....was my msn name today and I had quite a few people worried, but it serves them right for not recognising the gods that are Feeder! so HA is what I say! HA HA HA!

*ahem*

I'm downloading some new music tonight, my playlist is definitely expiring methinks.
Hopefully will see American Pie 3 this week aswell. I would see Pirates again quite happily *pause for drool* hehe but I havent seen AP3 yet so it deserves my attention this time!
School's a lot better this year than it has been. I can't help thinking though if the teachers treated every year like they do our year, they'd be getting straight A students all the time. We get so much more respect in 6th form. I'm pretty sure all the lower years hate us now, but I don't care! :P It's fun to be us!! lol
There's a guy in my Theatre Studies class this year, we worked together last week. But I just can't figure the guy out. He's the most confusing guy I've ever come across and usually I don't have any trouble sensing things with people, but this ones got me thinking...hmmm

It's like a broken down cafe light, flickers on and off
Suggest to night, but not in sight
The melting of the sun
And shadows creep the lonely street
With nothing more to lose
Oval glows, of porcelain shells
Treasures on their toes

Power Outage now, we're all just on our own
People wander, nothing's changed
The lives have all been sewn
And in your eyes the wonder caves
And shadows draw the tears
The empty night, the solemn dusk
Amid the moon's dark fears

Just watched the VMA's. Yeah, I'm late I know. But after all the fuss everyone made I was expecting a bit more to be honest. The Madonna/Britney/Christina..erm...ness wasn't exactly stunning, though Justin Timberlake's face was classic. And the only actual part I enjoyed watching was Coldplay's performance and my god could The Scientist be a more beautiful song? It's just the most gorgeous thing I love it!
So anyway, my parents are back from France, so this weekend's been nice and relaxing. I was gonna go to the cinema but I just couldn't be bothered in the end. Plus, there's a complete lack of cash right now. I seriously need a job! I need to finish off my CV first though...eck...

Well then, I'm still on a total Lifehouse high and consequently have been eating, sleeping, breathing Lifehouse this weekend...well maybe not the eating part that's mean!
But, it's been layouts, icons, websites galore right now. It'll die down eventually don't worry, but I might aswell milk it as much as I can with the gig fresh in my mind. I took my camera today to get the pictures developed, so I'll post them up shortly at t-d.net! YAY! In other news, I'm sick :( Hope I feel better soon, just eating chocolate and watching movies at the moment :)

I went to see Lifehouse last night and I'm telling you now it was the most amazing experience I can think of. Everyone had such an amazing energy, the atmosphere was fantastic, I just loved every single thing about it! Jason Wade has the most beautiful voice in the world! (if you think he doesn't shutup and humour me)
Me and Becca took a ton of pictures, getting them developed asap! So I'll post them soon-ish and go into a little more detail after :) All I can say is, despite the fact I feel like collapsing today, I'd go do it all again tonight quite easily!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

New layout, I'm kinda bored of this journal layout, I can't change as much as I'd like to, I'll have a fiddle later I guess! But yes, Fight Club, and I'm working on the official Fight Club infanity which will be opening soon!
Mariel's gone on vacation, what will I do this week without her! My bubble buddie lol, ok yes we won't mention that incident again!
I can't wait for my holiday now, it's getting hectic around here! I'm dreading packing though I gotta say, it's EVIL I tell you!!
I'm in a downloading mood, so I'm gonna get some new summer tracks! :P

Ok I just watched the last ever Buffy and I have a few thoughts, so if you haven't seen it, I advise you to not read on.

Overall I liked the episode, I thought it was witty, which I hadn't expected. I figured it'd all be pretty emotional for the last ever episode, tieing up loose ends and all that crap, but there was a lot of humour, I like that.
I could have done with more Angel, I thought his brief appearance was extremely unecessary from what they made of it. Don't get me wrong, I wanted him in the episode, but the way they did it made it extremely transparent that they just pulled him in, waved him around to the fans so they were happy, then took him out. His lines were good though, I liked the whole 'Now EVERYONE'S gotta have a soul....I started the whole thing' pout lol, I was cracking up.

