.october.love.'s Blurty Entries [entries|friends|calendar] .october.love. [ userinfo | blurty userinfo ] [ calendar | blurty calendar ]

im dumb... [08 Jan 2005|03:11pm] Seems just like yesterday, you were a part of me I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right Uunbreakable, like nothing could go wrong now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep I’m barely hanging on Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid <3 why cant i be everything he wants? the worst is over now

vacation/weekend [03 Jan 2005|02:31pm] [ mood | horny ] [ music | lovers&friends;usher/liljon/ludacris ] vacation sort of blowed. i didnt go out at all during the week, just stayed home and sort of relaxed and tried to get my feelings straight. devin was my world and now there's nothing between us, other than my feelings. im gunna forget him.. at least try to. we put each other through alot and now there's nothing i can do but just go out and meet new people. im always gunna love him, he meant so much to me. it still hurts 'cause he's the most beautiful person i've ever met, and now that i can't just grab on to his face and kiss him ..sucks.. BUT oh well.. i'll try to move on faster than i did with Michelle..i hope.... .. i got my hair highlighted, looks nice. im goin' tanning again, but im getting like a heat rash from it . lol. ive lost 15 pounds! lol by the end of the month im convinced and determined to lose another 15 or perhaps 20. that would be excellent. i went to Joanna's house on Friday. there were a bunch of people there:amy, jennie,ashleigh,sarah,joanna of course,brandon,some craig kid and some kelly girl, and josh(ashleighs boyfriend).. it was fun, some of us drank but we stopped and just hung out cause the shit we were drinking tasted yucky.. but it was fun .. got some pictures on my NEW CAMERA! yay! lol and some videos of jennies boobs .. and of us playing cards... funny "you fucked me up" joannas such a bitch when shes serious lol. amy and i had some nice meaningful conversations about stuff. shes nice to talk to. we played bullshit and bunch of other stuff. alex innis came over for like a half an hour but just for amy, and by amy, i mean ALOT OF AMY lol. all and all it was a good night.. saturday.. i went home.. got ready and then headed over to emilys house. we stayed there for a while. elise and tasha came. we called a cab and went to motel 6. we drank there.. well emily drank.. then we went to ushuaias. DEAD at first, then more and more people started to show up. we went out and danced and i saw this matt guy that i used think was hot. dance with him some, danced with a couple of damn fine black guys. then got a ride from matt make to the motel . we called ean or Ian .. and he and chris wilson picked us up. they heard about some party at the ramada so we went there. josh pelkey was there and some jon guy, who is pretty hot, were there. we sat around , it was like 2 am, so there wasnt much left to drink. we just listened to this guy that used to be a bouncer at the bounty talk about how he was 'the real deal' and 'hes toughest motherfucker you'll ever meet' and ALSO 'you' die if you dont join up with him' lol i thought it was halarious.. he was mad drunk tho. then we went back to ians house and they smoked up.. i dont really like smoking weed, so i just didnt. it was like 530 when we went back to emily's house. and i got back up at 730 to call my mom to go home. then i slept most of the day on sunday. exciting, huh? lol my lifes so boring now that im never at devins lol. today was a good day at school, people liked my hair which made me feel happy. im losing weight but i feel fatter. oh well.. comment bitches! iwantyoubutimnotgivinginthistime. AL the worst is over now

[11 Aug 2004|10:58pm] i got my hair cut NICE 'N' SHORT ! wooooo congrats ashley . congrats i wanna hang out with ; emily colleen jessica taylor kurt lacey colleen B erica nick rowe lol im so bored i thought id share that and 1 can breathe again the worst is over now

