Saturday, September 4th, 2004
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1:34 pm - wow! what a weekend...and its only begun
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wow! where to begin? last night was suppose to be a fun night for all. we all went to the football game. we were going to meet amanda's bf, nick was going to be there, kendal was going to be there as he is on the team. well amanda ended up not feeling the same way about james anymore and told him and felt bad about it and started crying. Of course James was now upset now too. Oh Justin ended up coming (and we pretty much found out he is gay). oh and at the begining this slutty as b**** dana as all over nick until tracie and i left and both amanda's kind of yelled at the both of them. well neways nick and i talked and i guess you could say i got over it. we held hands & stuff. oh and it was funny when we walked passed justin holding hands. lol. well anyways at one point i went with amanda so tracie could talk to nick bout asking me out. well it isnt goin to probably happen even though he does like me. because of freakin crystal.first of all she dont even like me. (which i kind of get but i think if anything i should be the one not to like her..but w/e) but i guess when they broke up she was like I know that ur just gonna be going off with JoAnna. ( i didnt know she said that). and I guess that kind of upset Nick. and he is just affraid of what she is going to do. so even though yea it was great cuddling wit Nick the whole night...but....at the same time I wanted to cry. I have really come to like him..yes...i have...and just sitting there knowing that we cant happen and stuff because of that...hurt...and i just wanted to cry. Then I felt bad about tracie. Because she was getting all upset and hurt and wanted a guy. and I just didnt know what to do. I want to help her...but I just really dont know what to do. what a psychologist im gonna be. :( and now...because when amanda, tracie and peggy went to mcdonalds really fast and I didnt hear the phone ring when they called me...tracie and peggy are pissed at me. and im so sorry. I really am. I would have answered the phone if I heard it. but it was prob because everyone was screamin because of the game and it was in my purse.
then when we get home. we talk to james and andy on the internet. boy were we feeling bad. and confused alot.
well yea. that is my weekend so far...and its only saturday morning on a three day weekend.
current mood:  crushed
current music: yellowcard
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1:32 pm - poem
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When I am sad
You're the one drying
all my tears
When I am scared
You're the one who is
comforting my fears
When I'm all worried
and stressed out
You're there giving me hope
When I'm all worried
and stressed out
you're there giving me hope
When I'm lost and confused
You're the one who helps me cope
When I'm lost and can't find the light
I want and need you
to be my becon, shining ever so bright
current mood:  flirty
current music: Stacy's mom
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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
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5:31 pm - FaLLiNg!
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hey u all! whats up?
I am like so totally falling for him again! it's driving me crazy! I even wanna go out with him now. HELP ME! am I CRAZY? and now...what if I get my hopes up like I did with Justin and I get hurt again. I hate getting hurt. It sucks so bad. But I guess in a way the feeling you feel while it last is worth it and you always end up learning something. I don't know...u all tell me what u think! love you all!
Love always,
JoAnna
current mood: flirty
current music: JoJo-Leave
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Monday, August 30th, 2004
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7:47 pm - What a CRAZY day!
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STRESSFUL! CRAZY! HECTIC! just some words to describe today...the first day of my senior year. they totally had my schedule messed up! they had me in us history h again instead of government...they didnt give me a forth period...and they didnt have french on my schedule. so i had to go third period to get it fixed. then they told me to come back forth period. so i came back then. didnt think it was gonna work out. that counselor yelled at me some...drove me crazy...but i finally got it fixed...then i had to go stand in this line in the office for bout half hour to get my new schedule printed...then i had to go to all my teachers and get them to resign the paper again. then i had an open fifth period so i didnt know where to go and when to go to sixth period. so i just stayed for both lunches! which was kool cuz i got to first have it wit amanda then tracie! bout only kool part of the day. but it ended up bein the right choice. lol. and then i go to sixth and its french...and she starts talkin all in french as soon as the bell rings. and im like great here we go. wtf is she saying? lols
but yea anyways that was my day and i didnt get to go to two of my classes. so i dont know if i got an assignment or anything. so i guess we will see.
well got to go.
xoxo
JoAnna
current mood:  stressed
current music: keys typing
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Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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9:35 pm - Can't Fall asleep
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hey everyone! its 9:35 and I was tryin to go to sleep as skool starts tomorrow and I wanted to get some good sleep since im not use to wakin up so early anymore...well it wasnt wrokin layed there for but 30-40 min and could not fall asleep. wasnt and still really not that tired. so im on here tryin to get my self bored so i get tired. lol. cant believe school starts in the morning! that is so nuts! back to the same boring schedule again day in and day out. fun! fun! lol
well i better go. talk to you all later.
love you lots
xoxo
JoAnna
current mood:  awake
current music: stacy's mom
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Thursday, August 26th, 2004
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10:06 am - take the time!
