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lonely, bored, waiting for mandas mom [06 Mar 2004|05:52pm]
[ music | off glass - trina ]

001)you start this? 11:05 pm
002) Name?: Sierra
003) Date of birth?: january 28th
004) Sex?: girl
005) Height? 5'6?
006) Eye color?: green
007)Weight?: get real
008) Location?: Port Orange, FL
009) Where were you born?: baltimore, maryland

010) Do you have crush on someone?: a lil more than a crush
011) Do you have a bf/gf?: yea
012) How long have you been together? forever it seems
013) What are you wearing right now?: boy shorts / sports bra
014) Would you have sex before marriage?: already have
015) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? no

016) Are you a virgin?: guess again

017) Do you smoke?: yes
018) Do you drink?: yes
019) Are you ghetto?: sure?
020) Are you a player?: ;)
021) What are your favorite colors?: pink =]
022) What is your favorite animal?: dont know
023) Do you have any birthmarks?: nothing noticable?
024) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: nope
025) Have you ever beat someone up? hah
026) Have you ever been slapped?: yes i have
027) Do you get online a lot?: lately
028) Are you shy or outgoing?: outgoing!

029) Do you shower?: lmfao yes i do
030) Do you hate school?: yes
031) Do you have a social life?: nope
032) How easily do you trust people? very hard
033) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? yes
034) Would you ever sky dive?: yes
035) Do you like to dance?: yes
036) Have you ever been out of state?: yeah
037) Do you like to travel?: roadtripp =]
038) Have you ever been suspended from school?: yes i have
039) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: very very soon
040) Are you spoiled?: yes
041) Are you a brat?: yes
042) Have you ever been dumped?: no
043) What's your favorite drink?: lemonade
044) Do you like Snapple?: yes i do
045) Do you drink a lot of water?: but i should
046) What toothpaste do you use?: colgate
047) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: no
048) Do you have a curfew?: no
049) Who do you look up to?: nick, hes tall
050) Are you a role model?: to who?
051) What name brand do you wear the most?: ambercrombie probaly

052) What kind of jewelry do you wear?:gold or silver? whatever matches
053) What do you have pierced?: ears, belly, nose

054) What do you want pierced?: clit, tongue, tits
055) Do you like taking pictures?: yeah
056) Do you like getting your picture taken?: fa sho =]
057) Do you have a tan?: gettin there....
058) Have you ever started a rumor?: yes im bad
059) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: dont need one
060) Do you have your own pool?: sure dont
061) Do you have any siblings?: lil brother

062) Do you prefer boxers or briefs? thongs =]
063) Have you ever been played?: ive been the one playing...

064) Have you ever played someone?: uh huh
065) Do you get along with your parents?: lately
066) How do you vent your anger?: many many ways
067) Have you ever run away?: no i get kicked out =/
068) Have you ever been fired from a job?: never had a job
069) Do you even have a job?: no
070) Do you daydream a lot?: too much
071) Do you have a lot of ex's?: nah
072) Do you run your mouth?:very much so
073) What do you want a tattoo of?: nicks name, his dc number, something else on my back, cross on my neck, something on my hip?
074) What do you have a tattoo of?: nothing yet
075) What are your favorite flowers?: pink roses
076) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: like my nick
077) What does your most recent crush look like?: like my nick
078) Have you ever been bitched out?: yeah
079) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: today
080) Are you rude?: sometimes
081) What was the last compliment you received?: i dont know?
082) Do you like getting dirty?:mm yeah
083) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: innie thanks
084) Are you flexible?: somewhat
085) What is your heritage?: lots of shit
086) What does your hair look like right now?: up messy and highlated
087) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: def. no
088) Describe your looks?: tall, blonde, white girl
089) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: HOT PINK
090) Would you ever date someone older than you?: i am
091) When was the last time you were drunk?: at katies like 3 weeks ago
092) When was the last time you went on a date? hungry howies when my mom kicked me and nick out

093) Would you rather give or receive oral sex?: recieve =]
094) Have you ever given? .....
095) Have you ever received? fa sho!
096) Have you ever had an eating disorder? maybe
097) Do you have one now?: no
098) How many rings until you answer the phone? i dont know
099) Have you ever been skinny dipping?: yes
100) Do you look more like your mother or father?:mommy
101) Do you cry a lot?: lately
102) Do you ever cry to get your way? naw
103) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: ...uhhh id die
104) What phrase do you use most on the phone?: "what??"

105) Are you the romantic type?: a lil
106) Have you ever been chased by cops?: yes
107) What do you like most about your body?: legs?

