elementary" stuff:
> Pictures drawn on the weekend: probably 100 or something.
> Megabites on the last CD I burnt: 625 or something (I get very vague when I'm sleepy).
> Pages in the book: 150 maybe.
> Days till binding: 1
> Pages left to design: 5 or 6
> People to thank if I get around to designing a "thank you" page (including Jesus): 11, I think.
> Weeks left till it's due: 1 and a bit. I think.
Random
> Number of girls I know named Rachel having engagement parties this Saturday: 2
> Most commonly consumed food items in the past three days: bananas, Jamie Oliver-esque spaghetti ("It's rustic," my mum tells me) and honey on toast
> Favourite songs of the moment: "London Still", The Waifs; "This Protector", The White Stripes; "Don't Mug Yourself", The Streets, "The Bold and the Beautiful", The Drugs. |