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Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and
tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.
And SMILE, even through your tears!!!!!
Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most
importantly, stay close to your friends and
family, for they have helped make you the
person that you are today.
current mood:  lazy
current music: yellowcard-starstuck
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
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7:47 pm - DARN IT!
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Guess what! Now I dont think Im going to the Hilary Concert!!!!!! :(
Man I got all excited for nothing! This totally bites!
Im getting my hair cut tomorrow morning. On Friday Im goin to the BBQ at school. Who else is going?
There was a bible club meeting at Alanna's house today...but I wasnt able to go though. :(
Im sure they will let me know what was said and everything though.
Cant believe school is starting in five days!!!
Nick called me today. We talked for a lil while.
Tracie needs to get ungrounded! lol. I wanna hang out with her! and oh trace...my parents said that was kool if thats what u decided to do...stay here after school till peg gets out of work...for the first two weeks of skool.
So just let me know if thats what ur gonna do for sure.
Well I better be going!
love ya lots!
XOXO
JoAnna
current mood:  disappointed
current music: I believe- Diana DeGarmo
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Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
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9:40 am - Poems
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CAN IT BE TRUE? 8/10/04
It's hard to hide
the feelings I have inside
keeping to myself
how lucky I am to
have so much wealth
not in money but love,
understanding and confidence
you brighten up my day
in the simplest ways
always saying the most
nicest and sweetest things
how can this be true...
no guy can be as
caring, sweet, and perfect
as you!
REALLY PERFECT? 8/21/04
Can he really be perfect
or is it really too
good to be true?
always making me
smile, laugh, and blush
brings me out of
my downs and
puts me up
romantic, sensitive, and sweet
thinks the world of me
treats me like
I'm the queen
such a goof, nerd and dork
loves to goof around
and have fun
a cuddler,
just like me
a mamma's boy
which is so cute
so smart and bright
is he really that perfect
or is he out smarting me
with his sweet, smart ways?
I don't know but right now
I'm loving it!
TRUE LOVE/YOUR HURT 8/21/04
You're hurting...
and you love so much
you rather continue
your hurt
-I understand-
-but-
can't stand seeing
you hurt and upset
getting all worked up
for one who
doesn't respect or love
who you are
you deserve so much more
you could get so
much more
actually getting love,
real love
-but-
-I understand-
You're hurting...
but you love so much
you rather continue
your hurt
current mood:  sleepy
current music: I will survive
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Saturday, August 21st, 2004
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8:38 pm - wow! Gross!
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i went to the desert breeze pool today with the neighbor girls i babysit. well there was like this guy around 40.
he came up to me introduced him self..shaked my hand...and was like i've been wanting to come up to u all day and meet you... then there was a silence...and he was like you live round here and i was like yea bout five miles and he was like oh i leave down the street and he was like those ur kids and i was like no neighbors and he was like oh u babysittin and i was like yea. and he was like well are u unattached or can i give you my number and we do something sometime. and i was like im sorry i have a boyfriend. and then there was like a silence and then i told hannah the older girl that i was goin to go on the slide...so i was like well im goin on the slide now so bye. and he was like well i just had to try at least i know now but yea he didnt bother me nemore. But yea! wow that was so gross, weird and so so wrong! I felt so uncomfortable. and like he really thought i was old enough to be their mom! yea right!
current music: yellowcard-ocean ave
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Friday, August 20th, 2004
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6:50 pm - BROTHERS SUCK!
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OMG! I am sOo PISSED OFF! I cant even explain it! He messed with my account! Now my music don't work! and he had it where anyone could get onto my account with out typin in a password! and all this shit. and so much more! OMG im am so angry! Its not even funny! and so since i was tryin to get it fixed....and had to be right back andy got off...the one person who would be able to cheer me up...and he aint on any more! God! My life sucks! and my mom is in a bad mood today! This all has just put me in a really really bad mood!
current mood:  angry
current music: none...wont work....bro messed with my stuff
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Thursday, August 19th, 2004
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11:39 pm - FalliNg FaSt!
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How can I be FalliNg so FasT?