108) What do you like least about your body?: hair
109) When was the last time you threw up?: awhile ago
110) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? darkkkk hair
111) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: reeboks

112) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: yes
113) What about cleavage?: sometimes
114) Is your best friend a virgin?: no
115) Have you ever fucked someone up?: yea

116) Have you ever been fucked up?: not that i know about
117) What color are your underwear right now?: green
118) What size shoe do you wear?: 8
119) What jewelry are you wearing now?: none
120) What is your screen name on AIM: SoOo0juiCy
121) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: NO
122) How are you feeling right now?: entertained [ on the phone with amanda ]
123) When was the last time you were at a party?: desert inn, FOREVER ago
124) Have you ever given a lap dance?: yeah
125) What do you sleep in?: nude =] just kidding
126) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: many
127) What is one of your bad qualities?: i come across as a bitch for some reason?
128) What is one of your good qualities? i got your back
129) Would you marry for money?: hah and then divorce
130) What do you drive?: nothing
131) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: mama
132) When was the last time you cried in school?: i dont know
133) Do you wear Chucks?: say wha?
134) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy? wouldn't you??
135) what's your favorite songs?: ill always - trina
136) What time are you finishing this?: 12:49, i took my time

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[24 Feb 2004|06:10pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | dont trust no nigga*khia ]

~*~* SuRvEy ~*~*

do you type really fast? - basically

does it annoy people who are around you (like in the library)? - my mom tells me it annoy her - but i dont go to the library .... so who knows?! lol

do you/did you like high school? - i went for 2 months...now its riverview learning center for me and that shit isn't exactly off the chain

how old are you? - 15

do you know anyone who has the same birthday as you? if so name them - yeah some quier

favorite pen color - pink

what word do you constantly misspell when typing? - all of them?

do you have trees in your yard? - yeah

name one comedian that everyone thinks is funny but you absolutely cannot stand - that lesbian ellen whatever her name is - not like i care - lol

name one director you hate and tell why - dont know, dont care.

do you like tim burton? - whose that?

what annoys you more than anything? - gits, people talking about shit they have no clue what your talking about, bad listeners, people who try to hard

tell me about the weirdest pair of socks you own - blue striped ones that come up to my knees

if you woke up tomorrow morning as the opposite sex, what would you do first? - enjoy not having emotions <~~~ keeping that answer too

did you read fear street books? - no

how about sweet valley high? - hah no

babysitter's club? the boxcar children? - when i was like...7

goosebumps? - again, back in the olden days ha

favorite show on nickelodeon (can be from the late 80's/early 90's when nick was good) - Salute Your Shorts!

did you watch are you afraid of the dark? - i think i remember that

did zeebo the clown scare you? - i hate clowns :-x

where do you vacation every summer? - naw

do you like the beach? - i love it

do you tan or burn easily? - I burn but it turns into tan like the next day

do you make up your own words and lingo? if so tell me about it i steal shit from tv and pretend im cool =]

do you eat lots of tv dinners? - no not really ... lol

favorite hot pocket flavor - the chicken and broccoli

if you could make one celebrity magically disappear, who would it be? -

how is life treating you? - ive defiantly been better...everythings fucking up, all at once.

do people like you? - some, who can handle me =]

what do you think it is that makes the "popular" people popular? - uh? who cares? just do what you do and have fun.

what do you wear the most: jeans, cords, dickies, khakis, skirts, or shorts? - jeans

are you using a pc or mac? - a pc

do you like chunky peanut butter? - yeah

what amazes you about the opposite sex? - theyre all the same no matter how much they say thier not.

are you in love with anyone? - yes

do you like anyone? - yes

if so, who - NICK <3

why do you like them/why are you in love with them? - i wish I knew the answers to those questions! lol

favorite cereal - fruity pebbles

name a movie that makes you cry -Gone With The Wind

what's something you like about the opposite sex, physically, that your friends think is odd? - teeth!! lmao

is it true that only the good die young? - sometimes

if so, are you going to live forever or die soon? - whatever man, just let me get all my partying out of the way

do you live for today? - thats all thier is...and its all that matters

how fast can you run? - normal speed i guess?

favorite band from the 60's/70's - cheap trick

have any of your friends had kids as teenagers? - yeah

did they finish high school? - some

favorite 80's television show - the wonder years
were you even born in the 80's? - yup - 1989
what year? - 1989 ... lol

have you ever taught a little kid a curse word? - not on purpose! lol

if so which one was it? - probaly fuck knowing me
do you think little boys are horrendously ill behaved? - not all of them

have you ever thrown anything at a moving car? if so, what? - i dunno?

name a villian in a movie that scared you when you were a kid - the wicked witch in the wizard of oz...im a dork!

have you seen the original friday the thirteenth? - yeah

the original chucky? - yeah

the original halloween? - yeah

what's your favorite channel? - BET, WB, MTV

what do you say when you stub your toe off of the corner of the coffee table? - FUCK OW

what's the highest thing you've ever jumped off of and landed unharmed? - tree, fence, etc..

