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| Friday, May 16th, 2008 | ||
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feelslikefire |
6:10a | 63.5. Meal plan day 5. Yesterday went so, so well up until a point. I eaten a small amount of chips and pizza instead of some other things. Later on at night I just was lazy and eaten some chocolate and then purged. It was a very small stupid incident - which I am not dwelling on a great deal. It gave me a taste of what I dont want to do again. Lost quite a bit of weight since yesterday morning, that wasnt due to purging because I weighed myself yesterday beforehand - and the numbers had gone down a lot then. I just cant help but think I would have weighed less today if I had not have purged. Anyway - today will be good. I am going to scrap the points system - that doesnt work. I am also going to add my own things to the meal plan to increase my intake slightly.  |
| Thursday, May 15th, 2008 | ||
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blarneystoned |
11:01a | Trendsetter Angelina - ok Jack Black did it for her - confirms twins! Everyone is copying me. |
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feelslikefire |
6:21a | 64.6. Meal Plan Day 4. I am unsure about yesterday. I think I did OK - but I am not sure. I have 2 different parts of my brain trying to bash out on whether I screwed up or not. For the last few days I dont feel I have been eating enough, I feel knackered and I lie awake all night, so yesterday I upped my intake a little bit no binges, no overdoing it. I eaten 7 chips and 1/12 of a beef burger, I also converted the soup to a yoghurt - Thats not a lot, but it still wasnt on my meal plan - but I felt so amazing afterwards, and I slept all last night. I dont want it to be a bad thing - but I just cant work out if it is or not. The eating disordered part of my brain is telling me I failed and I am greedy. I suppose I would just like some objective views on if that is ok or not. I still lost weight so I suppose that it doesnt really matter at the end of the day :S I just need to know if I can give myself a point for the day! |
| Wednesday, May 14th, 2008 | ||
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1cigarrette |
8:36p | So... I haven't been to the gym this week.. amazingly its NOT because I have no time... i just don't feel like it... which is kind of weird considering i always wine about not having time to go... blablabla... I got back to school this monday except my school schedule is pretty awesome (in some ways)... I take 6 courses every 3-4 months... Normally its 3 monday wednesday and fridays and 3 tuesdays and thusdays... this term i have 3 online courses (which might be pretty intense... i don't know yet) and 3 tuesday-thursday classes... so after work (1pm) mon-wedn-fri i'm basically free (although with online-stuff to do) and tuesdays and thursdays i go to school 5.30-10pm... which is... hmm different... i'm not sure if it's better... My intake has been alright lately... not awesome, just alright... I want to go back to my super strict diet but i can't bring myself to it... salad-tuna-grilled chicken-fruit-veggies-slim fast shakes... i just don't feel like it... so lately its been pretty weird... i rarely eat anything for breakfast, i have a normal lunch meal and eat whatever for dinner... blah... i need to change that... AAaanyways... i don't really have much to post about... except that the boy said something that freaked me out.. he said he wanted to get married in a bit more than 1 year... w.t.f. its not that i don't want to but it scares the crap out of me that i'm still so fucking young and whatnot... but honestly being in a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship for too long can be bad too... tomorrow we will officially be at our 3 year 4 month mark... wow... and i honestly have no idea WHEN i'll be "ready"... because most of the people that i know that are married at this age are just because they were pregnant... i'm turning 21 in a few weeks and he's turning 26 in july... its weird... because i don't want to date him for like 5 years, you know? and i'm quite sure we could be happy but i guess i wish i knew someone else getting married young and not thinking they've fucked up... that's all... and our age difference makes it harder, maybe because if I were turning 26 i might be feeling more ready but i can't ask for this relationship to wait another 5 years... and he'd be 31... so... yeah... meh i don't know... i guess if i were out of college (which i'll be in 1.5 years) and had a stable job... i wouldn't be so freaked out... blah... i guess i wouldn't say no... but... mehhh i'm such a control freak that i'm not sure i could handle it... we'll see |
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thinandhealthy [ thespian15 ] |
1:26a | Question....... Does anybody know, can you reduce the amount of sodium in canned veggies by draining them and then rinsing them under running water? |
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thinandhealthy [ thespian15 ] |
12:50a | Diet Week # 19..................... Well, I think there is good news and bad news this week. Bad News: I am still in positive numbers for weight lose. :( Good News: I actually lost weight this week. I was expecting to gain a little more and face the shame of telling you all, but also knowing I was ready to get on the right track. I didn't lose a lot, but it's a start in the right direction. :) ( Da Numbers ) Current Mood:  happy |
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feelslikefire |
6:31a | 65.2. Meal Plan Day 3. This is suprisingly a very good thing for me. I am doing very well. I know it has only been 2 whole days - and its still very much a novelty - but right this moment - its working. Its easy in work though - real challange is going to be the weekend :S |
