| 10:48a |
Gratuitous whining.
Unfun.
I have good days, and I have bad days. I had a run of decent days where I didn't think about my body too much. For me, those are good days...days where I'm in a good mood, and I'm happy that everything is progressing healthfully. Today is a bad day. I really should probably just give up and either block out my mirrors from the shoulders down or just shroud them altogether for the next few months. Either that or I just shouldn't ever look at myself from the side or from the back, because from the front, I don't look so bad. Bad days usually begin with me looking in the mirror or trying on new or old clothes. Apparently...not a good idea. Mirrors=bad.
My hips/upper thighs/butt area has just gotten so....lamentably wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiide, and I hate it! Seriously? Does the baby need this? At this point, I'm seriously wondering if I'm incubating more children in other parts of my body in addition to the obvious one in my abdominal region. I'm sick of eating. I'm beginning to wonder why she can't just grow and flourish by eating my fat and a cocktail of multivitamins. Seriously, there's enough fat to feed a small village of children for months.
I want my body back SO BAD.
And I'm uncomfortable. I can't sleep. Yet I'm tired most of the time.
The thing is, I have months of this, and it's just going to get worse. Seriously....like 80 something days.
My shower is going to be in mid September or so, and I hate to think what I'll look like then. A team of whale saving volunteers will spot me, and they will probably make a concerted effort to get me back into the ocean where I belong.
I cannot wait to go on a diet and work out.
Current Mood: negative |
| 2:07p |
Today has been very productive!
Update on productivity list
1. Return ugly clothes at the mall. I'm counting this as done. D returned his at the mall. Mine have to be returned through the mail, but I got the return label and everything, so I'm doing it tomorrow. Whatevs!
2. Pay off remainder of Amex bill. (Debt free, yay!) I have only $60 left on it, so...I'm calling this paid off. Whatever!
3. Go to Babies R Us and make sure I'm happy with what's on my registry because the shower is in September ( a little bird told me = P )
4. Email addresses to my mom. I emailed a bunch of them. I'm still waiting on two addresses.
5. Fax pay stub to mortgage people to prove I still have a job.
6. Call about stupid MRI bill. I emailed the guy.
7. Eventually actually see Ami about the project thingie.--I called her and emailed her; I'm trying!
8. Go to grocery store so I can buy food.
9. Call and talk to Donielle.
10. Start working on annual report.
Additional things:
11. Read stuff Ami sent me.
12. Go to bank and deposit money.
13. Call about doggie classes.
14. Walk in concourse for 30 minutes. |