does it snow where you live? - it did...once

if yes, do you go sled riding? - no

have you ever used anything weird, like a frisbee or a trashcan lid, for a sled? - no

how many people do you know who were born in november? - i dont know

what month has the most people you know born in it? - i dont know

do holidays make you festive? - i try, but i dont come close to amandas family <3 lol

magazines you subscribe to - Cosmopolitian

do you read the supermarket tabloids? - yeah theyre funny

have you ever smashed somebody's halloween pumpkin? - yeah

ever had yours smashed? - nope

do you celebrate christmas? - yes

if not, do you still watch "how the grinch stole christmas" when it comes on television? - yes

do you think the grinch movie starring jim carrey was a waste of money? - it was okay?

ever had a hot teacher? - we had a hott intern

if yes, did you flirt with him/her? - i was 11, but yeah

how do you treat people you are attracted to? (this is not a stupid question; some people are immature and are mean to those they like) - ill fuck with them

what do you want for your birthday this year? - lots of things
have you ever egged somebody's house? - yeah

has someone ever egged yours? - nope

do we all go a little mad sometimes? - yeahh

what pisses you off more than anything in the world? - people not understanding me

do you still go trick or treating? - no

do you believe in santa claus? - no

have you ever worked in a supermarket? - no

how about a restaurant? - no

if yes, do you agree with me when i say that those are the two worst establishments to work in? - no answer

what color is your bedspread? - i got a white one, and a blue/purple one

do your eyes change colors? - yeah

do you believe that we walked on the moon?- you never know man

what's your opinion of the u.s. retaliation in afghanistan? - dont care as long as it doesnt affect me

do you live by yourself? - no

have you ever gotten a computer virus? - yeah

if so, what was it and how did you get rid of it? - i dont know

describe your junior high/middle school gym teacher - i had coach walden, she was...i dont remember, then eichler the DYKE!, then kelly the fucking bitch

how do you react when someone is talking to you --up in your face-- and they have really bad breath? - give em some gum?

what was your first date like? - okay?

did you go/are you going to the prom? - well im to young, and my boyfriends to old so probaly not
if you've already gone, was it good or bad? explain why - no answer

do you get uneasy when you see a person of a different color than you walking down the same street as you in the middle of the night? - no

if yes, do you think that makes you racist? - nope

are you a vegetarian? - uh no

have you ever given up a certain type of food? if so, what was it and why did you do it? - all food, to get skinny

spit out a random song lyric for me. make sure you tell me the name of the song and who sings it! - erry body in this bitch getin tipsy :: tipsy jkwon ::

who does the chores around your house? - the cleaning lady

name one person who annoys you more than anyone else, and tell why - theres many

what movie could you watch a million times and never get tired of? - Spun

what movie have you watched a million times, and you still laugh at the jokes? - any of the Cheech and Chong movies

what movie do you hope you never see again? - um... i dont know

have you ever hugged a stuffed animal or pillow and pretended that it was your significant other, or someone you had a crush on, and then someone caught you talking to it, and stroking its soft, fuzzy fur, and laughed at you and told the whole school? - cant say thats ever happened to me

do you drive? - not yet

if so, do you like to drive at night or in the day time? - both ?? no answer
has anyone ever called you a bitch? - all the time

has anyone ever called you an asshole? - yep

are you a bitch/asshole? - sure

what's the first thing you do when you get home from school/work? - smoke a ciggarette

favorite pop tart flavor - blueberry

do you play any musical instruments? if so, what? - i tryed to play the flute a few times!!

tell me about the best school-related activity you ever took part in - lunch
have you ever built a snowman? - yeah

did you cry when it melted, or when the kid next door knocked its head off with a shovel? - no

what's the best restaurant you've ever eaten at? - i dont know, i like them all

have you ever been flipping channels late at night and caught a glimpse of some porn on skinemax? - yeah

if so, did you watch it? don't say no, i know you did - hah yeah

what's the code word or phrase you and your friends use for the word SEX? - how about SEX?

is sex an uncomfortable topic for you? - nope

what is the one thing in the world that just looking at it makes you vomit, or come close to it? - lots of worms

when other people vomit, does it make you sick? - a lil

do your clothes match? - most of the time lol

what are you wearing right now? - blue sweat pants, red sweatshirt

did you ever have those fisher price roller skates that go over top of your shoes? - not that i remember

did you have a bike with a banana seat? - not that i remember

could you ride it? - no answer

have you lived in the same house your entire life? - nope

what’s the weirdest thing you’ve lived next to?- my wierd ass nieghbors i have right now

who is the ugliest person you’ve ever seen? - haha, i've seen a bunch

do you watch talk shows? - sometimes

do you think miss cleo is full of shit? - yes

if not, have you called her and wasted your money, you idiot? - no

what are your thoughts on keeping animals in captivity? - only wild animals that are sick and need to be better then send them back out, or that are being endangered then to breed them to make more

what do you think of all the “superstores” that are popping up everywhere? (super walmart, super k-mart, super target)? - theyre tight you find alot of cool shit hidden in there

what do you think of pop music? - it's gay

say bye-bye- bye-bye

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yay-O [20 Feb 2004|07:38pm]
[ music | who gives a fuck where you from*lil white,36 maffia,etc. ]