Now I knew of the casualties before actually watching the episode, and I knew that Anya would die, but what I didn't expect at all was that her death would be a split second on screen of getting pretty much sliced and then Andrew and Xander joking about it afterwards. I mean how pathetic is that? When she's been with the cast fighting alongside them since the third season and she gets that bloody send off!! That was fucking appalling! And then Spike getting the 'champion' status, and Buffy's last words being in the episode being I Love You to him. What crap. After the episode started with her kissing Angel and talking about their future together, and then that! pppfftttt! And we already know Spike is joining the Angel cast next season, so his 'death' didn't really have an impact on me, seeing as I knew he had a future, although that didn't stop me crying when Buffy died and I knew there were at least 2 other series....so I guess that just means I didn't particularly care either way what happened to Spike. Purely because his character lost my attention. The whole having a soul thing I thought could be interesting, but just turned out plain dull to be honest. I didn't care for the character anymore and his chemistry, his appeal, it was all lost.

Ok Dawn. I like her. At first, and for a very long time, I hated her, this season she's grown on me and they didn't overdo it with any of her lines. They were down to the minimum and I thought it was just right. As she was walking away from Buffy in the school I realised she how much she has grown on me and actually grown up.
Xander and Willow there wasn't enough of, Giles had some bloody fantastic lines and at the end as I was crying he even managed to make me laugh again when someone said

'That's the end of the hellmouth then' and he replied
'Actually there's another one in Cleveland....not to...er..spoil the moment'

lol fantastic! And it reminded me what the show was about. And you know what? That episode is one of the best I've seen and why the hell couldn't they put all of that into the whole season, and while they're at it the season before that..and the season before that?? You know?? I mean they had the emotion, the action, the romance and the humour crammed into a one hour finale, so it's duable! Chosen was at season 1-3 standard, they could have kept it up in season 5 and 6, but they kept it drawn out and lost it somewhere in the middle.

You know what else I would've absolutely loved?? Oz in the finale! They shouldve had him in there..and OMG my Buffy poster just fell down off the wall, excuse me while I cry some more. How much more bloody symbolic can you get?? Jesus!!
Ok, anyway, yes Oz! He would've been great in there doing anything at all, fighting, coming and going like Angel did, anything at all! Why Joss why??! ggrrrr!

Ok some more things I did love - the whole fight was stunning and the explosion Spike's pendant thingy created with the hellmouth, the whole 'all girls becoming slayers' thing was pretty cool, I wonder if anything will come of that theory in future Angel episodes? what would have been amazing is a massive Angel/Buffy crossover somehow, get Wes, get Cordy (if she wasn't unconscious) back, hell even get Fred and Gunn in there! One big party!! I'll be watching it many times over. I still can't believe that's it....I'm now officially in denial

I'm updating Paula! You happy now? hehe silly girlie! So anyway, I went to see Matrix Reloaded today and bloody hell what a movie! Seriously, how great is that?? I was sitting there with my mouth open practically the whole movie...well that's a little over the top, but you get the idea. The whole car chase scene was amazing and the fight with Neo and all the Smiths hehe twas fantabulous my friends! I loved it better than the first one anyway! And I also saw Anger Management, but yeah, that was a load of crap lol. Saw the trailer for Bruce Almighty which looks kinda funny. Jim Carrey's another kinda 'iffy' actor.
I think I might open up a journal icon site, I've been making loads of them lately, tis fun :P But then, I'm working on about 5 site projects at the moment, so who know's what'll happen? I must have about 30 unfinished sites on my hard-drive waiting eagerly for me to tend to them..awwww! And when is the day for rejoicing?? JUNE 17th when my exam issues are totally over and I'm out for the summer! Bring on the 17th!!! pppplllleeaaaseee!!

