Thursday, March 4th, 2004
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9:49 pm
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Hello there buddy! LoL Well me and Charlie are doing great!! I love him so much! Hes so sweet to me!!! ;) !! And I think that on Saturday we are going to go to the beach and hang out and im pretty sure that Lela is going to come and Kelsey might... But I dont know... But I ordered my swim suit today!! Im so excited for it to come in! But then I looked at the status date and I have to fucking wait until March 31!! ANd then I have to wait for them to ship it to me and thats going to fucking take like 10 dayz!!! DAMNIT! LoL O well.. I can live without it until then... But anyways, im gonna go!!! I LOVE CHARLIE!!! LoL
current mood:  excited
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Monday, March 1st, 2004
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9:18 pm - x0x0 *I LuV ChArLie* x0x0
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Hey Hey Hey! LoL Well srry I havent really been keeping this thing updated like I did!! But anyways, me and Charlie are still going out! Yah! lol I reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyy like him ALOT!! Hes so sweeet and adorable and funny and OMG its so great! LoL But yeah im happy that I finally have sumone!! I was so sick of arguing and then feeling like shit afterwards and feeling lonley! but anyways, Yeah so my mood has been VERY happy lately! ANd thats always good! But I g2g!! Ill write in this later!!!!
current mood: excited
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Saturday, February 28th, 2004
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5:02 pm
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Im going out with Charlie now! Yah! LoL hes so sweet and funny... so im really glad about that... But anyways, Yesterday Cameron called me acting like nothing ever happened cause the night before me and hijm got into this arguement because I told him that I liked Charlie... SO finally when he called me today I told him that I was going out with him and I guess now hes all mad at me or sumthing.. But I really dont care.. hes an asshole... But yeah im really happy noe about Charlie LoL But yeah last night, Kelsey spent the night and we went to Smittys and played sum pool and ate sum Nachos... but anyways im going to go! buh bye 143 x0x0
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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7:22 pm - ????CoNfUsEd????
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I HATE MYSELF... Im so fucking sick of this life.. I cant stand it anymore.. Everything is just going so wrong... Nothing is right.. It will never be right... I really cant fucking live like this! I just really hate myself... and everytime I get my hopes up for sumthing... Sumthing else pops up and tears me down into peices... This is all such bullshit... Im just so confused about everything... and yeah... Craigs confusing me too and so is Cameron... and Cameron made me block him! but I really would rather to not... I dont understand why he gets like this... It really bothers me cause I do like him alot and everything but some of the stuff that he does just doesnt make any sense at all... But maybe later on things will change or sumthing.... I just really dont know... But anyways.. Im out...
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Friday, February 20th, 2004
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11:28 pm
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-- Beyonce Knowles --
"Me, Myself & I"
All the ladies if you feel me, help me sing it now...
I can't believe i believed
Everything we had would last
So young and naive for me to think
She was from your past
Silly of me to dream of
One day having your kids
Love is so blind
It feels right when it's wrong
I can't believe i fell for four years
And i'm smarter than that
So young and naive to believe that with me
You're a changed man
Foolish of me to compete
When you cheat with loose women
It took me some time but now i moved on
Cuz i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
So controlling , you said that you love me
But you don't
Your family told me one day
I would see it on my own
Next thing i know i'm dealing
With your three kids and my home
I've been so blind
It feels right when it's wrong
Now that it's over
Stop calling me
Come pick up your clothes
No need to front like you're still with me
All your homies know
Even your very best friend
Tried to warn me on the low
It took me some time
But now i am strong
Because i realized i got
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and i
That's all i got in the end
That's what i found out
And it ain't no need to cry
I took a vow that from now on
I'm gonna be my own best friend
Me myself and i
I know that i will never disappoint myself
All the ladies if you feel me
Help me sing it now
Ya, you hurt me
But i learned a lot along the way
After all the rain
You'll see the sun come out again
I know that i will never disappoint myself
[Repeat to end]
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11:26 pm
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Hey well today I didnt do ANYTHING! It was the lamest Friday EVER!! But tomorrow im going to see my brother so that might be good... MIGHT... thats the key word... But anyways, I really dont know whats going on... But like... I dunno... I dont know who I realllly want to go out with... Theres just alot of people.. it sux really fucking bad.... But omg Rico is moving to Pasco County! WTF! Hes such a lame ass!!! Im gonna miss him so much! But me and him were supposed to hang out today but he never called me.. SO o well... Screw that plan in the ass... But I think im going to be able to do sumthing tomorrow HOPEFULLY... Cause staying home is SUPER LAME and VERY BORING!!! But I havent really figured out what I am going to do... But anyways, im going to go cause I have to wake up at fucking 5:00 tomorrow.... So Bye
current mood:  tired
current music: Beyonce- "Me Myself and I"
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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10:17 pm
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well hey today I really didnt do much at all.... But Craig called me and I talked to him for a while and I 3-wayed Rico so that they could talk cause they havent talked since he's been in Rehab! So im sure they were glad to talk to eachother.... But OMG Rico is moving to Texas!! OMG what a loser!!! Yeah but anyways, Cameron called me and im supposed to call him back so im gonna go do that! I really hope things work out! But I dont know... things are just weird I guess! But anyways, im going to go! BUh BYe!