<3 stole this from jess [11 Aug 2004|10:56pm] father thinks I am: his twin mother thinks I am: getting fat my boyfriend thinks I am: prettier than mandi three things you are often complimented for: my boobs.my ass. & sometimes my hair you get embarrassed when: my stomach growls really loud in a quiet class makes you happy: when my stomach cramps go away.. ugh. upsets you: emily moving to w.virginia yes or no... you keep a diary: yah you like to cook: no you have a secret you have not shared with anyone: of course you set your watch a few minutes ahead: no ; i dont have a watch you bite your fingernails: yeah you believe in love: yes Who is...? the weirdest person you know: emily;devin;jessica the Loudest Person you Know: used to be jessica but unfortunately shes changed, um so.. probably Brooke your close friends: Emily & Colleen the Person that Knows the Most about you:emily What is...? your most overused phrase on IM: 'lol' the last image/thought you go to sleep with: the thing from the village, so creepy. your best feature: hmm. i dont know, you tell me favorite inside joke: hmm.. "omg it burns!" was good lol jessica. many with her lol 2. Do You...? have a crush: yes. think you know you've been in love: yeah. want to get married: yes. have any tattoos/where: nope piercings/where?: bellybutton get motion sickness: hmm i dont know think you're a health freak: no not really. get along with your parents:sometimes like thunderstorms: no WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF Ryan:bushy Rob: my dad Dan: matts friend Tiffany: lambert Paul: gay men James: butts John: forgot his last name, but one of matts friends Billy: amys friend Nick: Rowe Kim: tripp- fat, and loud ( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... ) CRIED? yes cause my stomach HELPED SOMEONE? maybe ? BOUGHT SOMETHING? YEp- my marilyn monroe shirt GOTTEN SICK? puked this morning GONE TO THE MOVIES? no GONE OUT FOR DINNER? no SAID I LOVE YOU? yes WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? no TALKED TO AN EX? yes-michelle WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? im doing it now TALKED TO SOMEONE YOU CRUSH ON? devin? HAD A SERIOUS TALK? i dont think so MISSED SOMEONE? Yes HUGGED SOMEONE? devin FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? no FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no Would You Ever.. 1. Eat a bug? im scared of bugs, so no. 2. Bungee jump? no 3. Hang glide? no 4. Kill someone? i wouldnt go that far. 7. Have sex with someone of the same sex? ive done it already 8. Parachute from a plane? no 9. Walk on hot coals? no 10. Go out with someone for their looks? im not gunna go out with someone i think is ugly, even though thats mean, its the truth, everyone thinks it.. 11. For their reputation? no 12. Be a vegetarian? no, lol sorry Colleen. 13. Wear plaid with stripes? probably not 14. IM a stranger: for fun 15. Sing karaoke? no way.unless i was drunk 17. Shoplift? ive stolen things before, but not big things 18. Run a red light? i dont even wanna drive 19. Star in a porn video? sure why not lol 20. Dye your hair blue? fuck no 21. Be on Survivor? no JUST THE FACTS; full name: ashley alexis labbe dob: july 23 nicknames: alexis;mrs. alexis parents names: lisa and rob brothers and sisters names: brittaney & sara pets: pepper eyes: brown height: probably around 5'6 hair color: light brownish hair length: just got it cut! layered and hardly touching my shoulders- such a change my hair was so long! FAVORITES: color: pink ;maroon tv show: real world;charmed;will&grace song: October-Evanescence band: evanescence cd: i dont listen to cd's that much drink(alcoholic): tequillaaaaa drink(non-alcoholic): apple juice food: lobster place: emilys house, but no longer is her house friend:they're all my fav. cigarette: dont have a fav. lol cigar:none drug: dont have a fav. topic: i love talking about anything with emily gadget: computer singer: amy lee channel(TV): mtv;fuse;mtv2;mtvJ;mtv hits;vh1 hits channel(RADIO): whatever has good music on place of sleep: my moms bed. lol meal: egg noodles animal: little monkeys, thing you've done: devin. lol jk person: i dont have a favorite EITHER OR: pepsi coke:pepsi water coffee: water coffee tea: tea, its sweeter mall movie: mall country rap:rap fries or onion rings: fries base/basketball:neither lake ocean: ocean friend or boy/girlfriend: dont know LAST TIME: swimming: last month sleeping: this morning? watched movie: last night i watched the prince & i listened to music: im listening to country lol tanning: a few months ago driving: never! drunk: dont know high: last week sex: like.. last month? lol cried: this morning running: not to recently lol working out:a couple hours ago showering: around like 1130 this morning camping: every day at my dads or grandparents is like camping in love: right now? eating: a couple hours ago had a best friend: i hope i still have her HOW MANY HAVE YOU: slept with: slept with like sleeping, a bunch, slept with like sex, one cried with: a lot drank with: alot smoked with: alot lol slept alongside of: alot? HAVE YOU EVER: been in love: yeah been drunk: yes been high: yeah had sex: yeah wanted to die: sure but i dont undergone surgery: no been tested for STD/STI: no been extremely sick: not bad, but i thought it was pretty extreme been near death: whenever im trippin it feels like i am the worst is over now

