jade's Blurty

disappointed
Yesterday, my friend Liz called and said she'd be in Albany today, which she never is. Now, keep in mind I never see her ever, and she's pretty much my only actual, personal friend in the area who isn't an acquaintence through work or D. I was very excited to see her. I cleared my schedule in the afternoon. I cleaned my house this morning. After my conference call was over, I realized my cell was dead, so she'd be unable to contact me, so I went home and imd her at about 2. She had to leave Albany at 3. She hadn't called; she hadn't even tried to contact me. Turns out she had no idea what time it was and she was still doing whatever it was that she was doing, so it didn't happen. Now I am muy disappointed. Le sigh.

Hmph. It sucks. I know it's way lame and really pathetic to be so let down about plans falling through, but I seriously never see anyone, and I have no in person female friends, so I'm kinda bummed and really disappointed and a little hurt, because obviously it meant a lot more to me that I was seeing her than it meant for her to be seeing me...since...she...basically...forgot....and it didn't happen. And it just fucking annoys me when people don't follow through. You have fucking plans. LOOK AT YOUR FUCKING WATCH. It's not that hard. If you don't want to see someone, don't make plans with them. It's not that hard. It's not like I twisted her arm or anything...she...called...me to ask me...to hang out with her...today. Ugh. Annoyed.

Yesterday was annoying because it looked like the house was going to fall through again for like the 10,000th time. Today it looks like it might go through, but as the status of our house and the mortgage everything seems like it changes daily, I don't want to think about it. I swear, you can never take anyone at their word because everyone flakes on everything, and everyone lies. I don't get it. I don't want to be lied to. If your schedule is booked too tightly and you don't think you'll be able to see someone, say so. Don't make additional plans and flake on them. If you think it will take you two weeks to get some documents (that the entire mortgage depends on when the conract is running out in a matter of days) to someone, don't tell them that you're going to overnight them when there's not a chance in hell you'll do it. Seriously, why can't people just be upfront? Just say you'll get the docs to me as soon as you can, but that it might take a bit. Say you'll see me the next time you're in town, and then do it. Really, is it too much to ask to expect to take certain people at their word?

Anyhow, ugh.
Still so annoyed.

I was so annoyed about the mortgage thing yesterday that I didn't go to the gym, so I'm going today.

Yesterday I followed my food plan almost exactly.
What actually happened
Bfast: Whole grain Eglish muffin with crunchy peanut buttter
Lunch: Non fat organic Greek yogurt with blueberries
Snack: 1 Packet of whole grain oatmeal with blueberries
Bvg: Low sodium V8, ~~low fat string cheese~~ 1 slice of turkey meatloaf
Dinner: Left overs! Probably a little chicken breast and avocado in lettuce wraps with kimchi chicken fried rice
Dessert: 2 1 square dark chocolate
Dessert2: 1 low cal ice cream bar...about 100 calories

It seems lately that if I eat soemthing with 0 protein, I get hungry way faster, so that oatmeal didn't really turn out to be a good snack, which is why i had to eat more substantial for my next one.

Today:
So far:
Bfast: Whole grain Eglish muffin, eggs, light sausage (thought it would be nice to have a proper bfast w/D)
Lunch: 1 cup non fat organic Greek yogurt with blueberries and strawberries
Planned:
Snack: Low sodium V8, low fat string cheese
Dinner: whole grain pasta, turkey sausage, veggies
Dessert: 2 squares dark chocolate

Current Mood: disappointed