jade's Blurty

Monday?
I'll try to keep this short.
Friday I had my 20 week ultrasound: it's a girl!

All my test results have been perfect so far, and she's exactly the size she's supposed to be (sticks tongue out at everyone who says I'm too thin right now), and they went through the little baby part check list, and she has everything she's supposed to have: arms, legs, fingers, toes, two kidnes, a functioning heart with four chambers, two eyes...the whole nine. This is a tremendous relief. I honestly can't imagine how people has babies before ultrasounds. It's amazing to see the difference between the 4 month and 5 month ultrasound; she actually looks like a baby now!

I'm excited about having a girl, but at the same time, I'm concerned. I'm afraid of passing on the obvious, and I'm nervous because so many girls seem to have ongoing issues with their mothers, and I'm nervous about how I'm going to prevent this. I seriously don't want my daughter to hate me or cause her to end up in a shrink's office.

Also, I didn't gain any weight between this month and last month, which is awesome because I think I gained too much in the beginning because I was afraid I wasn't eating enough, so now I am exactly where I'm supposed to be.

I also got a 30 minute walk in, so that was good. The walks are definitely doing me good. I am kind of starting to show. If I don't have my shirt on, it's pretty obvious, but I can still dress to hide it. Because I'm tall with a long torso and because I tend to gain weight pretty evenly, I still look pretty good in certain clothes.

Saturday we proctored, and it sucked. Waking up at 4:30am is not something I'm really all that capable of doing anymore. On the upside, we seriously needed the money because we are BROKE. I took advantage of having nothing at all to do for 12 straight hours by filing my nails, reading The Sun Also Rises, and doing a ton of upper body toning exercises with my toning band.

Sunday, we slept because we were tired..obviously. It was kind of a wasted, lazy day. We slept in, cleaned up the house a little, and went to the gym. I walked on the treadmill for 3 miles/45 minutes at an incline. I felt pretty good after that. I'm always tempted to go for the elliptical, but honestly, I think it would take too much out of me. Then we went to the grocery store where we spent a depressing amount of money on ...what seemed like...nothing. Stuff is seriously too expensive now. Ugh! Honestly, I can't wait until D graduates and has a real job, because this sucks. In the long run though, I know it will be worth it.

It's amazing what rude shit people say to you when you're pregnant. D and I have both had people say weird stuff to us. Here are some of my favorites:
1. Was it an accident? (WTF? Like it's any of their business?!)
2. (To D) Do you know who the father is? (Again, wtf?)
3. (To D) Hey man, I'm sorry; it only happened once. (Wtf?!?!)
4. I hope that's decaf. You can't drink coffee. (Actually, pregnant women are allowed 2 cups a day. While a woman can opt to abstain, it is not medically necessary unless it's a high risk pregnancy. And again, none...of...their...business..)
5. Something to the effect of...You're too thin; I hate you. Your baby can't possibly be healthy...(Again!? None of their business! Where did this idea come from that women are supposed to gain 70 lbs? Technically, a healthy woman is supposed to 25-35 over the whole pregnancy, and that's supposed to break down to about 10 in the first 3-4 months and about 1lb a week after that. My weight gain is right on target, and I have a doctor who will advise me if it's not.I'm sick of the hate. Women are so MEAN to each other, and it's totally unnecessary. Why can't they just say...nothing? )

Food for today:
Bfast: 100 calorie high fiber English muffin with natural peanut butter (yum!)
Snack: Low fat string cheese and an orange
Lunch: 1 can of Amy's soup
Optional snack: 1 pack of whole grain low sugar oatmeal
Dinner: Lean pot roast w/ baby carrots, peas, and steamed brown rice
Dessert: Strawberries and low fat cool whip

Tomorrow:
Bfast: Egg on mini bagel (high fiber, low cal of course)
Lunch: Salad w/ veggies and chick peas and such
Snack: Low fat string cheese and strawberries
Bvg: Low sodium V8
Dinner: Nachos on organic blue corn chips w/ grilled chicken, lettuce, tomatoes, black beans, chilis, salsa, low fat cheese, low fat sour cream
Dessert: 2 squares of dark chocolate

Ladies, I'm beginning a count down. Session is supposed to end in exactly 3 weeks! Only 12 Session days left!

I totally was unable to keep this short.

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