| 4:51p |
making memories
So that's definitely one project over. Our interdisciplinary group finally presented our shopping mall concept, "The Nook" to our class this afternoon. I have to say that I was a little sad to leave today...we were working so well together, and I really like everyone. It's sad that it has to end now. I didn't imagine that I'd feel sad about it...a lot of the time, I couldn't wait for the project to end! But I have really grown to love the people I was working with- Su-Wen and her passion for design, Marylea's constant encouragement, Lana's organisational skills, Pete's all-round loveliness. I find it really hard to say goodbye to people, and yet it seems that I'm doing it more and more often. Maybe that's supposed to happen as you get older, as you keep moving on and changing directions.
It was a lovely morning today- our little group was so excited to do our presentation, and relieved to have almost finished! While we were preparing for our presentation, we chatted and drank coffee and I ate my peanut butter and sultana sandwich in the cafe. There was this buzz, like the buzz I feel before performing on stage- where everyone connects in their excitement. When it was time to present, everything became rather serious- our classmates were looking at us quite solemnly! At times like those, I'm always pretending that I'm fine and not nervous at all, and I hope no-one can tell that I'm trying to breathe deeply and calm down. Getting feedback after the presentation was strange. So many people had been so enthusiastic about my illustrations, that it was quite a shock to hear negative feedback from my teacher. I felt a little bad, actually, because I was quite hurt by what she said, and I think that I acted a little defensively. But the group presentations were great. It's so funny- group presentations always give others this desire to dress like Destiny's Child- that is, all in co-ordinating outfits! And everyone was giving out food- we gave out cookies, two groups gave out chocolates, and another gave out popcorn and Chuppa Chups. I swapped my Vanilla Chuppa Chup for a Strawberries and Cream one. I get really nostalgic with Strawberry and Cream Chuppa Chups, because they hold strong memories for me- going to the shopping centre in Adelaide when I was around four with my childhood best friend, Ryan. He always had Choc-Banana, I think. I wonder where he is now, and what he is doing?
You know, underneath this sadness of leaving the group, I feel quite excited. I'm excited about functioning properly again- not having to do uni work almost every second of the day, and being able to chat with my friends and hang out with them. Getting to know people better. I think that there is a lot to hope for in my life at the moment. There's a lot of things that I'm excited about!
Okay, so next up: the Fashion visual identity thingy. Then the dissertation. Focus, Carla, focus! But how can I focus at a time like this, with so much sweetness and innocence and romance around me? When I just want to go running out in the sunlight, and at the same time stay in the same spot and talk with people who intrigue me all day?
10:28pm
Just before I go to bed for my beauty sleep...
I was e-mailing my beautiful pal Lauren, and I thought a nice happy list seemed like a good and healthy idea.
Things I like at the moment
> Washing clothes. It's so real and normal and sudsy! Though, judging by my washing basket, I haven't had a chance for that sort of thinglately.
> The idea of being quite ordinary. You know, waking up in the morning, sitting down and reading something with a cup of tea and cereal. Going shopping for lipstick. Playing with my little brother and helping him with his school projects. Hanging out in the city on a Thursday night with my best friend. All of this instead of waking up every morning and running around like a maniac thinking things like, "Zip discs! Fashion identity! The Nook! Illustrator! Target market! Parties! Six thousand words! JPEGS!"
> THE DONNAS!!!! The White Stripes, THE VINES (oooh, summer days and good old-fashioned artistic rebellion), Amiel, old school Madonna, old school Smashing Pumpkins!
> "The Gilmore Girls"!
> Romantic dreamers, haphazard arty types, style that's more it's-first-thing-in-the-morning-and-I-wanna-go-and-have-fun rather than well-considered-well-read-fashionista. You know who I'm talking about. Actually you don't, no-one does, really, except for Meg! |