wow. notch and pam just left. we split a g.
and now im here by myself all yay'd up.
didn't think i had any plans for tonight and
didn't think i was gonna be doin none of this.
haha. now im all yEaHh. wow i just typed all
this in like 50 secounds. i just im'd adama,
havent talked to him awhile, and hes been
very good to me in the past. im thinking
about my life right now. school - well theres
no way im gonna make all my credits so to
get them i should go to pace this summer.
ok i just licked all the coc off my mirror +
it's officially gone. damn i dont need to be
doin this...especially with my lil "problem".
i dont want no retarded baby with a arm
growing out its head haha. ok that was not
funny. i miss nick so much. i only get to
speak to him for 15 mins. on thursdays. his
courts soon and everythings gonna be fine
*fingers crossed* at night whens shit really
gets to me. its hard as hell with him being on
lock but i cant see myself without him any-
more. no one will ever love me like he does.
damn im getting emontional but oh well. all
this shits been in the back of my head forever
it feels good to get it all out. and friends. i
have found theres not alot of trill people in my
life i can depend on. but aqantices are aqantices.
lately ive been thinking bout my dad alot. i miss
partying. i really do. im going out my fucking
mind. too---- much time on my hands. im thinkin
to much right now. hm that girl pam is tight as
hell. notch is so funny. but for now im gonna
bounce and finish this later. bye.

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[17 Feb 2004|07:56pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | fuck it i dont want you back*eamon ]

sunday night phil, donnie, and sonya came over and we smoked a blunt. it was good chillin with them cause i don't chill with well....anybody. so yeah. then yesturday i slept in and my mom and i went and got our hair did. i still need to dye it though cause i look like a two toned freak. the lady did a SHITTY ass job but whatever. then my mom and i got into this huuuuuge argument. but what else is new. bitch thought she'd get slick and grab me by the hair but oh i got her back. finally got to talk to my baby...we only get to talk like once a week, which kills me, but i`ll learn to deal with it. this morning i woke my happy ass up and went to school. being in my class reminds me of like a holding cell cause they're all SO wierd. but hilarious too i gotta admit that. besides this one freak gary dragon. got into a screamin match with him and got intervention but whatever. and all the black people are so funny!! this girl TyQuita is always crackin with me. mmm didn't make my day cause of dragon tales, that fag, but who gives a fuck. then i came home, ate, chilled with my mom. and now im talkin to my lil "sis" and it turns out some STANK ASS HOE IS TELLING MY LIL BROTHER MY BUSINESS. UGHHH why cant people stay out my business and just leave me alone?! i dont bother anyone or start shit i just want to get over the drama and live my life. im so sick of it. thats so fucked up...telling my little brother. what the fuck is wrong with you? ughh im so done.

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happy valentines day [14 Feb 2004|03:44pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | freek a leek - petey pablo ]

todays valentines day. and nicks still locked up. that kills me. im so lonely without him.

this weeks been okay. im learning to just stay busy, do my school work, and try to make the day go by as fast as possible. my mom and i have been getting along too. ive learned that shes never gonna change, shes to old so i guess im going to have to. fighting back with her gets me no where so im going to just deal with it. i still have the jail block on my phone, and nathalias out having fun on the weekend so i havent got to talk to nick. its killing me but i can't be selfish and expect her to stay at home just so i can speak with nick. especially for all she's already done to help me out. thank you nachos i love ya <3. i went around looking for jobs this week too but nothing to promising. im gonna go look on monday too. so well see. wednesday i went to the dmv and got my new id cause andrew gave my purse to his fucking brother so i didnt have mine. then i went to the health department to take the drug and alachol class but it wasnt there lol. it was the tobacco class ive already took. but amanda was there. and wayde, and two dudes i didn't know. and my mom left me there so i just went to that again. bob, the dude that teaches it remembered me and let me chill lol. that was the only exciting thing. mmm and i found my dream car. its only 4,300 too. it might take me awhile but me and nick are getting that bitch. mark my words. i miss him so much, im literally counting down the day to his court; 18 days. and if all goes well he'll be home with me. with all thats going on with me i need him here with me. ive started to pray for the first time in i don't even know how long. but maybe kim was right i need some spiritaulity in my life, so thats what im trying to get. so keep me in ya`lls prayers too. i need all the help i can get. and thats about it. im sorry my updates are such boring bullshit lately but thats how my life is right now. but soon enough ill have some more drama for ya`ll. comment if you want. thanks <3

<3 sierra

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i hate my mom, i miss nick, notch is the shit * [09 Feb 2004|05:07pm]
[ music | lean low - young bloods ]

today sucked.

- i woke up and the last thing i wanted to do was go to school. so i fought and bitched with my mom but yeah i got my ass up and got ready and go. ok so we're in the car and my mom wants to pick a fight with me about the fact that i have NO picture id and i need one to take the mother fucking drug and alachol course which i have to take to get my permit. and she KNOWS i do not have one and shes like well i guess you cant go then. and im just like WTF! ever since i turned 15 she like has done everything she can so i cant get my permit. i dunno man so yeah we start argueing then outta no where she has to bring up nick. like that wont set me off okay so why she even has to bring him up i dont know. so we get into this huge fight and i finally like figured it ALL out.