I am not so sure. lol. but its so cool and fun. Im enjoying it. always smiling and laughing and turning read and gettin in a good mood! lookin foward to the days. what a great way to live life!
~JoJo~
current mood:  high
current music: im's
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2:40 pm - Today SUCKS!
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hey! today really sucks! im really down a lot has happened! and to top it off...derrik got his packet from school and i didnt! wtf is up with that! I better get it tomorrow!
I wish Andy would get on so I can talk to him. He always gets me to smile and gets me in a good mood. I really need him to get on. lols. I know Im crazy, but o well. This day just really sucks.
I cant believe school starts in 10 days! that is just nuts! and my 18th bday is in 40 some days. wow! time sure does fly!
have u ever gotten hurt
but that hurt
just helped you to
grow stronger?
made u even more
determined
to prove everyone wrong?
current mood: depressed
current music: Nelly-My place
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Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
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9:25 pm - Im SO EXCITED!
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OMGOSH! yay! I am probably goin to the HILARY DUFF CONCERT (for my bday...even though it is a month before). It will be my first real concert! and I love Hilary Duff! And if we go My best friend Grisel is prob coming with my mom and I. and my bro and his friend might come. and I don't care if they do or not...because if they do I'm still singing along! its for my bday so if I want to sing I can sing! lols. Im just so excited!
WHY NOT! WHY NOT TAKE A CRAZY CHANCE! WHY NOT DO A CRAZY DANCE!
lols. sorry! yea...we just have to double check with my dad to make sure he's fine with it! it is on sept 3!
xoxo
JoJo
current mood:  excited
current music: Why Not- Hilary Duff
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Monday, August 16th, 2004
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12:37 pm - Good Luck
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I guess Im just too nice and thoughtful for my own good. Because why I should care is beyond my understanding. but anyways...Please say prayers for Steven and let him have a safe flight home and that he doesn't get sick!
God, Please be with him on his flight. Let it be a safe one and let there be little if any turbulence so he doesn't get sick again. Thank you! Amen
current mood:  thoughtful
current music: My Everything-98 Degrees
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12:29 pm - Guys Suck!
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what can I say? I don't really like guys right now. I want to SCREAM! They all are really driving me nuts. All they care about is themselves and screw everyone else! Drives me completly crazy! But what can ya do? Not like you can really change them. Right? I guess I just have to learn to deal with them. lols. Im getting better at is I guess I just need to keep on improving.
Well I'll talk to ya all later!
love you!
XoXo
JoJo
current mood:  aggravated
current music: Behind Blue Eyes
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Friday, August 13th, 2004
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11:05 pm
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Hello you two! First of all I would like to say that I love you both with all of my heart and soul and I've been so lucky and blessed to have you as my parents.
The reason why I'm writing this instead of telling you is because I know I'll just start crying and won't be able to finish and say what I want to say.
I know you're only looking out for me, about htis college thing. but I want to tell you how I feel so maybe you can see it from my point of view. I don't want you to get upset or hurt but I just feel like I have to let you know this, otherwise we are going to just go on fighting because you don't know how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking.
You guys say... why don't you just go to UNLV for a year and save up some money. Well I wouldn't be saving anymore here than I would in Iowa. Because if I were to stay here and go for a year I would move in with some friends or live at the dorms. and by living here I would need a car right away too (unlike in iowa). The reasons why I would be moving out and not living at home isn't because I don't love you guys because I DO..it just all comes down to wanting and needing my independence. This is so hard...to find the words..because I love you guys so much and I know how sensitive you both are and I don't want to hurt your feelings And/or make you think you did a bad job at parenting...because you haven't! Not at all. You guys have done a great job. And that's just it. You did do a GREAT job! I am very smart girl who knows right from wrong, who shows manners, and is a lot more mature than others my age. Yet...I get tied down... like a chained up dog. And Dad... even though you have done such a good job with me and you know how much determination I have.. you still dont' have faith in me. I'm just anohter stastistic to you, one who will fail if I don't listen and do exactly everything you say and want. And that really really hurts me. but you know what that also gives me even more determination and faith in myself to prove you wrong. That I can suceed on my own with out you and/or mom doing everything for me.