| Tuesday, May 13th, 2008 | ||
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blarneystoned |
10:45a | Cerebral New Age makes me happy I have XM radio in my new vehicle & I am now addicted to it. CH 77 is "Audio Visions". My friend who owns a spa keeps it on this all day & it makes me feel like I am at a spa. With XM you can listen at home thru your computer. My husband has Sirrius which I loved until I got XM. I think the channels are better. Maybe its more user friendly because its built in my vehicle & with his its the reote equipment you plug in. I also have a sunroof which I never had before so my drive back from Pilates today was amazing!! Current Mood:  rejuvenatedCurrent Music: XM 77 |
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feelslikefire |
6:32a | 65.7. Meal Plan Day 2. 1 Point. Yesterday was ok. I am hoping for equal success today! Will update properly later in day. |
| Monday, May 12th, 2008 | ||
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thinandhealthy [ secrethoughts ] |
5:07p | Articles! Fruit and Veggie Myths- Why certain foods get a bad rap, why they're good for you, and the best way to eat 'em! 3 Easy Antidotes to Overeating- These steps are beyond easy. Check 'em out! Office Ab Workout- Do you log too many desk hours? If so, check out this video for some moves you can do at your desk! Get Fit at Home- Looking to shape up without the gym and with minimal equipment? Check out this article. It offers several different plans, depending on your goals. Each plan uses between two and three dvds to help you achieve your objective! If you're shopping for these dvds, I strongly suggest shopping around online. You can get a lot of these really cheap, especially if you buy them used. ; ) |
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feelslikefire |
7:48p | 67kg. Day 1 Meal Plan. 2 points. First day is going ok. It is suprisingly easier not getting excited about things. I didnt pick at anything at work today. Didnt feel particularly hungry which is good. Contemplating some good old exercise now! EDIT: Just went for 2 mile walk, not much - but exercise nonetheless. Legs hurting too much to run after doing loads over weekend. I know I am not eating enough to carry out hardcore exercise routine. |
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thinandhealthy [ secrethoughts ] |
11:09a | fitness update This past week, I didn't do too bad. I didn't quite make my goals, but I didn't fall too short either. Good - I walked to and from work every day (30 mins total per day) - I walked for 30 minutes during lunch on 4/5 days - I did about 20 mins of upper body weights on Saturday - I did about 20 mins of pilates leg work and stretching during the work week Not as Good - I didn't make it to the gym...work and house cleaning got in the way - I didn't officially do dvds, but the leg lifts and the upper body work are close approximations. Food - All fairly decent, but I really, really, really need to drink more water! This Week -I want to do just as well, and I want to get to the gym at least once!!! -I also want to drink more water. -I want to start doing my toning exercises again at my desk...I felt like those made a difference. What are you guys doing???? |
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1cigarrette |
12:54a | back from the beachhhh: 1. I got a tan-ish... yay! 2. I didn't feel like a whale 3. I didn't eat that much (even if i got my period mid-trip, meaning pms) 4. I worked out every 2nd day there 5. The boy and I talked a lot and we're in a really good place now 6. I did drink but it was 1 red wine one day and 2 vodka drinks another day 7. Must get back to pre-trip diet plan 8. I just CAN'T believe tomorrow i'll be back to school for my 6th term (out of 10!) 9. I had a great time. 10. Must-Sleep-Now. |
| Sunday, May 11th, 2008 | ||
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feelslikefire |
4:22p | My first serious meal plan. Starts tomorrow. Right, I mean business!! Gotta sort all this stuff out - there is just no sense in the way I eat. Its far too chaotic - I am not living life right now - I am just being messed up. I have devised a meal plan to sort out my diet. I am going to eat the same thing everyday - I want to take the excitement out of eating, I want it to be boring so I dont spend every waking minute thinking of food. I am hoping once I get used to it I will be able to live a little. It should probably be more calories - but right now I dont think thats a good idea, if its anymore I feel I am likely to end up purging. Its what I have to do right now anyway. 7.30 - porridge - 153 10.00 - snack - 100 13.00 - Pasta - 250 17.00 - snack - 80 17.30 - pineapple, mango and blueberries - 153 19.00 - stirfry (80) and peppered quorn fillets (108) - 188 21.00 - soup - 82 Total - 1006 cals. Every other day I can have a portion of rice pudding (either weight watchers 108 or muller rice small 164, normal 220). After 7 days of sticking to it I will consider changing it for some variety. Supplements will include: Vit B, Omacor, Gingko Biloba and Osteocare. I will get one point for each day I adhere to meal plan and 1 point for any exercise. 3 points will be deducted if I purge. If I get 15 points my reward will be a coffee machine, 30 points for hair straighteners!!!! This better work........ |
| Thursday, May 8th, 2008 | ||
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thinandhealthy [ blarneystoned ] |
