jonas' Blurty

barfffff
i feel like im gonna barf. gar blah. i still feel like shit. i really fucking do. i had another mental breakthrough with margo today. yay. im getting fixedededed. though, it doesnt really feel like it. i still want to curl up in a ball and die. i just need weed and pizza. because they make everything better. i fucking want to just disappear forever. right after a kill eric, kyle white, marc, jimmy, alex, nelson, corinne, constance, jeremy and everyone else. i dont know what to do anymore. i know most of whats wrong with me, but i have no fucking idea of how to go about fixing it. im so fucking tired of myself. i really am. im tired of being obsessed with things that just leave. im tired of being....me. im tired of everything. and i cant even fucking kill myself because that'd just be running away from my problems. and i do that a lot. and i dont want to run away anymore. i want to just experience life to the fullest and not care about anything. please, someone, kill me now.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: SUM 41!!!!!!!!!!!