| 2:06p |
saying goodbye...again
Just went to see Jeremy. Feeling better- yay! He actually really liked what I wrote, which is excellent. I'm still freaking out, though, even though there's a whole week to go. I think I just need to calm down a bit. Seriously, though, I feel really sick in the stomach and stressed all the time over this project. I really want to trust God with this, and know that He is going to look after me.
It's so funny- Jeremy keeps using words like "ambitious" and "innovative" and "different" when referring to what I've set out to do with my dissertation. I didn't mean for it to be like that, though! Seriously, I just intended to write an ordinary essay, but it's gone all strange. I'm really happy with it, though. I'm glad that God's helped me to come to the most creative outcome. I wouldn't want the dissertation to be any other way. It's just funny when you try to do something in a really low-key way, and it turns out all crazy (as usual).
Want to hear something sad? My parents' cafe, Rainbow Lorrikeets, is closing down tomorrow. I feel a little bad, actually...I've been on Planet Stress, and haven't really been able to keep checking up with how they're going. I don't think that they want me to ask them too much, though...they're not like me, like they don't go telling the whole world everything that's happening in their lives. It's really sad, though. Like this was my Dad's dream, and it's just a bummer that it didn't work out. But I know that selling the cafe was the best thing to do, because it'll be so great to have my Mum not stressed out all the time about baking cakes, and it'll be so nice for my Dad to have some time to himself. I'm really looking forward to my parents feeling heaps more relaxed. Hey, by the way, I'm sorry if this is the first time you (dear reader) have heard about this. It seems that there are so many things for me to keep track of in my life- all the uni projects, friends, churches, boys- that I forget to tell people other details. I have very mixed feelings about the cafe closing. I might have to skip class tomorrow to visit my Dad there on the last day. Hmmm. It's funny how the more you think about something sad, the sadder you feel about it.
11:16pm
So I was wandering around the QVB this afternoon, trying to find a present for my parents to cheer them up, and wishing that I didn't have to do what I was doing. Do you know what I mean? Like, I was really happy to be buying them a present- I love buying people presents- but I was wishing that the cafe wasn't closing and that they weren't sad about it. Even though I know that this is for the best. And I was feeling bad that the only way I felt that I could help was through buying them something. When I got home, I told Mum how I was feeling sad for them, and guess what? It turns out that something funny happened with the lease and stuff, so we're actually not closing the cafe for another week. How cool is that? I was really chuffed...it was like God was giving me an extension on caring for my family. Yay. Another yay is that Megsy called me tonight! I was beginning to feel really stir-crazy with my dissertation, so it was good hearing from someone who cares so much. I love having a best friend. I think that it's so cool that she knows exactly what is going on in my life! It's also lovely when one of your friends asks how things are going with a certain boy. I dig that. My, it's only a little past eleven, and I'm exhausted! All this stress is making me tired. Signing out, Spacegirl G. |