Laura's Journal

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

12:16AM

Daily Check-In (for of course, August 11 2004)

Have I...

...taken a shower?
...visited my forums?
...weighed in?
...had any beverages?
...had any food?
...exercised at all?
...anything else to say, ED-wise?

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12:07AM

Okay. According to http://www.caloriesperhour.com/index_burn.html - my RMR (resting metabolic rate, I assume) is 1528 cals. This means that in order to burn 1000 cals per day (necessary in order to burn 2 pounds per week) and the ideal of 1400 cals per day (to burn 50 pounds by the vacation), I would need to eat no more than 128-528 cals over my exercise. I think I should burn off 100 less than what I eat, just to be safe. If for some reason I cannot exercise, I cannot eat over 500 cals. Should be simple enough.

I think a general rule of 700-900 cals, with 200-300 burned on the treadmill is pretty good (since even an intake of 900 cals, if I forget to exercise, is somewhat under my RMR and so would be livable).

Today I intend to consume:

1 apple
some lettuce with mustard and *maybe* a low-cal pita or wrap bread
as little as feasable at dinner with some protein, obviously healthy stuff
popcorn at night

My first goal is NO BINGES. If at first, this means eating up to 1500 cals a day, I can live with it. The most important part of this is to break my emotional addiction to food.

Other rules/goals include:

1. NO BINGING. I may eat a small, healthy snack (but it must be reported) if I am hungry and have already tried drinking water, diet beverages, and distracting myself including exercise.
2. Exercise and shower daily. Exercise burns cals, and cleanliness preserves purity.
3. Report in journal many times a day. Keep everything updated and stay accountable.
4. It's okay to make mistakes...but don't run from them. Write down even your failures.
5. Stay motivated!

Here we go.

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004

11:23PM - Welcome to my Hell. May I take your order?

Hello. Let me introduce myself. My name is Laura (yes I do possess a surname but at the moment am witholding it from the general public to reduce the risk of identification). I am fifteen years old and will be sixteen on the 28th of this month (August). I have been overweight for most of my life, and absolutely refuse to continue such a status.
As of recent measurement, I weigh 166 pounds, and with this knowledge I am entirely dissatisfied. As a result, I make the following proclamation:

I, Laura, hereby solemnly swear that I am committed to losing 50+ pounds.

This journal is for the purpose of recording my progress, daily struggles, calorie counts, tips and tricks for weight loss, and various weight - and eating disorder - related stuffs. I have an actual personal journal (a bunch), my primary one being at Livejournal.com. I didn't make this one on LJ because I would have been tempted to "friend" myself, and then it would have just been a disaster.

Current Stats:

height: 5'4"
weight: 166 lb.
BMI: 28.4
BMR: 1500 or so
total pounds left to lose: 50+

My Goals:

I am going on a cruise this upcoming December 23. By then, I wish to fit into a size 5 bikini (that my friend from online is going to send me once I obtain enough money). Until then, as of tonight, I have 134 days. My goal is to lose at least 25 pounds by then. I think it's quite reasonable, as that is less than 2 pounds per week. If I could lose all of it, that would be ideal...but I need to make my goals small. I will strive for 2 pounds per week. If my BMR is 1500, I need to eat <1500 plus exercise. I think I will go on a daily basis for this one.

next short-term goal: 164 by 8/18 :-)

will be back in a bit with more lovely sites, info, and more funfunfun!

God help me, I'll need it.

Current mood: determined
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