- my mom is scarred nick might actaully get his shit together and take me away from her. which is exactly what he's gonna do and then shell be ALL ALONE. the bitch has no one but me. her son hates her, her ex-husband hates her and her boyfriend ain't really nothing serious cause shes just a FREAK. and she knows she has no one and shes scarred to death. but oh well its her own fault shes fucking nuts and everyone hates her, INCLUDING ME.

- i have a new found love for nathalia. shes a true homie and a half. i <3 you girl! thank you for always being there for me!

- omg the mother fucking jail put a block on my phone cause i guess nick has called to much or something. so now we can't talk on the phone unless someone 3 ways. ughh i can't believe it. what am i gonna do without him?

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you`ll neva eva get on my level hoe !! [08 Feb 2004|11:50am]
[ music | this is how we do - big tymers ]

* it's bad i gotta take out my mother fuckin time to get yall punk bitches straight. first of all dont worry bout what the fuck im doin bitch....in my shit like you a hoe! real women dont worry about any other woman. fuck you you punk ass bitch * this reminds me of one hoe in particular runnin her mouth. why she wants to be all in my kool aid i dunno? but she wants to act like she knows someone and try to tell everyone in spruce creek about some rumor she heard? fucking tricks....stop sweating my nuts. my names always in your mouth just do what you always do SWALLOW.

- aright ; enough of shit like that. i tryed to update like a few days ago but naw that just wasnt happening. so yeah. nothin new really. nicks still locked down. all this shit is really start to get to us both. for the past week we've ended up fighting but then we always make up? ugh im so emontional all the time now and i hate it. nick called me trippin bout his court date and i just started bitching at him. then i hung up, and i was like WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME? i dunno if its just stress or something but its crazy and i dont knwo where its coming from! ughh. but everythings gonna be fine. it always is. and plus my sis is soppused to come down to visit this weekend so ill be tight.

- friday night i actaully went out. i felt bad, but i was just so bored. so notch is like come over katies tonight and we'll get drunk so im like aright, but no ride. so i flag some kidd in my nieghborhood on his lil goped down and convince him to let me borrow his bike!! so thats what i did. got to katies and got drunk as shit. notch was so hilarious. and i gotta talk to anna and kati =] good to know some people are lookin out for me <3 that means alot. ya`ll got no idea. it i passed out pretty early and i woke up at like 3 in the morning and woke notch up and she was STILL drunk and im like "nacho's i got a headache..." and she's like "do you need to hold my hand?" and i was just liek go back to bed drunk ass. katie and notch were crackin me up so bad, that was defiantly the best time ive had since nick left. then last night amanda, steven, and justin =/ picked me up, we got high and went to amandas boyfriend but i was just wasnt feelin that so i rode out and came home. talked to nick and went to sleep i was so ripped, i hadnt smoked in like a week so i felt good.

- and thats about it. tomorrow i gotta go to school. what the fuckkkk. that shit got old quick. im so over that. im like so over ALOT of shit.

<3 sierra

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rubber band man : representin` the one man struggle! [01 Feb 2004|11:43am]
[ mood | stressed ]
[ music | head bussa - lil scrappy + lil jon + the eastside boyz ]

yesturday nick went to first appearance and called me when he got back to county, and the judge didn't give him a bond so he has to stay in there to his court...which has to be SOMETIME before 30 days? then after that he gets sentanced. ugh. he calls me like 4 times a day. my phone bill is gonna be off the chain but i dont even give a fuck. i miss him so much, everytime i talk to him i end up crying. i've wrote him already too. i love writing, because i can explain shit so much better when i write rather than saying it so my letters are alot more deep than our phone calls, cause we just bullshit lol. you really dont ever know what you got till its gone, now that hes not here with me i can't think about anything else. since nick got arrested i havent gone out anywhere. i dont even really want to. without him there aint shit to do. hes my entire life. im gonna go look for a job monday cause according to my mom we're "flat broke". which is such bullshit but whatever i wanna start makin my own anyway cause im so sick of her shit. plus i need something to do while im waitin` for nick to come back. so thats my plan....go to school, work, wait for nick. boring yeah but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.

yesturday i just stayed here and chilled. and today....im just gonna stay here and chill. this fucking sucks im so bored!


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[30 Jan 2004|08:55pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]
[ music | sorry 2004 - rueben studdar ]

and just when things are perfect EVERYTHING HAS TO FALL INTO A MILLION PIECES like always. nick got locked up today. when desi called me and goes sierra! and im like oh fuckkkkkkk cause i just knew it. shit was going so good, we were both startin workin and he was gettin a cadi in a couple weeks, my ma was gonna put rims on it and everything. and now this shit. but i know we`ll get threw it + anything else that comes along. i love that kidd so much you have no idea. ive had alot of people come in and out of my life and i know hes something to keep. he called me from county and i just started bawling. my whole life is HIM now, now i feel like i have nothing. i dont know what im gonna do if he gets sent upstate for a long time. but i know imma stick by his side the ENTIRE time and NOTHING will change that. i love you nick <3

- brittini, if you had your own life you wouldn't be worrying about what im doing with mine. am i right?? so why you so fucking concerned???

