| 3:24p |
no gravity
I woke up this morning in a very bad mood. Which was quite annoying, really, because I'd spent much of the night before trying to shake it off. My major project had been frustrating me so much, that after class yesterday I found myself wandering moodily around the city, just trying to get books and computers and paper and romantic love (the theme for my project) out of my head. By the time I got home I was still annoyed, so I sat around with my sister watching "Home and Away" and reading all of her nice fashion magazines. I was STILL grumpy by midnight, so I stayed up longer to finish flicking through "Vogue". I hoped to awake the next day with my troubles washed away by sunshine and the blue sky (as Emma does in Jane Austen's "Emma"), but alas, this was not the case. I found my sister in the dining room, being very chirpy (which was excellent, seeing as she's been sick in bed for the past few days). She told me, "Here's an ad for that Fifties Fair we're going to on Sunday! And guess what, guess what? THE WHITE STRIPES ARE HAVING A CONCERT!" Even this news did nothing to stop me squinting my eyes and muttering, "I am feeling very angry. The major project is very annoying."
So I sat myself down, and I began reading through some of my journals from last year, and thought about everything that had happened in the past year-and-a-half. And that made me feel even MORE unbalanced. So I prayed, and I read God's word. He told me trust in his unfailing love, and He reminded me that he has been good to me (Psalm 13). He told me to persevere and to hope, because "hope does not disappoint us" (Romans 5:5). He also told me not to keep any records of wrongs that other people have done...and to always trust, always hope and always perservere (1 Corinthians 13). So often, I just want to give up being positive. But I like it how God always reminds me to keep making an effort to find joy in this life because He loved me.
Another thing I've been thinking about is this: if, all of a sudden, gravity was taken away, I believe that I would instinctively know how to fly. |