8:56a | Goal I'm just writing to say that I reached my goal weight today & I did it the thin & healthy way. For a self-proclaimed restricting anorexic to "recover" & maintain a healthy weight was a big enough challenge. Then I got pregnant with twins. I had a healthy pregnancy & two luminous, healthy babies. Now I've lost my baby weight & I did it without crashing. Healthy eating & exercise --- all the way. I am doing battle with my disordered mind every day, but this community always helps. THANK YOU ALL so much for the support. I appreciate it more than I can say. Even though I am at my goal weight, this is actually the most dangerous time for a person like me. Maintaining health & not being obsessed by numbers is my new goal now. XO marnie Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: mute math "control" |
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blarneystoned |
8:54a | she shoots....she scores I reached my goal---- 126 today. where do we go now? I, of course, want a few cushion pounds. Is that me or my ED talking? I have to be dedicated to healthy eating& proper nutrition. Anyway, hooray 4 me. I did it the T&H way. I need to stay that way. |
| Wednesday, May 7th, 2008 | ||
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blarneystoned |
6:08a | shark in the pool? Being this close to my goal presents a problem: wanting a cushion. 126 doesn't seem like enough anymore. I want a few pounds of a cushion just in case, That is how a disordered mind thinks. I've been losing for 3 months now. How do I stop? Isn't a "cushion" an excuse not to stop? Weight loss is control. I haven't even mourned two devestating losses in my life yet. I've become a mother. So much change. Weight loss has always been my drug of choice. As I approach my goal these are actually dangerous waters. I'm scared. Numbers going down is relieving. It always has been. I need to really focus on healthy eating & having energy. Feeling good needs to be more important than numbers. The focus has to come off numbers right now. HEALTHY....that needs to be the mantra. Current Mood: concerned |
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thinandhealthy [ thespian15 ] |
2:23a | Diet Week 18............... It has been a couple of weeks now and I have failed miserably. I have reverted to all my old habits. Eat, eat, eat........ One of my nieces is getting married in July and that is also my mom and dad's 50th wedding anniversary. I am also hoping to go to Las Vegas in September. Shouldn't all of that be enough to make me want to lose some weight. To say nothing of needing to lose the weight for health reasons. Now what from that list isn't enough to make me stick to a diet? ( The Numbers ) Current Mood:  disappointed |
| Tuesday, May 6th, 2008 | ||
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1cigarrette |
4:38p | So.. I'm experiencing what it feels like to live on your own but with money... hahah this is the life... So my sisters and my mom are gone to the beach (since yesterday), the boy, my sister's boyfriend and I will join them tomorrow afternoon. And meanwhile, I'm homealone... Today I actually did housewife-stuff! like pay the maid and call the vet to pick up the dog and clean him up... Plus, I get to have a driver hahah terriffic! He drove me to to work, picked me up, drove me to the gym, then laser hair removal and i'm back home at 4.40pm, at 6pm I have to pick up my dog but I decided I'm going to walk because its like idk, 2 miles away?.. This is awesome hahah a house that's clean and quiet and allllllll mine... loves it! Besides... drivers are always on time... i LOVE being on time... seriously... i SO need one forever and ever my sister and my mom always keep me waiting for them... the driver is always 5 minutes early... je l'aime! |
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thinandhealthy [ clown_dust ] |
12:07p | Anyone up for a challenge of some sort?? I've fallen off of the healthy-food wagon and need help getting back on! |
| Monday, May 5th, 2008 | ||
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thinandhealthy [ secrethoughts ] |
7:26p | COOLEST THING EVER If you're watching your weight, Diet.com can help you count your calories. Text any major restaurant chain's name and menu item to DIET1 (dial 34381) and Diet.com will shoot you back the nutrition stats: calories, fat, carbs and protein. Wow. I'm programming that number into my phone...now. Follow the link for more info: http://www.diet.com/mobile/ Current Mood:  excited |
| Saturday, May 3rd, 2008 | ||
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thinandhealthy [ secrethoughts ] |
3:35p | Weekend warrior! This week was really busy, so I didn't get a chance to workout nearly as much as I wanted to, and the week before that, my allergies were so bad, I didn't do much of anything... Anyhow, here's my plan for the coming week! Today/Saturday: 45 mins of cardio at the gym Sunday: Do upper body weights at home, and do 30 minutes of pilates (mostly lower body work) Mon, Tues, Wed: walk to and from work (30 mins total), and try to walk 30 mins every day during lunch. Try to do at least one pilates or yoga dvd during this three days. Thurs/Fri: Same walking as above; go to the gym for cardio on one of the two days. So in total, walk 30-60 mins a day in total during the work week; do cardio at the gym 2x a week; throw in some strength training (pilates/weights/yoga) 3x a week. Hopefully this is doable! We'll see....Honestly, I feel so much better when I'm active. What are you all doing to keep/get in shape?? Current Mood: motivated |
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blarneystoned |
9:12a | do I hear a marching band warming up????? 127 today. I guess a lot of this was water bloat I'm getting rid of by paying my "monthly bill". I know that is TMI (too much info.) but I don't want you to think the rapid decline this week is because I am doing anything unhealthy. Ready the parade route -----here I come! |