current mood:  blah
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Monday, February 16th, 2004
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8:32 pm
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Today I didnt really do much.... But I wokeup at 11:30... so that was wierd... But me and Gabby stayed up until 2 last night with my sister watching movies.... But yeah... Gabby left when she woke up and I just stayed home and watched sum TV and then Cameron called me and asked me if I wanted to go to the movies. But I really didnt want to go because I knew that it was just going to be weird... and If I did go I know I just would of liked him more and more! and I would of just been upset.... :( and I guess that things are just going to be better if we dont get back together... I mean... I want to! But then I just think about when me and him argued and like what he called me and stuff... and that was weird cause no other guy has EVER said sumthing like that to me... But o well.... I went to the mall with Gabby and I bought this really cute pink shirt with this pearly necklace that I might wear tomorrow... and I got this really cute "Hello Kitty" Purse and sum lip gloss.... But im gonna go...
current mood:  uncomfortable
current music: Beyonce - "Me Myself & I"
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004
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6:05 pm
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Well after a while... I guess I just realized that I really need time to think about me and Cameron.... I dont know if we really should just go out... Things are just weird and me and him are just to different I guess.... So we broke up... But for sum reason I feel really bad... or I dunno if thats the word... But o well.... Ive been really bored today.... Theres nothing to do....and I kinda figured that this was going to happen anyways.... It was gonna sooner or later... But I dont know.. I just really need to think about stuff... and not only about Cameron... But just everything... I want to look forward to sumthing.... I want sumthing "Fun & Exciting" to happen... For once!!! That hasnt happened in quite sum time... So maybe thats what I need... or maybe I should just go out with all my friends and just have a lot of fun.... and just get bad things off my mind and stop worrying about whats going to happen and start thinking about what is happening... This stress really sucks... And hopefully I dont fall into a depression! But anyways, im gone for now.....
current mood:  confused
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Saturday, February 14th, 2004
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4:41 pm
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Hey there buddy old pal!!! LoL jk I havent written in this thingy for ever!! Im so sorry about that!! But anyways, I went to the movies last night with Kelsey and Cameron and his friend Mitch.... And it was okay... we walked over to Walmart and it was very lame... But today I havent really done anything at all... But I went to the gym... and now Im goning to spend the night at Kelseys house! Yah! But I g2g!! Buh Bye x0x0!!!
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Monday, February 9th, 2004
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7:08 pm
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Hey... well today was very boring... I went to the gym with Lauren and Sarah.... But yeah... Its been pretty lameo.... But Skewl was extremely gay and Kelsey didnt even go... What a fag LoL jk! But Cameron didnt go either cause his side hurt cause he got road rash or sumthing.... But anyways, My mom found sum note that was from a long time ago and it was about having sex LoL hahaha It was so funny... So now shes like freaking out on me LoL but anyways, im going to go!!
current mood:  okay
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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
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11:38 pm
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Well... my party was horrible! Everything went to wrong!!!! I dont know what to do.. Everything just isnt going right.. This is so fucked up... and me and Cameron are like arguing and this is just really gay so im gonna go... Bye
current mood: confused
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9:45 am
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Hey! Well yesterday I was supposed to go to the movies with Cameron... But we had this really dumb field trip to The State Fair! But anyways, we didnt get back until 8:00!! It was so fucking gay... and I felt so fucking bad cause my mom was being gay and she wouldnt let me stay at the movies!!!! It was so dumb... But anyways, today Im having my party.. So HOPEFULLY my friends come!! LoL They Better! haha But yeah I think im going to go to the mall with Cameron today!! So at least we will get to hang out! But anyways, im going to go! Ill write in this thingy later!!!
current mood:  pleased
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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
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7:58 pm
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Srry I havent written in this in a while... But I feel like shit right now... I really just want to sit down and cry as hard as I ever have before... Its so weird... I just dont understand what is wrong with me... it just seems like everything that I do is wrong... I just wish that I had sumone there that I could really depend on... Someone that I could tell all of my problems to and sumone who could tell me theres... and we could just help eachother... ya kno?? Why does life have to be so lame sumtimes... I really cant stand it... I just hate this... Everything just seems like its falling and that its never going to get any better... I wanna just start everything over again... With everything... So I can relive all of the choices that I have ever made in my life... Things would be so different right now if I would of done that... but I guess theres nothing I can do about it other then complain... But thats never going to get me anywhere... So I guess all I can do is hope that things get better... and that I dont have to have these moments anymore... cause I hate them more than anything!!!!!! But anyways, im gonna go...
