| 4:50p |
rock stardom, here I come...(well, i'd probably be more likely to be a folk singer, actually)
Today was my last first day back at uni. There's always a bit of a buzz happening on the first day back from holidays- seeing all of my buddies, looking at everyone's new hairstyles, anticipating the uni work coming up. My feeling of melancholy, however, quickly dissipated when the teachers began talking about what has been looming over every fourth year UTS Design student's head these past few months: the major project. Boy, were we freaking out! Teachers were promising that we'd hit brick walls, we'd want to commit suicide, that we'd change and grow and experience moments of great spirituality. "There is no escape from this," said Andrew, my supervisor. Chill, dudes! It's so not the big deal that they make it to be. Mind you, they had me whipped up in a bit of a stressed-out frenzy. I was sitting there, trying to breathe deeply, and asking God to help me through this time. Because I can't get through it alone. I've been praying a lot that God will help me to have a sense of perspective with this project. I really don't want to buy into the stupid "Succeed-or-Die" mentality that's kinda happening. And there's also this "Never-Sleep-to-Succeed" vibe happening as well.
I chipped my perfectly punky pink nails last night playing the guitar. My little brothers were sweethearts and bought me this gorgeous purple acoustic guitar for my 21st. I wrote this song on Tuesday night and kinda finished it last night, and I got so excited that I couldn't stop playing it! So my fingers on my left hand, where I hold the strings, are a little bit hurties at the moment. The song's called "Hey Valentine", and it's a friendship song. I wrote it with four people in mind: Jono, Scott, Ro and Meg. In the song, I wanted to encourage them not to give up being the sweet and generous people that they are, because they do such a great job of it. I think that there is a lot of sad, difficult and discouraging stuff that can happen in life, and I admire how these four people shine out such strong love and friendship all the time during dark moments. If I had an acoustic guitar here with me right now, I'd play it for you! I wish that I knew more than five or six chords, though, because that way I could write more songs. And they'd be better and more interesting. |