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[02 Apr 2003|10:59pm] |
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Faye Wong - Angel |
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Oh gods.... I love what Irae does to me...
I'm sou tired... but I feel sou good...
maybe things are turning around for me finally...
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| oo amazing.... |
[01 Apr 2003|05:42pm] |
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Paulina Rubio - Fire (Sexy Dance) |
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holy shit...
holyshitIspeltwithIrae...... oo
not that that's a bad thing though >:3
It.was.amazing.
The best I've ever had. EVER. Better than even Enaid.
I just woke up a little while ago... we were up most of the night making the bed creak. Tired senmurv thing I am, but I feel sou damn good. I can't even describe it. Not accurately at any rate... he's.... wow...
We took a shower together, and went back to bed. I think he went to get some food or something 'cause he's not around. Oh, will I have a surprise for him tonight, my Mr.Bunnykins >:3
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| Sex |
[30 Mar 2003|08:07pm] |
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Final Fantasy Techno |
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I want SEX!
goddamnwhendidIgetsouhorny.
I think it was the coffee buzz that got my libido going. Whee!
Top. Bottom. I don't care. I just want sex. I bothered almost everyone about it (except Sadness and Insanity). I got thrown into a wall by Irae. I must have really pissed him off. Oh well. Maybe I'll go back to that club tomorrow and pick up someone. I'm too tired and achy to go now.
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| Coffee Buzz |
[30 Mar 2003|12:40pm] |
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Luna Sea - Stay |
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WHEEEEE!!!! ^_o
*shiver-twitch* Irae went and got the two of us some ice cream last night and we sat and talked together. yummy From Russia with Buzz. BUZZ!! Zzt!!
Can you tell I ate all of my coffee flavored ice cream with coffee liquor chocolate chunks, and coffee something or another swirl?! CAN YOU?! *twitch* ^________o
Yup! Coffee Buzz! BUZZ! ZZT!!
I had Irae rolling last night on my coffee buzz. I suppose that I was amusing in my uncontrollable fits of giggling.
I invited him over tonight to play some songs for him ^_^ I hope he likes them. I think they're pretty cool.
I think Suiren's changing her desktop theme ^_o oh dear. This should be interesting. Woohoo! she has coffee! *dance*...
was I just dancing?
holyshitmymindhassgonetoallhell...
off to do stuff. I think I should get some lunch.
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| Feeling better |
[29 Mar 2003|08:37am] |
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Cirque du Solei - Allegria |
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What the hell is Suiren doing up sou early? @@ What the fukk am I doing up sou early?!
goddamnitIwannagobacktobed......
grr... hungry. Yeah, I know i said that Senmurvs don't need to eat, but it's usually a good thing if they do. Especially in my case... but that's another story entirely for another day entirely.
Most of Suiren's family is leaving home for the day, so she only has to deal with her littlest sister. Hoorah. That makes things easier on me. OMGs, last night Suiren got PISSED and smacked her littlest sister for being an impatient, rude, insolent little brat. Yay, Suiren!
Yipe. She's getting ready to break out her drawing stuff again.
Holy shit, her littlest sister having friends over. Run. Hide. Flee for your lifes!!!!!!
Oh dear... I feel strangely lively today... Oo okay, the world is going to end. Prehaps its all the rest I've been getting. I duno. Well, I'm gonna go get some food because, damn, do I ever have the munchies... ;; for Ben and Jerry's From Russia with Buzz Icecream... but we don't have any!!!!!!! ;;;; Maybe I'll ask someone to run out and get some... or go get some myself.
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| Another day in bed (not like that you sick freak) |
[28 Mar 2003|04:48pm] |
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Plastic Tree - Itai Ao |
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Sorry about the lack of an entry yesterday. I was too tired to get out of bed and I'm still pretty disoriented.
Yummy ^_^ Irae brought me hot sub thingies. They is good. Especially the Sloppy Joe one.
Suiren's been up to no good, with her drawings and such... I think she drew me Oo;;; She had a pretty weird dream last night... all her loved ones were getting killed and crap Oo;; Suiren has problems.
Well, I think the person that I like doesn't like me so much. oh well. I didn't think he did. I didn't keep my hopes up. *sigh* I don't need a mate anyway. Too much trouble. And one nights stands risk too much.