current mood:  depressed
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
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7:07 pm
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Hey... well I havent really dont to much today just go to skewl.. . But after skewl I just stayed home and it has been very boring ever since... I was going to go to the gym but I never did... But me and Jeremy are still going out! yah!! But anyways, im giong to go! buh bye
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Saturday, January 24th, 2004
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10:51 am
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Hey Hey Hey!! Im sooo excited!! Im going to an audition today in Tampa for acting...! Yah!!!!! I cant wait... I guess we are going to leave at like 12:45... But anyways, last night me and Gabby went to the gym and worked out sum more.. and we got to swim! It was great... Then we went in the steam room and came out like 2 peices of fried chicken LOL hahahaha and at school theres like this slan book going around and that stupid fucking bitch "Monica" wrote shit about me in there... Im gonna fucking beat her ass... cause she knows shes the only "Punk/Goth/ Emo" WANABE!!!! EVERYONE KNOWS UR GAY MONICA!!! SO U CAN JUST STOP TRYING SO HARD TO BE WHAT UR NOT!!! But anyways, I got my share under her name... heheheh LoL But yeah everyone wrote that I was a LeZbO... So to get it right... IM BI!!!! NOT LEZ!!! I like cock too! LoL hahaha But anyways, im going to go! So Peace!
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Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
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9:36 pm
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Hey! Well I just got back from the Gym today... My mom Finally signed me up for it and Gabby is signing up for it too!! Yah!! LoL Big party at the gym!! LoL But anyways, I had a very interesting conversation with Jeremy today online so here it is LOL
Krasian Azian: go back to china bitch
XxXSeXiBaBe143: No U BizItch!
Krasian Azian: ooh thats real creative
XxXSeXiBaBe143: LoL
Krasian Azian: i will fuck your ass
Krasian Azian: xxx hardcore style
XxXSeXiBaBe143: No I will fuck ur ass and cum alllll over ur back
Krasian Azian: afrolicious all up in your black ass make me do dirty things
XxXSeXiBaBe143: Man thats pretty dirrty
Krasian Azian: wordf
Krasian Azian: remember that song by like george michael
Krasian Azian: i want your sex
XxXSeXiBaBe143: no not really
Krasian Azian: that is a damn shame BYATCH
Krasian Azian: maybe she wanted to know what kind of stuff you were doing at the gym who knows what you do
Krasian Azian: cause you wont talk to me normally on the phone!!!!!!!!
XxXSeXiBaBe143: LoL yeah I was in the locker room and Gabby was banging me right up my black ass
Krasian Azian: omg you know what im talking about
Krasian Azian: forget i forget what i said
Krasian Azian: i know you cant
XxXSeXiBaBe143: w/e!!!!
XxXSeXiBaBe143: Fuck off
Krasian Azian: lmao
XxXSeXiBaBe143: LOL
XxXSeXiBaBe143: ur so mean to me!!!!
Krasian Azian: your so gullable
XxXSeXiBaBe143: u know what???
Krasian Azian: dont push me
XxXSeXiBaBe143: u can go off and fuck my black ass
Krasian Azian: oh really i know that
Krasian Azian: i will you lil cum slut
XxXSeXiBaBe143: LoL hhahaha
Well I g2g!!! Be back lata!! Buh Bye xx0x0x0x0x 143!!
*. : ChArLie : .*
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Monday, January 19th, 2004
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9:43 pm
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Hey... Well I havent done ANYTHING ALLL DAY LONG!!! It has been sooooo horrible!!!!!! Im bored out of my mind! But Jeremy didnt call me until like 8:30!!! Hes such a lameo!!! But o well I guess... But Gabby comes back from Jersey tomorrrow!! Yah!!!! LoL Then maybe we can go to the gym and work out and get sum big muscles!! Yah! LoL But I guess Jeremy wants to hang out tomorrow or sumthing... But I dont know when im doing the Gym thingy... So I dunno if I will or not... But I really am bored out of my mind! Maybe I will get to do sumthing tomorrow... HOPEFULLY!!! Cause im seriously gonna die or sumthing! But this modeling school called me so maybe I will get to go to that!! I really wanna do either singing or modeling! But just sumthing like that.... Or maybe even acting! But anyways, im gonna go!! Buh Bye!
current mood: bored
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Sunday, January 18th, 2004
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11:49 pm
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Well today I havent done anything but watch TV.... jeremy came over and hung out with me... But ive been in pain all day long... its horrible... I hate it!! But im going to the doctor tomorrow to get checked up on! So I hope that its not anything serious!!! Cause if it is then thats going to suck big time! But my mom is going to Venice tomorrow and my sis has to work so I will prolly just end up bein home alone and bored!!! but anyways im gonan go!! Peace
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12:09 pm
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Hey... Well today I havent really done very much... But yesterday I went to the petstore with Kelsey and my dad and Junior... and I got more fish for my aquarium... But then there was a little baby fishy that ive had in there and one of the new ones ate him!!! WTF!!! I WAS SOOOO MAD!! it was veryyy sad.... But anyways, my B-day is in 3 weeks and 4 dayz! Yah!!! LoL Im not sure what im gonna do yet... But ill figure it out! But Kelsey wants me to spend the night to night... So I might do that.... BUt im in pain right now... It sux... SO I dunno! But anyways, im going to go ! BuH bye x00x
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