my baby im so thankful i found you. [01 Aug 2004|11:20am] Monday--i called emily foley and told her i was coming over. we hung out for a while,asked luke to get alcohol and i didn't like it so i didn't drink much of it lol. emily drank most of it. we hung out in her camper and talked all night. it was nice, she was drunk and talked a lot but it was nice. we talked about getting apartments, driving, her moving,luke and her, me and devin. everything. they had to leave the house on Friday morning .i think she's staying at ashley braggs(sp) house , but i don't know how to get a hold of her.. it sucks. when she has to go w.virginia im gunna be so fuckin upset. i love her so much, she's so important to me. she's my very best friend...... : (.. Tuesday--i was gunna go to emilys again and then the movies but emily wasn't home and i was too tired. so i just stayed at home.. Wednesday--i went to devins house. i forgot what we did lol. Thursday--i went to devins again, we hung out with colleen and went to the mall and bullmoose. it was wicked hot. not too exciting.. Friday- i went to Colleens house and hung out with her and mike. we went to Kurts house and smoked up. it was fun. it was too hot to smoke though. i went home around like 530 and talked my mom into letting me go to the bounty. then i went back to colleens house and got ready. we walked and there was hardly anyone . people were all at the fair but the fair got over with at 10 so people started coming later. it was fun. i saw elise and michelle finch and ashley awalt. it was fun. but mandi was there and she kept looking at me. it was fun, good workout lol. i havent been there in so long. after the bounty i took a taxi home. i didn't wanna stay at colleens cause she was gunna be with alisha. yesturdaydevin and i cleaned up his garage which sucked cause it was so hot and took forever. then we went and saw The Village. good movie, i jumped so bad, i even fuckin screamed. lol then i went home.. ...and now im here im going over devins in a little bit.. so im off to get ready.. ta;ta and 1 can breathe again the worst is over now

yuck [27 Jul 2004|11:02pm] go suck a dick jen, its what you do.sick bitch the worst is over now

[19 Jul 2004|07:19pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | yingyang;whats happenin' ] it's been a while. i don't know where to start. summer's been going by fast, very fast. and its been a bad summer b/c of the weather. it was like 72 here today, 109 in Arizona. oh well. THE FAIR IS COMING UP!! Yes! i LOVE the fair. its exciting and i get to see all my friends. my birthday is on Friday-woo. lol im hanging out with devin for the day. the fourth of July i was with Devin. i spent the night before and we went to the mall during the day. then went and hung out with his brother and his friend. we had like hundreds of morning glorys and broke them. then put the powder in a 2 liter soda bottle then lit it off. it was cool. we saw colleen,alisha,hannah and others and hung out with them while watching the fireworks. after that i really don't remember what I've done. but up until recently i do. .. ... i went to emilys last week after the movies. it was fun. we hung out. the next day i went home and took a shower then went back. we were supposed to get drunk but didn't and got wicked baked. i love hanging out with her. she's a blast. her and Luke were fighting on the phone a lot , it sucked. I kept making her laugh when she was fighting . it was fun. on Thursday, devins parents brought us to Portland. we went to the mall and walked around. there wasn't a wet seal so i didn't buy anything. then we went to Old Orchard and went swimming in the ocean. it was nice. so much fun. then we went to some seafood restaurant and fed some seagulls which was REALLY scary cause they attacked us for food. i guess devins dad said something about seeing me in a bathing suit and saying devin was " a lucky boy" lol that's nice to know:) after the beach we went to Freeport i think, and walked around in some stores. got some ice cream then left. it was so much fun. on Friday, i went to devins again. and we went and saw 'The Notebook'-- SUCH a good movie.. i cried. -devin got teary eyed which is ADORABLE lol. but it was a very good movie. CH-CH-CH-Check it out. Saturday and Sunday i hung out with devin also lol. Sunday we went and saw Spiderman 2 - it was all right this week i have to baby sit for my aunt Chas . how fun. i don't know what devin and i are doing for my birthday. hmm. well this is short and im brain dead so im off for now.. ta:ta the worst is over now