*sigh* oh dear, she's working on one of her stories again... run.
Well, I better get back to bed... Irae will be coming back to check on me again soon.
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| Boring Day |
[26 Mar 2003|10:26pm] |
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Vanessa Mae - Fuga |
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Today was boring. I stayed in bed all day because Irae wouldn't let me get up because I got a bit dizzy again. -_- bastard. And I wanted some food, but he's said that he's get it. I spent most of my day listening to music, a bit of writing, and sleeping. It was extremely boring. I wish I had had something better to do. I'll hafta find something for tomorrow cause I'm probably going to be stuck in bed again. *sigh* oh well. I spent a lot of time playing with Irae's tail XD
I think I've found someone that I'm interested in... I'm not going to go into detail and I won't let my hopes get too high... lest they come crashing down.
I'm tired... off to bed now. Night.
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| Rethinking old strategies |
[25 Mar 2003|11:11pm] |
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Malice Mizer - Bel Air |
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I feel awful...
I yelled at Irae for saving my life... for trying to help me...
I had no right to snap on him like that... I should even be grateful... he did save my life afterall... even if I wanted die.
I'm gonna try to make it up to him...
I got a bottle of Code Red, a box of pizza, and a couple boxes of pocky... I wonder if he's hungry...
I'm sorry, Irae... how will I say it?
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| Awakening |
[25 Mar 2003|05:04pm] |
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Seki Tomokazu - Now I can die |
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...........
I woke up just a moment ago... and that was a surprise in itself.
There was no one else around and my room was still a mess... but my wrists have been bandaged.... I'm alive....
Who did this?! Holy fuck, I just wanted to die! But no! I can't even do that!!! ARGH! DAMN YOU ALL!
.... what's this?
.............. someone left some food here... teriyaki chicken and rice... and a cup of coffee.....
and there's an empty Code Red bottle on the floor.... I know who did this....
@@ whoa... why the hell are things spinning?! I think I'm gonna go lay back down...
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| It ends here tonight... |
[24 Mar 2003|10:06pm] |
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Evanescence - My Last Breath |
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The cold blade on my wrists... spreading forth my warm blood...
I went to the club... and met an old aquiantance of mine... one that I would rather never see again... He taunted me and teased me and made several passes at me before calling me a worthless piece of shit... he's right... I've never been any good to anybody...
it's every were... on the keyboard... on my shirt... my pants... the floor... my blood...
I came home and came straight here... I took the knife that I keep under my bed... and I slit my wrists... just a moment ago... I dropped the knife in my clumsiness... it's on the floor, covered in my dark red blood that's so well outlined against my bright red fur... my tears are hot... burning on my cheeks and down my neck...
Well... I better go lie on my bed and die now, watching the blood pour from the open cuts on my wrists... goodbye cruel world... fuck you... goodbye... and goodnight...
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| My evening and today |
[24 Mar 2003|04:36pm] |
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Billy Idol - Tainted Love |
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My evening was not uneventful... just full of events that I would rather didn't occur.
I spent most of the night after about midnight with Sadness, because he had been with Suiren, who has been in 'an awful bout of depression' as my brother put it. I don't quite think it's that. She's stressed. Badly. Everyone's afraid that one day, she'll just blow up or something. She's been bottling all those bad feelings inside for so long.
After that incident, I stayed with Suiren for today day up until a little bit ago. She's with Happiness I think now... I dunno. She's been in a piss poor mood though, and with all that's been going on, I don't blame her. Her sister moves out in about a week, so that'll be a great relief on her.
*sigh* Irae wrote in his journal about how his evening was... Irae, I don't have much luck. Everyone I've picked up there has been a pain in the ass, in more ways than won. I have no luck with people. No luck = no mate. I don't care.... but the idea of a warm body to spend the night with is rather appealing... perhaps I'll go tonight if Suiren doesn't need me around.
Well, Suiren's about to leave for class and needs to find some food. I better go so I can secure my teriyaki chicken and rice inthe refrigerator. True, Senmurvs don't need to eat because of their bodies are magical and crap and don't need physical susitenience, but it good to have a nice meal once and a while.
Oh, and tonight I'll post a poem that I wrote. Be afraid.