I was talking to someone I've been friends with pretty much my whole life and she sent me a link to a site her and some school friends had made to put pictures and messages and stuff on. See the thing with my old school is about 7 of us took an exam to go into higher education, just because I wanted to really, I just thought better opportunities and all that crap, but the rest of the class and most of the school (eventually) went on to this other catholic school. I don't know why, it was like some sort of tradition, they were all lemmings and decided they'd go there even before looking around or thinking about what they wanted in the long run. But anyway, that's not really the issue. I was looking through all these pictures and most of the people in them were in my old class at school, and it just made me realise how much I miss so many of them. There really were some amazing people there, and I kinda wished I stayed in touch a little more to be honest. Some people it took me a little while to even recognise, they've changed so much, but some were the same old people I knew. I'm glad I still speak to my friend, I just wished I'd kept in better contact with the rest of them. I'm gonna be seeing her and a few others later on in the week, so maybe I'll see some of the old gang too lol. I hope so anyway, I really do miss them all and lately I've just been feeling...I dunno...pissed off about my life really. It's the same old routine all the time and I'm sick of it. I need to get out there, meet some new people and be happy, because nothings gonna come to me if I just sit here and moan....on that note!...

Well just when I'd gone straight, I went curly again!!



Next I'm trying crimped and wave lol. Yes, incase you hadn't noticed yet, I've got a new hair tool lol, very exciting for me anyway!...I'll shutup now....
There was a party tonight, but I decided not to go. It was at some guy's house who I was sorta, only sorta, but sorta nonetheless, going out with and now I just feel really awkward around him, I don't like it at all. It's like one minute it was fine and now he just annoys the hell outta me, I really have no idea why.

Paula, I talked to a friend of yours today! Lol! By the name of Natalie. She has great taste, added me to her msn, discovered she also liked matchbox 20, the rest is history! lol, well not really, but I looked at her profile and discovered she was a Scottish person, and you were the only one I could connect someone to in Scotland! Isn't that lovely? Anyway, where are you? Come online more! I demand it!! I miss curling chats and attempted Busted conversions! So there!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope you got lots of nice wonderful wonderful prezzies!


I just watched The Bill for the first time in years! I can't believe Reg is still in it!!! I feel so sorry for the guy, all the rest of the cast have had better offers and he's still there lol. And what's the deal with Joel from neighbours popping up? I'm sure I've missed something there!

I've been sick for the past few days :( so I've mostly been stuck at home this week recovering and my nose is so red from tissues! yukk! But it's been really nice and sunny today so I had to dig out my sunglasses and get out of the house, I've gone a bit brown too actually. And tomorrow I'm off to Dan's! We're gonna bake cookies! LOL how fun hehe. And watch Boiler Room which I hear is very good and then next week I have my French Orals where I have to learn 50 questions and answers and erm....haven't started yet, so I probably should soon lol.

Feeder rock muchly! Yes indeedy! Been listening to them all week, and so switched my journal icon to Grant of the loverrly Feeder! YAY! I'll try and get back on here later, just wanted to switch the layout, I'm off to watch Alias! ADIOS!

[edit] I'm baaaaack! Alias was pretty good this week actually, it is actually getting better and better everytime I watch. The first series was a bit slow to get started, but it's better now :) Going out this weekend, do a bit of shopping and go see a movie. I really wanna see Phonebooth and The Recruit, not just because of Colin Farrell goodness! But just because they look plain fantastic! And also that George Clooney one, is it Collinwood? We're so behind in the UK, you guys probably had it out last decade, but ah well :) Looks pretty funny. My friend Katy is bringing some guy named Carl, and apparently he's not only totally crazy, but hyper all the time also....sounds like fun! [/edit]

Been a little too absent from this journal haven't I? Maybe because I installed blogger at the domain, so it's been just as easy, if not easier to update there rather than here, but I'll do my best to keep this going. Just finished a long letter to Mariel :P YAY! Expect that soon missy! Getting mail is so FUN! LOL
I'm gonna cover my room in posters, yes I am! Lol, well posters and tickets and randomness methinks, I'm just in that kinda mood. Where are you Rita? Are you still in France? Ah the confusion!
I'm in Mary's convo of the day! How cool is that? Very cool I'd say! I'm a bit hyper right now! AHHH! I watched Leon last night, it was very sad indeed :( Watched the Life Of Brian too though, that's one funny funny film! Fawlty Towers is better though! They never get old! I've gotta get the DVD set one of these days, they just crack me up everytime!