hmm [30 Jun 2004|02:28pm] [ mood | horny ] [ music | y.b;damn! ] this week has been good. monday--i walked to colleens house.met up with her and mike.mike got in trouble for crossing the street and not looking both ways. we went back to colleen's house and had a million popsicles. we just sat around and talked. after mike left, colleen and i went to giffords with her mom and got ice cream. then we came back. around 6 we walked to kurt's house[which happens to be in brewer]hung out there for a bit. people came and they jumped on kurts trampoline. i tired just to sit cause i had a skirt on, but every one was jumping. some guy said last time i saw you, you were drunk and taking your shirt off that wasnt me, i was drunk but it was emily and elise taking their shirts off. around 930 we left and walked back , and went to Alisha's. they were all drunk. she's really nice. she kept saying "this is the only friend of colleens i approve of" but then again she was drunk. but she was being very nice. we left around 1130. went and soaked our feet in hot water because we were walking around all day in sandals. and ate chips while we washed them lol. it was fun. tuesday--colleen and i woke up around 6 and went to alisha's at 7. i walked home around 8, didnt know it was pouring. it sucked. long walk too . then when i finally got home i realized my mom was sleeping and the door was locked. so i was out there for about 5-10 minutes pounding on the door, so i went next door and got the key. but only to find out the back door was unlocked the entire time. lol. i went to devin's around 12, i was supposed to go to the movies and hang out with colleen and lacey after but i didnt. we watched reno911 alot, lol. later we watched cold mountain after supper. it was alright, i thought it would be stupid but it was alright. today, im not doing anything i guess. tomarrow is devin and i's EIGHT MONTH [gasps] lol i love devin :)love me and 4 can breathe again the worst is over now

[25 Jun 2004|11:33pm] [ mood | pleased ] [ music | 50cent;high all the time ] i haven't been on my computer for a while so i haven't got around to updating. this week has been alright.i hung out with michelle on monday. it was nice. she came over and we walked to the store and got soda. then went to my house, waited for my mom to go to work. then we watched some of american wedding, some jay leno cause avril lavigne was on. then got sick like mother fuckers. wicked fucked up. i hate being sick. i was supposed to hang out with devin the next day, but i was still sick. we brought Michelle home around like 9. then i slept some of the day and talked to devin. sometimesi feel like devin and i are drifting apart, even though we love each other so much. i don't know why i feel that way, but its strange cause i know it wont end. wednesday i went to devins house. it was oober hot so after we walked to leadbetters just to get juice, we spayed each other with the hose in his back yard. it was cool. refreshing too. thursday devin came to my house. we watched crazy/beautiful while playing UNO. lol. we're hooked on that game. we watched tv. then ordered pizza and watched The Craft. it was fun todayi went to devins again and went to the mall around 3. then went to the movies to see White Chicks, even though we were gunna see The Notebook. but it was still funny. we went back to the mall and i saw crista ! yay! shes super .i tried some clothes on in wet seal. they were cute. then we went home and watched some of Badder Santa. then went to bullmoose before i went home. xendlesstragedyx: ashley alexis labbe is so hot x So Divine x112: yuh i SO hear that alot x So Divine x112: lol x So Divine x112: riiight xendlesstragedyx: im not even joking, you're really pretty i <3 crista the worst is over now

summer!! [17 Jun 2004|11:01pm] I still can't get it through my head that summer is here. It's so wonderful. Summer makes so much shit that went down in school fade away, it makes most things feel better. I've been so happy during these past couple of days because school has ended and I don't have to deal with ignorant/annoying/slutty/bitchy/drama-filled people at school. I haven't had to see Jen, which has made me content. I haven't had to deal with some Jaren guy who acts like a 5 year old when he's a sophomore. He would sit there and after every word I would say, he would mimic me. It's so god damn annoying and immature. But now that I don't have to see these certain people, my days are so much more better. Wednesday--I walked over to colleen's house[which was a extremely long walk, too much for such a hot day]. she took a shower and then we hung out with one of her friends Ben and his girlfriend Dru or however you spell it. They're so nice. I drank a little, all right a lot but it was like 4 in the afternoon so it wasn't as much fun. I felt sick but nothing was happening. Then I had a huge headache. I met Alisha or Alicia for the first or maybe second time. she's wicked cool and extremely nice. Colleen and her are so opposite, but look very happy together. we hung out with them for a while then went back to colleen's . then around like ten p.m. we went back and walked to the new pool on union street and went swimming. it was great. it was so nice out side. and it was like only 6 people in it. then we went to colleen's and slept. today--I went to devins around 12 or 1230. we watched rat race which was all right, pretty funny. then we hung out for a bit . around like 430 we went to Olive Garden which was really nice. I love going out with just him to places like that where we can just sit there and talk, and not argue or anything. its nice. we went back to devins and hung out, got into a stupid argument but it doesn't matter cause things are better now. Later we went with Nick[his brother] to his friend Joe's house. they were all on some roof drinking beers. they got devin to drink some and it got me pissed cause I told him not to drink in front of me. after.. we left then went driving around. it was fun. we were trying to race some old guy but...no lol. ..and now I'm home! tomarrow I hope I can go to Devin's earlier. I think my mom's upset cause I'm hardly ever home. .... hmm. love me the worst is over now

