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One of the weirder things about pregnancy is how....sentimental...other people can be about your pregnancy, and this often leads such people to want to take pictures of you, so that they can document this...special time.

Now, honestly, for obvious reasons, I've always disliked having my picture taken.

Always. Since forever. And...I'm always very particular about the pics I post on facebook and myspace and all that. Only a select few where I'm not making a weird face or where I don't look outrageously fat make the cut for public consumption.

Anyhow, D's dad was at our house on Wednesday, and he insisted on taking all these pictures of me to send to D's mom, who apparently has been dying to see how I look at every possible stage of my pregnancy, which of course sent me into a panic. **Deep breath...try to act normal. Do not freak out. Smile. Smile. Smile. Normal pregnant people don't mind having their picture taken. Smile. Look happy. Smile...** Up until this point, I had somehow managed to avoid having my picture taken.

Everything was fine until I logged onto facebook the other day only to find that my damn sister in law had gotten the pics from her parents and had posted them all over facebook, and I looked horrible in them. Ugh. Aside from the pictures being hugely unflattering (pun intended), my hair was askew; I could have used some more makeup....a more flattering outfit...the list was endless (do my arms really look that fat? omg...I thought I looked cute in that dress! Am I seriously that wiiiiiide?). These were pics that would have been burned, not posted on the internet...at least if I had any say. While I'm sure I might actually be glad these pictures were taken at some point in the future, I'm not too thrilled about it now because all I want to do is ignore my body from the shoulders down, not have it....all over the internet for everyone to see.

Additionally, she's been totally annoying because she's forever posting pics I'd rather not have her post, like my ultrasound scans. I am a neurotically private person. You will not learn much of anything about me on facebook or myspace or....anywhere online, except here. I didn't even put my own ultrasound scans online, and it just....annoys me.

Of course, she is one of these happy, well-adjusted people who just loves having photos taken and just posts everything online because she's happy or whatever, and that's great. Really, it is. I'm trying not to be a weirdo about this, and it's taking every ounce of restraint I can muster to pretend to be a normal person and not yell at her to take those goddamn pictures down. She would never understand, and for that...she is lucky.

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