- i didnt go to school today. im really not feeling so hott. and plus i have this HUGE stress pimple on my face. this thing is seriously like a third eye. its 9 on a friday and i cant remember the last time i was home like this. i really am not in the mood to party tonight so yeah im just chillin.

im really getting sick of lifeless lil girls with NO lives and NO fucking clue getting into my shit.

i really hate life right now. i just want nick to walk threw my door and tell me its all gonna be ok.

<3 sierra

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waiting for nick [23 Jan 2004|04:29pm]
[ mood | restless ]
[ music | nothing ]

went to school today. the guidance counseloer or whatever, me, and my mom had a big "talk". same old shit, my mom and i bullshited, she acted like she cared, da da da. its whatever. we had like 3 subs today so it was all chill. and i got some kidd to let me "borrow" his brand new abercrombie sweater =] score! and hm, nothing else really. me + derek got in trouble on the bus today. we werent even doing shit! ugh but whatever. then i came home, and i was all happy cause i thought nick be here waiting for me but NO. and now its 6:30 (i know i started writing this forever ago and left it on) and i STILL dont have a clue where the hell he is or what im doing tonight. so far all ive done is laundry. not exactly my idea of a kick ass friday night. ahh im gettin pissed off now. shit like this aggravates me. i miss amanda. ALOT. and yeah my birthday is comin up next wednesday. whoa there killer whered time go?! imma ask my mom for the new reebok soldierees with the pink chrome and a south pole sweater and clothes and a good bag and yeah the list could go on forever so ill stop there. and well nothin else. hopefully tonight fucking gets it shit together! lol bye yall.

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changes, and thats just the way love is. things will never be the same [22 Jan 2004|10:20pm]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | put yo hood up - lil jon + the eastside boys ]

yeah last night fucking blew. my mom and i went shopping around 3, got into a huge friggin argument in the middle of wal-mart. and the cashier, some old fogie said she was gonna call security on me for our "language" so i rode out. came home, my mom and i fought ALOT more, nick came over, my mom and i fought some more, then i just went to sleep.

- but now..what the fuck? this morning nick came over at like seven before school to tell me he stashed his "new" dirtbike in my yard. so im like alright...then my mom came outside and just went crazy and went off on him and tried to call the cops and da da da but whatever. we fought all the way to school, and ughh i just was a mess. then i get to school and i was like bawling and i didnt want to talk to ANYONE and they drug me into the mother fucking guidance office. i just sat there for like a hour before i was just like "my mom and i got in a fight" and just a bunch of bullshit. now this old fogie wants to counsel my "family" what the fuck. good luck lady. the rest of the day - just chillin. wilin out on the bus..you know how we do. lol NOT REALLY. so im walking home right and i get like halfway down my street and a pigs parked outside my house. i go "oh hell no" and ran to the back of my house. by the time i got there the pig was gone? and i was like "ma what the fuck" and she said she had called them cause there was a dirtbike in the backyard? and i was like omfg i cant believe you. but the bike hadnt been reported stolen so nothing now one could do. but still, im sorry but WHAT THE FUCK SHE COULD HAVE GOTTEN ME IN SO MUCH SHIT AND WHY DOES IT MATTER IF THERES A DIRTBIKE IN THE FUCKING YARD?! i was just so pissed. but we got into a fight, but then we started talking. about everything, about how unhappy or whatever we both are, how we both think each other's crazy, about nick, and just about anything.

- to make a LONG story short she agreed to let nick stay here? whoa. so we're cool and nick came over with troy and all smoked the fuck out. and in the middle of all this me and nick go in my house and he has this conversation with my mom and da da da and i was sitting there high as fuck. i feel like im in a movie? i donno man. but then we went back outside and brittany and desi were here. smoked a j, then came inside and chilled.

- nicks passed the fuck out. i cant sleep though. i feel like shit is gonna be so different now. cause my moms like all trying to help him get his shit straight and stuff. but ehh i got a feeling everythings gonna be alright. maybe thats just the weed. i donno man. late

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bitch you aint no smoker * [21 Jan 2004|12:08pm]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | i smell pussy - 50 cent ]

dude ive been updating but i think my computer has some kind of fucked up virus and it will never work! but im trying again. last time i wrote it was really long but it just wouldnt work. ugh. but yeah, shits been crazy.