[14 Jun 2004|10:43pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | get low;lil'jon ] HOLY GOD- its SUMMER !!!! thank that lord. this summers gunna be off the heezzyyyy-- lol Friday-- went to devins after finals. did what we usually do. fun as usual. i love him so much. he thinks im changing and i don't see it. i wanna be perfect for him, and i cant help the shit that i do or want to do. i love him so much and im so happy with him. we went to olive garden:) it was nice:) I LOVE YOU DEVIN!! Saturday--went to emily's around 1 only to see that she was still sleeping lol. elise and tasha were there. then colleen and her friend ashley clark came over. it was fun. just felt like old times with a bunch of people there, having a great ass time. that night was awesome, there's nothing else to say but it was perfect. lol it was really fun though. colleen "fucked" for the first time.. her code for something.. Sunday--went to devins house. i was WICKED tired.. i fell asleep on devins kitchen table while looking at comics in the newspapers and waiting for devin to mow the lawn.. lol. it was his brothers birthday and his ex leela was there, she's weird. today i went to school , had to tolerate sitting next to jen and annain the cafeteria while talking to brooke. ugh. it was nice. then after my final i went to devins. we started watching romper stomper but i didn't really like it, it wasn't as good as american history x i really liked that movie. we went to the movies and saw Shrek 2 .. it was funny lol cute movie well im gunna go. god get low reminds me of summmmerrrr:) love me the worst is over now

"I'm from river side California..." [07 Jun 2004|04:01pm] this weekend was cool. Friday I went to colleen's with mike after school on the bus. we sat around for about 20 mins. and then went to colleen's kfc protest. it was alright.she made my hold up a sign. colleen was on TV! lol. she had a hickey too.. it was funny. somebody threw chicken at us so WE called the cops, but they told us to leave anyway. cause we were yelling and there was over 6 people and colleen didn't have a permit. so.. whatever.. colleen, casandra,mike,madi,kirsta, and i hung out at mickey dee's for a while and then colleen mike and i went back to her house. we hung out for a while. talked. then walked around. went to dunken donuts and shaws. then a park by her house and met a drunk guy named will .. '' I'm from riverside, California. the girls here are different"" crazy.. then we drank with him and his buddys .. even though most of them were older. but i didn't even get drunk so.. yah. that will guy kept hitting on me.. and told mike he was gunna " get with me tonight" lol crazy fool. Saturday in the morning. mike made us breakfast,.. he complained about how late it was( it was 8:30 in the morning) lol crazy. devin picked me up after he came from Sam's . we hung out at his house.. had fun:) Sunday i went to devin's again. we went to the mall and borders. it was fun. then we went home and watched trainspotting and ate pizza. i left around like 830. i did like SEVEN extra credits for w.geography. ugh. i better get a good grade -- finals are coming. Wednesday i have world geography for first test, which sucks cause i failed the mid-term.. ugh.. jens so dumb i should go.. i have to ... do something.. maybe study.... wait until devin gets out of work. love me and 2 can breathe again the worst is over now

