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alternative music's secret weapon
I have to admit that I've been in a pretty grumpy mood this evening. I have been at home for the past two days, working on the fashion thing, and I would dearly, dearly love to just go out and have fun with my friends. But alas, I can't! The fashion thing is due next Thursday, and while I'm not panicking, I won't have much time to do it next week. So I have to work on it now. I think I'm just feeling mentally and emotionally tired. So much has happened this semester, and the uni deadlines have been coming thick and fast in the past few weeks. Anyway, because I haven't left the house in two days, I decided to go for a jog this afternoon. After putting on my jogging outfit (it took a long time, because I had to take off a lot of layers), I walked past my mum to make my grand exit. "I am going to get some exercise now," I informed her. "In a thunderstorm?" she asked me. And it was true! Within the time I got changed and the time I left my room, a thunderstorm developed! I was too busy doing Bardot (the band, not Bridgette) moves in my bedroom that I didn't notice the rumbling of the thunder! I was so cranky about that, that I went off and had a shower. I don't know if that worked. I think that I just wanted to use my shampoo- that Clairol stuff- because it smells soooooo nice!
But then, all of these little things cheered me up. My sister came home, and we had a chat. I always love talking to her- she is so spirited and happy! Then, I trudged out of my room for dinner, to find SPAGHETTI on the table! Hurrah! Then my baby brother started painting a picture, and that was fun to watch him do it. And my Anonymous Friend (who I hope is Scott) wrote a funny message on yesterday's entry. AND THEN, my dear Ro Lo told me to visit this web address: www.carla.youaremyfriend.com. She had written all of this amazingly lovely stuff about ME there! She is such a sweetie! We have loads of good times together, and without her, I wouldn't be able to go out nearly as much as I do. She is awesome (though she never admits to it).
I think that God is so cool. He always cheers me up with little things. He knows me better than I even know myself- because He made me. Feeling human emotion can be pretty humbling at times. Like, I know how much God has given me- eternal life with him in heaven, for one- and yet I still get cranky when I can't go for a jog. I think God is really generous and gracious to forgive me for being so bratty so often. He just gives and gives and gives.
Avril Lavigne was on "Rove" last night! I really like Avril. During the summer, I totally wanted to BE her- I tried to dress like her a couple of times, but I felt funny not wearing anything colourful. Especially not wearing pink or purple- I feel happier and more like myself when I wear those colours. I even have to wear them around the house, otherwise I feel really boring and yucky. Also, dressing up as Avril was weird because she never wears skirts, and I never wear pants. So it felt funny wearing shorts and stuff. Probably the thing that was the most fun about dressing up as Avril was having people think that I was totally scary! Because I'm not! I'm really scared of people, especially strangers! Anyway, on "Rove" last night, Avril seemed to be really bored when she was singing and being interviewed. She also seemed so small and young. I was reminded of how she's only a little girl. It seems so weird how so much of the world wants to know her opinions of things, when she's only one small person out of so many millions and billions. Anyway, she was answering all the usual questions (eg. "Are you fake?" "Did you grow up in a church?"), and she seemed so quiet and disinterested, unlike so many of the other perky popstars (yes, Britney, I mean you). Then, she said that she really wanted to hold a koala at the zoo, and she was bummed that she didn't get to. Then Rove said, "That's why we brought one into the studio today!" And she totally perked up, and was like, "OH MY GOSH, NO WAY!" She was so excited and happy and animated after that, and was patting the koala while saying, "He's so cute! Is he high right now?" She had this huge smile on her face, which was unusual, because usually she's making her "I'm angry and I'm a rock star" face.
And that interview, dear readers, provided me with quite a philosophical insight: no celebrity is too tough for the allure of a fluffy animal. Not even Avril Lavigne, the toughest of all the pop princesses. |