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Saturday, January 24th, 2004
| Time | Event |
| 8:18a | nothingnessssssssss woo. i be at a friends house. and i is bored! everyone is all asleep like and i is all awake...i fell out of bed at like....7:30 stayed on the floor for a bit, went out into the living room to see if i could fall asleep on the chair, fell over stayed there got back up and listened to interpol and the misfits for the next hour. interesting, isnt it? yea....i got back together with jimmy...and its scary. i mean, hes a guy, therefor he is scary. everytime im with him, i love it. but....then i start to get freaked out. i hate it. bu what can i do? i cant get help for what i need to, for the fear of getting killed by a stupid fat looser and....just....blah....times like these, i wish i could turn back time and bite off penis's so they can never be used....hehe. or just kill someone. bah. my back hurts. Current Mood:  awakeCurrent Music: im singing um bop! yay! |
| 8:31p | *wants to kill self* im at markys house and im trying my hardest to keep myself from crying. i want my kinky weasel man more than anything. he sent me an e mail and i want him sooo much. i dont want to fuck him or anything, im totially against that kinda stuff, but i just want to be with him....but i really really like jimmy. and plus jimmy lives here, not 8 fucking hours away. but my kinky weasel man i so....perfect. everything ive ever wanted in anyone is in him. yes i know i am extremly pitful and pathetic, but what are you gonna do? thats right, nothing. i really want to cry...he told me he loved me in the e-mail....fuck...i really dont like this. im starting to get all blah again...i hate that feeling. i havnt done anything to relieve my pain in 2 weeks. and im so proud of myself. but...its building up inside and im probly going to do somthing stupid. but i is trying my hardest to be smart. gah....i still hate myself...i really fucking hate myself....*crys* Current Mood:  depressedCurrent Music: i need some SOAD right now...but i have none.... |
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