[01 Jun 2004|08:59pm] last night at like 1040 i watched .. 40 Days & 40 Nights with .. yummy yummy Josh Hartnett. :) lol. it was. interesting. @ school i felt horrible, i have/had a splitting headache, stuffy nose, soo drowsy, and im sneezing and coughing every 2.5 seconds. it SUCKS. to make things worse, i heard that Chris Burr was talking shit about me & devin , about how we " have sex all the time without condoms on, everywhere" and that kind of shit and i confronted him in Math about it and he was trying to blame it all on Kevin S. and that he didnt say anything and he wasnt the immature one. and then after math ended, i called him an asshole and he came up to me and said something so i fucking pushed him into a door and hit him somewhere, not too hard though. idiot i went to devin's after school, it was fuunn:) we watched What Dreams May Come , sad movie. then did other stuff. i had to leave around 7 cause i had to go tanning at 730.. I FELL ASLEEP IN THE TANNING BED -- i was supposed to be in there for 20 mins. but i fell asleep and woke up 10 mins late.. lol. it was scary. so i got home, ate some mickey d's .. got online and chris was "apologizing " to me.. ugh. im being nice, but not really forgiving him cause it was ignorant. but whatever. i already have a couple tiffys going on.. lol. so im not gunna go on with more shit. cause im a GOOD PERSON.. i <3 colleen.. she was trying to get me in a better mood at school when i was pissed .. lol and i <3 casandra too. she tried to touch my boob. lol but .. i wouldnt let her cause i was mad. but they're nice -so .. i <3 u. I LOVE DEVIN:) soooooo much. OH MY GOD FLYNN dyed her hair .. i saw it today, i almost passed out.. shes so great. so beautiful. everything. but i LOVE devin.. i dont love her.. . but shes still.... so dreamy:) lol well im leaving. so love yall love me the worst is over now

ooppss [01 Jun 2004|02:24pm] [ mood | giggly ] for that thing i did i had to copy and paste it all , then make the things that were true bold.. got it from jessica. the worst is over now

[01 Jun 2004|06:26am] 01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions. 02. I don't watch much TV these days. 03. I love psychodelic mushrooms. 04. I love sleeping. 05. I have loads of books 06. I once slept in a toilet. 07. I love playing video games. 08. I adore marijuana. 09. I watch porn movies. 10. I watch them with my father. 11. I like sharks. 12. I love spiders. 13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair. 14. I like George Bush. 15. People are cool. 16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. 17. I have a jacuzzi and a Porsche. 18. I have a lot to learn. 19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself. 20. I'm smart. 22. I have a secret. 23. I hate snow. 24. I drink only milk. 25. Punk rock rules. 26. I hate Bill Gates! 27. I love Chinese food. 28. I would hate to be famous. 29. I am not a morning person. 30. I wear glasses. 31. I don't need glasses. 32. I have potential. 33. You only have one race. 34. My legs are two different sizes. 35. I have a twin. 36. I wear a padded bra. 37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing. 38. I'm left-handed. 39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them. 40. I hate horror movies. 41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway. 42. People hate me usually. 43. I like pop music. 45. I hate parking fines. 46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart. 47. I know more than two languages. 48. I spend too much time on my computer. 49. I often want to throw my computer out the window. 50. I live on the first floor. 51. I don't like chocolate. 52. I'd like to be more original. 53. I've lied before. 54. Cocks are my favorite birds. 55. I want to conquer the world. 56. I wonder what happens when you die. 57. I've read all books about Harry Potter. 58. I want to eat your dog. 59. I love to exercise. 60. I hate science with a passion. 61. I like to write. 62. I like changes. 63. I hate going to class. 64. I am afraid to die. 65. I hate dish washing. 66. My hair is long, brown, and curly 67. My nails are nine inches long. 68. One of my favorite colors is black. 69. I like to sleep on the floor. 70. I am hopeless at cooking. 71. I sucked my thumb when I was little. 72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.like getting ready for school. 73. I am online alot. 74. I hate government. 75. I don't have a girlfriend. 76. I'm too nice for my own good. 77. I love to read, I read as much as I can. 78. I don't trust newspapers 79. I sometimes like arguing. 80. I live in a lagoon. 81. I clean my room once a month. 82. I'm scared of american fast food. 83. I am prying open my third eye. 84. I love Mozambique. 85. I don't trust any religion. 86. I used to play with barbies. 87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little. 88. I like listening to wind chimes. 89. I'm very disorganized. 90. My hair is long and straight. 91. I learn a lot. 92. I don't like spicy food. 93. I keep a diary 94. I can't do cartwheels 95. I am very lazy. 96. I'm sarcastic. 97. I think my hair is annoying. 98. I'm very emotional. the worst is over now