- me and nick are still together but i really dont know how lol. my mom like hates him even though shes NEVER even had a conversation with him, but yeah we all know shes just a bitch like that. so every morning basically she comes in my room and sees him and has a kinuption but whatever. monday shit really hit the fan though. she kicked up both out! why i dont even know...something about a tv? and the fucking house. as always. fucking pyschotic BITCH. but yeah anyway she kicked me and nick out, i was wearing like shorts and a tee shirt and it was freezing!!! and we were like okkk what do we do? so we walked all the way to the village in the RAIN. it was so fucking horrible :( but we went to dillians + i got to see katie oddie which was good. smoked a lil, hung out, froze my ass off outside then went to chrissys halls. walked around and bullshit`d with everyone for a bit then me, nick, and desi walked to hungry howies cause i were STARVING. ate this steak thing that tasted like shit but i was hungry man. then we found travis and tony, then tony dipped out, then me, nick, and trav all went and smoked with his dad. then me and nick came back here. i fought with my mom some more and da da da.

- i started fuck ass riverview last monday too. its gay as fuck, most of the guys are all so fucking nasty and act like they've never seen a chick before. but its easy. and all any one does is talk shit to thier teachers. shervis, the principal, is a fucking prick. he tried to suspend me on my first day there! for my shirt! how fucking retarded. but the deputy is nicks uncle [ lmao not really but...] so hes like my "uncle in law" now so he helps me out =] im supposed to be in school right now but im already WAY ahead in my work and shit and i was to god damn tired so i stayed home. i wish nick was here =[ im lonely.

- yesturday was a bad day. my mother is a selfish bitch. i cant live like this for two more years. fuck! and thats all i gotta say about that.

- 2004 is alot different than 2003. for me at least anyway. my lifes ALOT different. i got nick, and sometimes i feel like my whole life revolves around him. its just wierd. i dunno man. i need to do some thinking. and now all this shit with my mom. i never get to talk to my friends either. amanda has some dude, and me too and we never see each other. i miss you babe.

- my life sucks right now. just gonna wiat and see what happens....

<3 sierra

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[14 Jan 2004|02:41pm]
[ mood | loved ]
[ music | pop that - david banner ]

damnnn shit just keeps getting wierder. i sware to god shit that you'd never ever think would happen always happens to ME. why is that?? i dont fucking know. my life is just so wierd. some shits funny sometimes but gawd enough is enough already. =/ i dunno man. but ehh anyways whats been going on? ahh well friday morning my mom and i went to bealls, i got a pair of reeboks, and then i went and enrolled into riverview....then notch came over and we waited around FOREVER waiting for josh, nick, and richie. they eventually came but yeah it took forever.

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love drug [06 Jan 2004|03:43pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | my entire hole playlist ]

just so everyone knows, in case they couldn't tell already, nathalia wrote those past two entries, not me. fucking stoned cracker!! naw j/k <3 lol! i know i havent wrote in about a friggin year :: SORRY :: shits just been crazy and ive either been to tired or out of it to write in this bitch. sooo whats been up?? well, for the past two weeks everyones been out on winter break. its over now, but it was defiantly fun while it lasted. hm..like the first night of break kt, notch, and amanda stayed over and we ended up having quite a fucking adventure. its to long for me to even think about typing but amanda wrote it [from her point of view] in her journal. go read it, it`'ll give you a laugh lol. cant even remember what else i'd be doin till last thursday...just alot of riding around with josh and smokin to much and notch cracking me the fuck up!! i cant remember what day it was but some night me, josh, nick, amanda and notch got some free cash flow :x and fogged his car out in the middle of my street for about three hours. the next morning i woke up and my HAIR smelled like pot lol. new years was alright. i went to notch`s for dinner so her mom would let her come back to my house, but after it was all over and done with her mom still fucking said she couldnt go. so i went home, and josh and jordan came and picked me and amanda up. we spent 12:00 on new years in the car with josh and jordan. guess who my new years kiss was? AMANDA, big surprise huh? lol thats sad. well anyways, we went back to jordans. my mom had bought me a bottle of rasberry vodka so me and amanda drank that and everyone just smoked a shit load. nothing to exciting. new years day me and amanda went back to her house and walked to burger king and just chilled out all day. till we got our brillant plan to put a inflatable pool in her lake (like a boat). to make a long story short it didnt work lol! then amandas mom wouldnt let her leave either so i just went back to my house. i wasnt even planning on going out but nick called me, which was odd cause he never calls me, then i get a beep and its josh and he said he was coming to get me? so i was like alright? so he did. and i could tell from just lookin at him he was FUCKED UP. lol well that turned into a crazy night. i finally got to eat some ecstasy. ive never felt that good in my life. i cant even explain it wow. its my new favorite thing. and sometime that night i thought i fell in love with nick? but that shit fucks with you man it makes you think crazy emontional. defiantly the LOVE DRUG <3. but yeah i came home around 10 the next morning cause my mom called jordans cell phone and was like you should come home notches here. and im like okkk? so i went back to my house and i walked in and my pupils were still HUGE so i guess my mom thought i was on coc? but w/e i wasnt =] lol. i told notch all about my night, still trippin, and passed out for a bit. same shit all weekend. goin out and smokin. and about that lil b/f comment notch made...i dunno man. its whatever lol. i guess i should ask him about that? well right now my hands hurt like a bitch from typing and this probaly made no sense at all but hell neither did any of my winter break lol. but imma start updating regurly again =] so dont tripp.