Ok, well I wrote this all out for another site earlier, so I'll paste here what I put there :)

Two words : ABSOLUTELY STUNNING
Doors opened at 6:00 and we got there at 5:30, so we didn't expect to get too far to the front. However, when we finally got inside, we were about 4 rows back! :D Nothing happened for an hour and I was in the 'standing' area, so we all sat down. (my ickle legs were killing me)

Then, the lights went down and I stood up to see what was going on and the first support band came on - the lead singer of echo and the bunnymen and his back up band. They were good, but not really my kinda music. Anyway, they were on for about 30 minutes and then the lights came back on, so we sat down again.

Then, about 20 minutes later, the 2nd support came on - Feeder! Have you guys heard of them? They're actually pretty massive over here and it's weird they were supporting because they've done arena tours as big as Coldplay. They had so much support from the crowd and played 'Buck Rogers' a single from about 3 years ago, and their biggest hit here. The crowd LOVED it! They were on for about 40 minutes and then the lights came on again.

Went off 20 minutes later and I knew it'd be Coldplay. Everyone started cheering, but the stage was dark and I couldn't see anything. Then, this strobe lighting came on and suddenly Chris Martin (lead) was jumping up and down 3 metres in front of me. I tell you this now, Chris Martin is absolutely mental!! The guy's a genius, but CRAZY!!
At one stage, he was spinning around near me and he knocked a wire to his mic, it nearly fell over, so he kicked it back up again, but it bounced back down and he couldn't stop laughing until someone ran onto the stage from the right hand side and sorted it out for him, while he's still spinning around without a care in the world! :D

They played all the great stuff, 'The Scientist' what I was waiting for, was stunning, the only disappointment was that they didn't play 'Shiver' one of my faves, which you should all download now!!
On 'In My Place' on the 'yeah's, Martin lead the whole arena in unison, and everyone shot their hands up to the ceiling at the same time, it was fantastic! I looked above me and the whole arena were totally together, the atmosphere was incredible! I just can't describe it, other than stunning and the fact that I was so close, made it that much better. Next time, they're over here I'm there in an instant without a doubt!

They recorded 2 tracks to play on the radio between NOW and 7 (not sure on your time) but I'll be listening :) I'll be there somewhere within the noise. My throat and legs are recovering today, it was all very tiring, but so totally worth it! Breathtaking!

Well hello there my feathered friends! How are you today? Hurry up and get the boards back Dee, I'm missing RD!! Where are you Mariel? I got to the Tag-Board of glory when you left and now you're nowhere to be found :(
Anyway, my Coldplay tickets are arriving tomorrow and no I don't plan on shutting up about them at all! ;) HAHA! Exciting stuff!!
So, I have a sore throat right now and I'm staying in tomorrow again which sucks because there's no school and I wanna get out of the house!! Urgghh!! But it's for the best if I'm better for Wednesday :) I should really be studying too, but I just can't bring myself to do it, it's so damn dull.
Avilla went into the studio today to do some recording for the EP! There'll be about 7 tracks I think, and we'll put one on the web when it's finished, probably pick the best one. Then you can hear what I'm always on about!

Ok well I'm not as angry as I was, but I'm still not willing to communicate with this person. I just had to vent much like the other people involved in the situation have done. I've said on another site all that I needed to say and I don't want to waste anymore time procrastinating over the situation, so that's the end of it. Death is not a subject to be taken lightly and things will NOT be the same. Thanks for those who have offered their support...
I switched the layout again and added a new icon. Making the most of Buffy now it won't be showing much longer. Angel is getting goooood though! woohoo! Not liking Cordy though, but the storyline's making up for it I guess. My friend Dan just went on holiday to Spain and Verity went to France, I miss them already! And I'm stuck at home waiting for the dreaded GCSEs bleuurghh...