jumping in puddles w/ colleen walker [31 May 2004|09:58pm] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | watching What not to Wear ] i finally got a layout finished. thank you. its been a while, today was me and devin's seventh month !! woo lol. that's good news..eh? but we werent able to see each other because i had to stay at my dad's last night.. it was alright. we watched Big Fish and SWAT. the funnest part was sleeping. his bed is so comfortable. its like heaven:) this morning at like 10 we went on his boat and went fishing. lol came back around like 1 .. i still feel like im in a boat ..rocking back and forth... lol surprise surprise! jens being a bitch. lol now how did i know that would happen? god shes so two faced.. shes nice to your face, then talks shit about you behind your back. ugh. she has nothing better to do. and she knows people dont like her, she just doesnt wanna admitt to anything. she can dish shit out to other people about you but once you start defending yourself BOOM! its the end of the fucking world & she has to start some stupid shit. and she always stares at me and talks about me. GOD if im such a bitch and you hate me so much-GET OVER IT and find a replacement cause i could care less what you fucking think.. if you dislike me that fucking much then stop talking about me . shes like obsessed with starting shit. im not surprised .. anyway- thinking about her upsets my stomach. i hung out with colleen on friday. that was so much fun. before devin got out of work we played cards and ate chips and salsa. lol that was GREAT! and then we tried on some of her new tanktops she got from good will [lol they were cute]. then!! we put these rain coats and matching pants on .. which were fucking HUGE AND PUFFY. and went playing in the rains, jumping in puddles with flip flops on. and sat in puddles too. holy shit was it fun. lol then there was a car coming and colleen's like '' watch it be devin' -- yeah it was devinn.. lol i ran up to him and gave him a hug in my wet suit. it was great! after we got changed,we went to devins . we played cards and other stuff. went back to colleens at like 1030.. devin spent the night but had to sleep in the living room. but that morning i woke up at like 7 and went over when he was sleeping and gave him a hug ..:) he woke up smiling:) i love him jessica boyle and i are kind of talking again. its nice. we havent got into talking in person or hanging out. just lilttle conversations here and there online. which is an okay start. i went to taylors like either a week or two ago.. that was bunchs o' fun lol. we went to get a movie and went to her house and watched tv .. then had some hotto doggos and then watched White Oleander i think thats how u spell it-- very good movie... after that was over we went hott tubbing. lol. it was SO hot. but fun. then went inside and watch The Virgin Suicides very good. i had to leave early cause i was supposed to go to my dads and see Sara[the baby] but she got sick and had to go to the hospital. Devin and i saw The Day After Tomarrow. -- good movie. SUCH a good movie. so scary of the thought of it happening though. but it was really good. -- well im sure im missing big parts but i cant think.. ill write later. * we got year books. sign mine people. :) love me the worst is over now

credit [30 May 2004|10:30pm] [ mood | impressed ] thank you very much to lj user--msryhead for making my blurty layout.. :) i'm very happy its not so blah anymore. i love you devin ashley* the worst is over now

fooling around with this [30 May 2004|10:18pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | dip it low;c.m. ] i love devin the worst is over now

[30 May 2004|10:13pm] i love devin the worst is over now

may 9th [09 May 2004|10:45am] [ mood | high ] [ music | petey pablo. freak a leak ] i havent wrote much .. but oh well.. devin and i had our six month :) it was great. we went to the mall then went to Olive Garden and had lunch there. it was nice. then went back to his house and watched Ghost Ship lol. i cant really remember what has happened since our six month or the last time i posted an entry. but ill tell you about my weekend i guess -- friday-- i went tanning right when i got home. i got some facial thing that is really intense on your face. it was weird. then i went over to my moms friend Jodi's house and babysat her 2 year old. hes so cute. we played bastketball out side and then at some easy mac. :) they have those gates for babies and i went to step over it and my pants got caught, but theres only a LITTLE hole. so its alright, but watch it grow bigger. -- saturday-- i went to devins at like 1twelve . we watched Scream.. lol they're actually good moves. then we had chinese food . then walked his dog .. and after we watched Scream two.. probably next time we'll watch the third. lol. i went home and my mom was going to work and brittaney wasnt here so i was alone and fucking scared out of my mind my cat was upstairs and made something fall over or something and i fucking flipped out . holy shit i was scared lol i got up early this morning and made my mom breakfast for when she came home. i made her pancakes and some toast lol. hard work right there. i watched chasing liberty today.. it has mandy moore. its a good movie.. ooo i have scream three on vhs :) lol i thnk im gunna watch it <33 ashley the worst is over now

navigation [ viewing | most recent entries ] [ go | earlier ]