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Burnt out [04 Jan 2004|04:18pm]
Thursday-Best nite of my life!Beans-Drank and Smmoked i was soo fucked up!OMG u dont understand how good that shit feels!Its amazing!

Friday-Came home at like 10 in the morning notch was sitten here waiten for me=D..Then we feel asleep..Chilled for awhile,Then we got ready and nick josh came and got us and then we went and picked up amanda..Then we bought soome bud came back here and smoked for like 3 hours in joshs car...then we went to jordons and smoked some more then we came back here and smoked then me notch n amanda went bacc inside ate and just chilled.Notch is soo fuckin hilarious all she wanted to do is talk and talk and talk{SHE TALKED ABOUT EVERYTHING}..got like 10 mins of sleep for the past 4 days

Saturday-Woke up burned for like 2 hrs then amanda left..And me n notch just chilled then Josh n Nick came over and we chilled here for a lil bit then we went to jordans,Notch Josh Jordan Chrissy and John left..And Me Nick Tebby smoked a blunt..Then they came bacc and notch was so fuckin high it was so funny..!Mike E and Brandon and these too chics came over to jordans OMFG Mike was scaring da shit outta me n notch we cud not stop laughin...Then we left came bacc to my house to get ciggarettes then we went to chrissys chilled for like 10 mins then we went to Wal Mart and smoked a FAT ASS blunt in da parking lot...Then we sat in front of my house and talked Notch was tellin us How lonley she is..It was funny ass hell...Then we came in and ate and passed da fuck out!!
Thas it for now anyway ill update sum more later!

{I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW..!Well i think so anyway!}
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burnt out [04 Jan 2004|04:16pm]
Thursday-Best nite of my life!
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burnt out [04 Jan 2004|04:16pm]
Thursday-Best nite of my life!
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2004 [01 Jan 2004|05:09am]
[ mood | high ]
[ music | TECHNO SHIT WOW ]

theres a like urban myth that says however you spend your new years eve predicts how the whole upcoming year is gonna be like ;D well a happy new year to all of ya`ll. i know i need to start updating. ive just been a lazy fucker but imma do it. soon. really. till then bye. HAPPY NEW YEAR !!


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[28 Dec 2003|07:13pm]
[ mood | confused ]

mann i havent updated this bitch in forever, and alot of shit happened. uh, well yeah its winter break so EVERYONE is outta school for now, not just my slackin ass haha. hm...i cant really remember everything but i DO remember christmas. a very merry christmas man. yeah FUCKING right. omg so ok my mom didnt even START going shopping until like the day BEFORE christmas eve. me + amanda + kt had went out the night before so we all woke our hungover asses up and me, manda, and my mom went to the mall. i hadnt showered, looked like shit, and absolutly REEKED off gin. but oh well i got a bunch of clothes and shoes `n what not then we came home. nachos came over and stayed the night...didnt end up going out til about 2 in the friggin morning and it was a fucking BUST mann. the next morning dj came over and we all went and smoked out at the docks cause my mom was fucking go pyscho...uh..then me and notch just chilled on my roof lol. godd i love her lmao. and somehow around 3 o`clock in the morning my mom and i got in a fight! cabout the damn phone ringing or something...so yeah that was defiantly not fun. woke up late around 11 on xmas day, my mom was still being a bitch and she told me she`d rath er have christmas alone then be with me so i left....and went to amandas. i get there and her WHOLE family's there including her cousin. um yeah AWKWARD!! lol. but yah we did the whole christmas thing over there. now friday. oh my fucking god.

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quizze`z [20 Dec 2003|05:36pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | i-95 memphis bleak ]

finger licking

You Are Finger Licking

Not much for the subtle approach, are you?

You like to let your lover know what's up...

Especially since what's up is your roving tongue.

Maybe your tongue will wander further later -

Or maybe you'll keep your mouth in the safety zone.

Either way, your mouth drives your partner wild.

What Kind of Foreplay Are *You*?

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Actually, you need 2 OR 3 boyfriends.

Yeah, you’re the wild, adventurous one.

Voted Most Likely To Have A Three-way by your sorority.

And why not? Life’s too short to take it one cock at a time, right?

As long as nobody gets hurt, ain’t nothin’ wrong with it, no how.

This does not, by any means, make you a slut.

In fact, if anyone ever calls you that, it’s only because they’re jealous.

Do You *Need* a Boyfriend?

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true that!!

party girl paris hilton

You are Party Girl Paris Hilton!

Got blow? If not, you probably know someone who does.

If you aren't there, the party hasn't started

And after a few drinks, you're up for almost anything.

You're so wild - you make Cleveland look like Cancun!

Which Paris Hilton Are You?

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oh i know whose got the blow =] lol!
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