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| Weekend in hell |
[23 Mar 2003|03:45pm] |
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Gravitation - Sleepless Beauty |
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*sigh* it's been one hell of a weekend. Sadness is with Suiren right now, so I'm getting left to myself as I prefer.
Suiren's weekends have recently been hell for her, so I've become a bit more promient on the list of recently used emotions. Fun. I hate my job. Can you tell?
Irae and I are getting along a bit better now. We come to a compromise, so things are working out between us. He inquired about a few locals places to pick someone up. Well, here you go. There are a couple bars down the street some and a club a few blocks away. Have fun. It's been a while since I've had a one night fling... and I don't think I'll go into it now.
Suiren and her family finally finished that goddamned fence. Hurrah.
Lesson Learned: Suiren and her pale Senmurv ass burn easily in the sun. She's almost the color that I am.
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| The Rivalry Begins... |
[22 Mar 2003|10:53pm] |
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Metallica - Master of Puppets |
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Next time, I'm going to avoid the temptations of an experiment like that again.
Irae ruffed me up a bit, breaking my stereo in the process, and tying several knots in my long fluffy tail. Goddamnit. They've been a bitch to get out. I still have one left, that I'm working on with one hand while I type. I can say this much, someone must have gotten their knot-tying badge in boy scouts. Sou, Mr.Bunnykins, it's you against me now.
After getting my ass beat, I stole Apathy's newspaper and flipped through the personal ads for some kicks. Gods, where they ever boring. Female squirrel seeking tall dark attractive male of any non-predatory species and Male cat seeking interesting, humourous female of any species to engage in friendly and deep conversation with were probably the only two that made any sense. The absolute worst that I saw was Androgynous mix-breed seeking sexual partner. Preference is male. Must be tall, attractive, dumb as shit, and only looking for a good time in bed. $350 an hour plus tips . This makes me think that I might just be lucky to not have a mate. One question... why the hell do I keep going through this goddamn personal ads. There's no one in here for me.
Suiren is quite a laughable sight at the moment. She's almost as red as I am. It appears she got some sunburn on her face and arms while working on the fence outside. XD
Right now, I'm going to go attempt to fix my stereo, and then prehaps sit down and seriously write something... I think I'm going to write a poem.
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| New Roommate |
[22 Mar 2003|02:50pm] |
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Gravitation - Shining Collection |
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Oh, are things ever going down hill.
Suiren's friend Kirei's pet bunny Irae is staying with us now. Just great. He's in the room at the very end of the hallway... next to my room. Damnit. Why, oh why am I stuck with another nut. It's bad enough that Sadness does nothing but cry all the time, Apathy sits in front of the TV, Happiness runs around with his goddamn cookies like a fukking idiot, Sleepiness sleeps all the time, anywhere he can and it's a bitch to wake him up, and Insanity... well, that's self-explanatory.
Oh dear... someone's a bit upset >:3. I guess there Code Red is missing XD *branishes mini-bottles of Code Red from under his bed* I wanna know how long it takes him to figure out it was me. That should be fun.
Well, now I'm waiting, sou I think that I'll go play some loud music on my stereo and prehaps sketch a little something. I've had a few ideas...
Lesson Learned: Suiren is not nearly as good at building fences as her father thinks she is.
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| Introductions |
[22 Mar 2003|01:59am] |
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Evanescence - Going Under |
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*sigh* Well, Suiren has given one of these cursed journals to 'vent'. Whatever -_-.
I suppose this could come in handy to keep track of my daily events... and current goals... which I will not list here at the moment.
I suppose I can talk about my nutty family here to. No, I am not alone in the vast reaches of Suiren's mind. I have a brother, two distant cousins, a friend of the family, and our 'great and powerful' leader. Oh, it's a wonderful life. like hell.
I think Suiren's the one who needs to vent! All the anger she get's pent up from her family it's insane. And the fact that she's sick a lot doesn't help. Stupid fukking hypocondriac. Get better. I demand it.
Speaking of nutty people... I met this bunny the other day. Introduced through Suiren's friend Kirei. He was hot. Damn. Nice piece of bunny ass. Yum... but am I really interested in him? I dunno. I guess we'll find out.
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