I've worked so hard in school, so I could go to the college of my choice and follow and achieve my dreams. And you both have always told me to work hard and never give up on my dreams. Well I don't really want to wait around for Derrik again... I want to get on..do what I need to do and achieve my dreams. And one of them is to go to ISU! When I visited there, I just felt it...it was the right place for me. Some reasons why I want to go to Iowa State are:
Independence, on campus jobs available, cyride which means no car; so no car payments, no insurance, gas etc, $300 for food plus mealls (buffet), no rent (because planning on getting lots of scholarships, grants, and if I have to loans), very green/beautiful campus, close to family, good psychology program, church close by, nice dorms, creative writing classes, lots of clubs and activities, % off of a computer, nice people (students and administrators).
So if you can't tell I'm like so in love with the school. And I know it is the right thing for me. And I'm excited to be able to do things on my own, and actually being able to do things because I won't be tied down and being treated like a little kid instead of an adult.
I hope that you guys can understand a little bit more why I feel like I have to do this. I hope I didn't upset you guys. And I hope you know that I love you guys so very much. And I appreciate you raising me so well and for bieng such great parents.
Well I will let you guys go! Just reamember I LOVE YOU SO SO MUCH! FOR ALL MY LIFE, FOREVER!
Love always,
JoAnna
your daughter
current mood:  tired
current music: my keys typing
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12:09 pm - U guys DONT have to worry
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hey guys! to you all who worried bout me and likin a certian someone you dont have to worry bout it! It aint going no where! Nothings gonna happen! It cant happen! He has a g/f! How did I know that was going to happen? so dont worry it aint going anywhere even if I wanted it to.
love you all!
XoXo
JoAnna
current mood: crushed
current music: KC & JoJo- When I see you Smile
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Thursday, August 12th, 2004
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4:04 pm
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Name: JoAnna
Birthday: 10-4-86
Siblings: Tawnya, Chad, Derrik
Pets: Lassie-collie
school: Sierra Vista HS
Grade: Senior
Hobbies: writing, helping people, singing, listening to music, basketball, football
~FAVORITES~
ftball team: Miami Dolphins
bktball team: Lakers
Baseball team: Yankees
Color(s): Purple, Pink
Sport: Basketball and Football
Subject: Pyschology and English
Realative: Sister
TV Show(s): 7th Heaven, One Tree Hill, Everwood, Full House, Boy Meets World
Reality Show(s): Big Brother, Newlyweds, Survivor, American Idol, and Star Search
Soap(s): Young and the Restless and Bold and the beautiful
~FRIENDS~
Best Friends: Grisel, Tracie, Amanda, Laura, Nick
always make u smile: same as above
sweetest: Grisel
smartest: Peggy
hottest: Justin!
funniest: Nick, Amanda, Steven
broken ur heart before: Scott, Justin, Steven, Josie
preppiest: Grisel
popular: Peggy, Grisel, Nick, Tracie
Prettiest: All
Honest: Grisel
Most in common with: Grisel and Justin
love: all of them
current mood:  bored
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3:24 pm - so happy im crying
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Ive been thinking of someone a lot lately. Missing this person so much. Wanting to see them soon! I got some contact today and I started crying! I missed it so much! I knew I did, but not until today, did I know how much. I don't know why I do so much but I do. Am I crazy? Maybe. Maybe not. I just want to hug this person so tight. feel happy, safe, and love. I know mostly everyone dont understand it and why I feel the way I do. Sometimes I dont even know myself. I just cant explain it. Its really always been there. Never really ever completely going away.
current mood:  loved
current music: Billy Ray Cyris
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Sunday, August 8th, 2004
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11:40 pm - poems i have written
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Why I love you
Your eyes are
so beautiful
their mixed with
blue and green
like an ocean
or a lake
your smile is so
amazing
you smile and then I do
this is why
I love you
When I see you
I'm happy
When I think of you
I"m in my own World
This is why
I love you
You are so nice
and seem to
really care
about me
we share so many things
we are like in
so many ways
but then we have
our differences
so we're never bored
this is why I love you
even though my
heart is racing
when I’m with you
I’m completely comfortable
these are the
reasons why
I love you so much
SHE LOVES YOU TOO
I can see it in your eyes
I know it hurt you when you said good bye
These feelings came out of the blue
Who would have knew
That junior girl
Who’s name started with the letter J
That you loved from the start
Would love you too
OPEN UP
Open up to me
show me how
you are feeling
let your emotions
run wild
we can run together
open up to me
let your feelings
run free
Let me know
I'm not alone
not the only one
feeling this way
Open up to me
I promise you
It'll be fine
I promise
It'll be great!
current mood:  confused
current music: burn-usher
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